10 months later

BPOV

I looked at the clock on the dresser and saw that is almost four in the afternoon. Edward would be home soon, and I still had a few more things to pack. I took the rest of this week off to get our stuff together before our trip. We were leaving Friday early in the morning, so I still had two days to get ready.

I packed almost everything, but my dress I would be wearing. That could be last minute to avoid any more unnecessary wrinkles. I would have it steamed when we get to our destination, but I would still like to try and avoid as many wrinkles.

The dress is just perfect for where we are going. When Alice first brought it out for me to try, I knew it was perfect even before I wore it. I couldn't wait to see Edward's face when he saw me in it or better yet, out of it at the end of the night. I got something special to wear under my dress that I knew would drive him crazy. I couldn't wait till we arrived. It will be perfect, I just know it!

I look over at the clock again and saw that it was past five when the phone rang. I saw that it was Edward. I wondered where he was, he should had been home.

"Hi baby, I'm guessing it's busy since you're not home yet," I told him.

"Bella, sweetheart, you have no idea! There are just so many little things here and there I have to take care of before we all leave for our trip. Also, the fact that I will be gone for more than two weeks, I need to make sure I can do as much now. I'm sorry, you know I want to be with you to help you pack," he told me sounding so tired. I felt bad that I took this time off. I could have been there to help him.

"Maybe I should not have booked these few days off. It sounds like you could use my help," I said to him. I wonder if I should go in tomorrow.

"No Bella it is fine. Someone needed to stay home and get our stuff together. I'll be fine, don't worry, okay? Beside I should be done for the day soon. I will be home by seven," he told me. Maybe I would have a nice bath waiting for him, so he could relax when he came home. I thought to myself.

"And Bella, you go ahead and eat dinner, don't wait for me. I grabbed a sandwich an hour ago because I skipped lunch and couldn't wait till I got home. Sorry," he said and I just giggled at him for apologizing because he ate.

"It's fine, Babe, don't worry about it. You just finish what you need to so this way you can come home to me because I miss you," I told him. I heard him sigh.

"Okay Bella, see you later then. I love you, and I can't wait for this weekend to come. It will be the being of forever," he said to me and it was my turn to sigh.

"Yes it will be," I smiled into the phone and finally hung up with him. I put my phone back on the dresser and stood up to go downstairs and grab a bite to eat for dinner.

I made myself a chicken salad and took it to the living room to watch some television while I ate. It was only five thirty when I finish my meal and headed back to the kitchen to clean up.

When I got upstairs I change into my tank top and just stay in my boy short underwear. I was a bit tired from the packing, so I decide to curl up in bed with one of my favorite new books. It is a book of poems Edward had made for me for Christmas. I remember how I felt when I first opened the box. On the cover was a picture of me, and under it was the simple title of the book, 'Because of You'. The book contained a bunch of poems from everyday people that he found when we were working through our problems. He said these poems are feelings that he has for me and sometimes doesn't know how to express them right. He had this book made for me, to remind me every day how he feels about me. I read my favorite one that he named the book after.

Because of you

Because of you
my world is now whole,
Because of you
love lives in my soul.
Because of you
I have laughter in my eyes,
Because of you
I am no longer afraid of good-byes.
You are my pillar
my stone of strength,
With me through all seasons
and great times of length.
My love for you is pure
boundless through space and time,
it grows stronger everyday
with the knowledge that you'll always be mine.
At the altar
I will joyously say 'I do',
for I have it all now
and it's all because of you.

Every time I read that poem it reminded me of that Christmas morning when he gave me the book. After I had finished reading that first poem I looked at him. He was standing in front of me not looking sure of himself, and he got down on one knee. He asked me to marry him. He told me that this is the way he wished he would of done it the first time instead of ordering me to marry him. He regretted the way he had treated me when we first met. I got down on my knees, so I could meet him. I look straight into his eyes and kissed him with all the love I had for him. Our kissing immediately lead to our love making next to our tree. I couldn't help smile when I think about how after we were done, and trying to catch our breath he asked me 'so is that a yes'? I got on top of him so I was straddling him, and kissed him again and again. I told him yes, of course, I'd marry him. I wanted no one but him in this world or the next one.

We have come a long way that was for sure. With the help of the therapist, Edward and I found our way back to each other. Edward had one session a week with the therapist alone to sort out his issues, and then we had one together once a week as well, so we could both work on our problems.

After that initial first meeting with Dr. Yorkie, Edward and I did go on a first date that following Friday. I, of course, had to cancel my plans with Mike. There really was no point in going out with him when Edward is who I wanted. Only Edward, forever and for always.

I remember that afternoon when I was getting ready for our first date how nervous I was. I close my eyes and just thought of that day…

God, I am so nervous, why am I so nervous? Does this really count as a first date when you have already lived with, kissed, and had sex with the person that you are going out with? You aren't supposed to kiss on the first date let alone go home and have sex with them right? Edward and I have done a lot of things together wouldn't those all be dates?

"Oh god, I give up," I said to myself out loud.

"Don't give up, Bella," Alice said from my doorway scaring me half to death.

"Fuck Alice," I said as I was trying to catch my breath.

"Nice mouth, Bella. What has you thinking so hard?" she said taking the hair straightener and started to do my hair.

"Just about this date. I know it is with Edward, but he asked…you know? It feels different. I mean we have lived together for goods sake. Does this still count as a first date?" I asked as she giggled.

"I guess, yes and no," she said sounding as confused as I felt.

