OKAY! Back by popular demand. RAGNAROKS CHALLENGE! Que the cheering and streamers. Anyway, I haven't really written anything in a little while and the last bit I did I'm not too proud of. HOWEVER Looking back at all the reviews telling me good things about this story and that I should write more I feel I must continue! Thank you reviewers! Keep encouraging me! You know who you are and for you here is a super special 3.

Anyhow we left off with Chrona accompanying Kidd back to his house. No stop that you perverts! Nothing like that will happen in this chapter. Anyway, here you go.

Powder blue eyes scanned the walls of the main hall. Chrona had been here once before, when Kidd had given her that hair cut. She stifled the shudder, it seemed like that should be a good memory, however it only served to increase the apprehensive throb in the pit of her ribcage. That's one thing she never really did understand. The physical manifestations of depression, Medusa had taught her all about the way the body functions, and even more so about her own body because of the adjustments. However, despite the fact that emotions actually had nothing to do with the organ the heart, and instead were simply a balance of hormones in the brain, she still felt it in the pit of her chest. It was kind of similar to hunger, or, well it was much closer to the feeling one has when they've been made to go hungry for extended periods of time. An emptiness, not hollow, but aching, throbbing over in onto itself, eating itself, and growing, yet shrinking at the same time. She could feel it all the way through her ribcage, from spine to sternum, from stomach to the back of her tongue. It was constant, throbbing there in the back ground a subtle simple reminder, one that was as hard to forget as the ever constant presence of ragnarok, the second her mind protected her from it, it would flare up and attempt to consume her.

And she would let it.

All those nights in that dark room, the lack of a childhood filled with blood and insanity. No, it didn't seem like insanity. Not to her anyway, Asura was insane, Stien was insane. Chrona was just….obedient. Driven to the brink of madness by her own misery, her own guilt, her loneliness, her fear, her dependence. She didn't give in, she didn't quit, she would become a kishin, for her mother, for herself. Because Kishin don't feel guilt, or misery, or fear…right?

"Chrona?" Her head jerked up, when had she started staring at the floor? When had her eyes started watering? There was a small part of her that hated this, that knew she would be hated for being like this. Medusa would have killed her if she'd ever seen this much weakness. Chrona blinked three times in rapid succession, and the problem was solved she wanted to force herself to smile at Liz but could not do it. Her energy for such things was draining, once again despite it being a few simple facial muscles it seemed so much more exhausting than that. "Patty went to help Kidd prepare the guest room. It's still early though, we could watch a movie or something" Liz suggested casually while meticulously fixing her hair, Liz smiled at her kindly "It's always just me patty and Kidd. This place gets pretty boring sometimes, so it's kinda nice to have you here." Chrona didn't know how to respond to something like that being said to her. She folded her arms around herself and looked to the side.

"I don't really know how to handle that…" She mumbled nervously and she could hear Liz chuckle at her, Chrona flushed, knowing that the laughter wasn't to mock, or so she hoped, she still didnt understand how to respond to such a comment. She shuffled her feet awkwardly in her new boots. She hadn't gone back to her cell in order to change clothing, she simply fallowed Kidd back to his house. "u-um…H-how long do you think K-Kidd will be?" Chrona asked changing the subject.

"Oh you know kidd. He's up there fixing every tiny little detail making it completely perfect." Liz said calmly waving a hand. "Oh I meant to say how cute you look in those clothes Chrona, You should dress like that more often" Chrona thought about it absently and decided that would be far too inconvenient. Liz looked around, wondering where patty could be, why did she suddenly disappear when Chrona came over? It seemed odd. But then her sister was a bit odd. Patty seemed to avoid Chrona. Liz sighed, she didn't really know what to do with the timid girl just standing there. "Hey, how about you let me do your make up" Liz suggested abruptly. Chrona jumped and stared at her strangely, Liz smiled, Make up was her go to in situations like this, Nothing was better for bonding than mascara.

Kidd stood in the guest room. He'd claimed the need to tidy it up but let's be realistic, this was Death the Kidd's home. There was nothing that needed tidying up. Ever. He was hiding, he regretted to be. He felt a horrible sense of guilt or avoiding her, hadn't that triggered this whole mess? But, he was scared.

The more time he spent with her, the more he came to realize he hadn't successfully banished the odd…feelings. In fact they seemed to grow more and more, it didn't help that his desire to bring her happiness seemed only intensified by the original feeling he was avoiding in the first place. He thought he could maintain himself, be her friend, help her, ignore his selfish desires, ignore her timid beauty, ignore her slender pale legs, ignore her amazingly blue eyes, ignore her— UGH this was NOT helping! Kidd collapsed onto the bed placing his head in his hands and his elbows on his knees. What was I thinking? Bring her back here…I should have sent her with Maka…Or…something! He thought frustratedly, bringing her into his home had been the trigger in the first place had it not! The day he cut her hair…he groaned. Why did he feel this way? Why could he not control it? Shinigami's should not show this type of weakness. Kidd began massaging his temples. He shouldn't this like this. He needed to change his thoughts. I don't matter, these feelings…they don't matter. You have no right to this, you have no right to feel for her like you do. Just help her. He was talking to himself in his mind now, mustering up his determination. He had to help her, he could not let his feelings get in the way of that. It would only put more stress on her.

Kidd stood burying his nerves deep in his chest focused and intent on being her friend, on making her happy, or at least content. He made long even strides for the door pausing as he reached it, insecurities threatening him he scowled. No, it doesn't matter. Whatever is wrong with me, whatever these feelings are they don't matter he thought forcefully opening the door.

All that matters…is Chrona's life. He closed the door behind himself making his way down the hall, Chrona should still be in the front hall waiting with Liz. He tried not to think too much about her, but that in turn might insure that she wouldn't get better. He had to surpress his feelings, his confusing urges would only make things harder for her. Making his way down the stairs he stopped to straighten a couple of things, as he typically did. Focusing on symmetry would help him to not focus on what was going on. As he turned out of the staircase he paused as he saw Chrona seated on a char at one of the many side tables, and Liz standing above her with a brush in hand. Liz looked up and smiled.

"Ah, Kidd, Just in time! I just finished" She said and looked at Chrona. "Okay Chrona you can get up now." The pink head nodded and he watched her stand and turn to him.

"H-hello Kidd-kun." Chrona said nervously dropping her eyes to the ground, her face felt sticky and it smelled funny, her eyelids were heavier than usual and she felt ridiculous. Make up was for beautiful girls, not girls like Chrona, who were often mistaken for boys. She knew that Liz was being friendly but somehow she felt more out of place and self conscious than before. If that was even possible. Kidd seemed to stare at her for a very long time without speaking, she cowered nervously was he disgusted? Was he annoyed? She shuffled her feet again and looked around the room to distract herself. Hey, keep our face up Chrona! Make him want youuuuu! Ragnarok chided in her mind and she jumped. And where have you been all day? She asked him mentally and he snorted. Like I want to spend all my time listening to your stupid internal pity parties. I was sleeping, duh. Looks like I missed some interesting stuff though, why are you at Death boy's house! You know you're too young for those kinds of activities Chrona frowned at the crass comments but didn't respond, why was she at Kidds house? He had invited her…and she hadn't wanted to be alone. But…Why had he invited her? Why did Kidd want her here? Why was Kidd even bothering to be around her? He'd been avoiding her for months, and now he just changed his mind? Chrona looked up at Kidd who was now cleaning up the mess left behind by the make up, if he had commented on how she looked she'd been too distracted to notice. She watched him, golden eyes glistening as he worked intently. She felt a twinge of pain in her chest, a lonliness, an emptiness, Kidd was so amazing, strong smart talented. Chrona always admired him, if a little fearfully at first but when he'd cut her hair she…she thought she might have some sort of other feelings for him. She didn't understand, Chrona was naivee and ignorant of love and affection. She didn't know how to feel it, and she'd never received it, save for that one kiss.

That kiss. Chrona cringed as her chest exploded in pain and she felt her eyes water, she fought it back. She had been so hopeful, she had thought…maybe that they would be friends, or more than that? She didn't know how that worked. She defiantly didn't know how to handle it, but…she was wrong, she misunderstood his actions somehow, or maybe she just imagined them. He wouldn't speak to her after that, wouldn't even look at her. She'd never felt so…alone, so useless, so…so…so worthy of hate, from herself, from everyone.

Even from Kidd. Her eyes were watering now and tears were falling. Why? Why did that happen? Why am I so stupid? Why am I so pathetic? "Chrona?" his voice rang out and she looked up at him standing in front of her, so close to her, like before. The pain grew, more tear fell "What happened are you allright—" he asked reaching out for her concern in his wonderful golden eyes. No! don't look at me like that! Don't confuse me! I'm too stupid to understand you're kindness! She screamed in her mind glad that she had enough sense to remain quiet. He touched her arm and she reeled backwards away from him, almost frantic, falling onto her butt she was crying harder now, it was impairing her breathing and forced her to gasp.

"I-i-i-i-I" she started stumbling over the words through the tears mascara running down her face. "I-I'm s-s-s-sorry" she hiccupped out staring up at him "i-i-i-I c-can't" she choked out unable to breath and speak around the sobs. She was shaking her head now, go away, go away make the thoughts stop I don't want to remember, I don't want to know I don't want to know—her stomach lurched threatening her with bile and her eyes widened. Looking up at Kidd who looked confused and in pain she turned scrambling away, running for the door, loosing one of her boots in the process. She made it outside, thankfully, and to the bushes before emptying her stomach. The dry heaves interrupted her sobs, breaking them apart and distracting her from the sorrow enough to let herself calm down. She coughed several times, wiping her mouth and staring down at the inky black blood in the grass. She scooted away pulling up her knees, crying softly, more manageably.

"Chrona?" she didn't look up. She didn't want to look at him. She didn't want to feel that pain, she didn't want to remember. "Chrona…" his voice gentled and she felt his arm slid around her shoulders and she shied away from him.

"Don't" it came out in a whisper as more tears fell from her eyes. "P-p-please don't… j-just…just leave me here…" She choked out in strangled whispers. "L-l-like b-before…l-leave me…I-i-I c-can't…I w-w-won't u-under-stand" she sobbed out. He didn't leave yet he stood still as she sobbed his arm hovering over her.

"Like before?" he asked, knowing he would regret the question. She curled up tighter pushing her head away from his voice.

"a-a-after…w-what h-h-ha-happened" she whimpered out. "i-i-i-I c-cant…p-please d-d-don't confuse m-m-me again…i-i-i-it h-hurts." Kidd felt a pang of guilt in his own chest, anger at himself, he knew, deep in his mind he knew that was the cause, he knew he did this to her. With his selfish misunderstandings, his selfish avoidance of her to save himself the confusion. He never thought about how confused she must have been. "I cant handle this…I don't…I don't want to" she sobbed again.

"I j-just want to die"

Kidd's bones went stiff and his scowl returned, with his determination. This was his fault, this poor weeping broken girl who he had stupidly given then taken back affection for. This girl who didn't understand how to be cared for. This girl he was determined to care for.

This girl that he loved.

In one motion he swept the tiny frame up off of the ground into his arms. She squeaked in surprise between her tears and her breath sounded caught in her throat. He held her, standing still for only a second and stared at her as she avoided his eyes and curled away from him trying to be put down. "I'm sorry" he said and she froze still not looking at him, she quieted only a bit. "Chrona, I'm sorry I confused you, I'm sorry I hurt you. I was selfish. I was stupid" he said firmly not letting her down. "I'm sorry, and I'm not leaving. I wont do it again…I swear." He said hesitantly. "I swear, I'll be the best friend you've ever had, I wont hurt you again." The promise stung his lips, and pierced his heart. Best friend…friend…I can never let myself succumb to those feelings again…I refuse to hurt her anymore…

Okay guys this chapter is riddled with angst!

It is a bit jumbled it might be a little hard to understand if you don't like it, or if you think it could be better I'll take it down and try to make some improvements but I'm having trouble with their relationship at this point, its not far enough in for them to start falling in love, but Kidd is clearly in love and not understanding. Chrona doesn't know what to do. And neither do I. maybe in the next chapter I'll get them to talk more? Or give them independent time to think about things. Also, Chrona did fall apart in this chapter, it wont happen that extremely again. This was her point of no return and now she's being dragged back. So basically I'm a little confused with what to do, hopefully more inspiration will strike but I wrote this all in one evening so, lets hope its not TOO terrible. Remember how difficult it is to come to terms with being in love with someone around crippling depression.

Basically, tell me what you think? If you don't like it, I'll improve, if you do, then FANTASTIC.

Also, sorry its short, this is my attempt at furthering their relationship a bit, next chapter will be Kidd and Liz tending to her while she's I'll for a few days, some fluffy words between the two and Liz will be the mediator of love I think. But I think I've squeezed everything I can out of my brain for now.