"Thanks," I said as I picked up my phone and called Rosalie.

"Hey Bella, haven't heard from you in a few days," she said sounding annoyed.

"I'm sorry Rose, a lot has happened in the last few days, I'll tell you that much. I'm putting you on speaker, Alice is with me," I told her. Knowing that Alice would want to know what Rose was saying.

"Hey Rosie," Alice said.

"Hey Alice! Okay so tell me what has been going on? All I know is that you and Edward are talking again. And for the record, I hope you kicked him in the nuts for being a douche bad," she said as we all laughed and I filled her in.

"Well, Rose, yes we are talking again, and he asked me out on an official first date that is tonight. I was just wondering if this even counts as a first date since we have lived together already. What do you think?" I asked her as Alice finished my hair and sat next to me on the bed.

"Well, considering how you met, I feel it is a real first date. He never asked you out right? Never persuade you, he just pretty much had claimed you as his own. You guys broke up, but still love each other and are starting from scratch. I think it is good that you guys are going to do this the right way," Rosalie said. I was shocked at how insightful she was.

"Wow Rose, thanks for that. I am glad we are doing this the right way, at least we will try. I love him too much not to try," I told her feeling a little better.

"So Bella, do you plan on going home with him? I mean I know it's been awhile for you, but what did you plan on happening at the end of the date," Rosalie asked and I was not sure what I wanted. I know I love him and that he is the only one I want to spend the rest of my life with. I think if I was to go home with him now, that would ruin the little progress we have made. We need to do this the right way.

"Well, I do want to be with him. I just don't want to rush into it just yet. I think I will wait to see how therapy works for us, and go from there. It will be hard to resist him though, but I have to," I said. God, it will be hard to not touch him everywhere and to not be with him, it has been so long.

"Bella, just do what feels right. If he tries to kiss you kiss him. As far as the sex goes. I would make him wait until you two are really married," she said as we laughed and we both knew thatwais something Rosalie would do.

"Okay, thanks for the advice. I really appreciate it Rose," I said to her when the doorbell rang.

"I gotta go, he's here," I said to her all frantic because I still had to put my makeup on.

"Okay Bella, good luck Sweetie, and like I said do what feels right." With that we hung up.

"Alice, please go and stall just till I finish getting ready."

"Okay Bella, and don't worry okay. Just listen to your heart," she said as I was making my way back to my room. I could hear Alice let Edward in and I was all butterflies. I shouldn't be this nervous I scolded myself. I finish getting ready, and made my way to the front. I saw Edward and Alice talking by the front door when he noticed me coming into the room. I could see the need in his eyes as he looked at me. I was sure mine had the same look because he was just breathtakingly handsome.

"Bella, you look…amazing. Here, I brought you these," he said as he hands me a beautiful flower arrangement.

"Thank you Edward, they are beautiful. You too look amazing," I told him as he took my hand and brought it to his lips and kissed it ever so softly.

"So, are you ready to go?"

"Yes, Alice do you mind putting these in water for me," I ask her and hand her the flowers.

"Of course, you two have fun now."

"Thanks," I said, and waved to her as we made our way to Edward's car.

"Bella, you really looking stunning," he said. I blushed at how intense his stare was.

"Thank you, um, so, where are we going tonight?" I asked him as he opens the door for me.

"It's a surprise, I hope you like it though," he said and shuts the door. He made his way to the driver's side and got in. He looked at me again and I could feel my skin heat up with the same want and need that he seemed to be feeling. Going back to Alice's tonight was going to be harder than I thought.

We drove through downtown Seattle, and arrived at the Metropolitan Grill. A very nice restaurant. Edward drove up to the front of the restaurant where the valet parking attendant opens my door to let me out. Edward handed the man his keys, and we head inside through very tall mahogany doors. We are greeted by the Maitre D, who was dressed in a tuxedo.

"Mr. Cullen, madam, how are you this evening? It has been awhile since you have been here, sir," he said to us. I guess Edward has dined here before.

"Fine, thank you. And yes, it has been awhile," Edward said and shook the man's hand. "But, I have dinner reservations tonight for Ms. Swan and myself," he told the Maitre D. He smiled and looked my way.

"Ms. Swan so nice to meet you, I'm John," he extends his hand and I look at Edward wondering how he would feel about another man touching me, even if it was innocent. He just gives me a smile, and I turned to John, and shook his hand. These are things we will defiantly have to work through therapy with. I don't want to keep second guessing myself around other men with Edward.

"Mr. Cullen, Ms. Swan, if you will follow me I will take you to your table."

"Thank you," Edward simply said and we followed John to what looks like private dining room. It was a very cozy room that was decorated with wine bottles and candles. The walls were mahogany that was inlaid with mirrors. A very nice room indeed. Did he rent this whole room just for the two of us?

"Well Mr. Cullen, I hope you enjoy your evening, your server will be here shortly to look after you and Ms. Swan," the Maitre D said as he left the room.

"So Edward, did you rent this just for us?" I ask him and he just smiles back at me.

"Yes, I wanted to have a nice quiet evening, so we could talk. I hope you don't mind?" he asked looking unsure of himself all of a sudden.

"No I don't mind, it is very nice in here actually. I am happy we are kinda starting over like this," I told him and I could see the light in his eyes.

"Bella…I am too. I won't screw this up this time. You are far too important to me. I have never loved anyone like I love you," he said softly while holding my hand and bringing it to his lips for a kiss.

"I love you too, and that is why I am happy you are getting help because I don't think I can live my life without you in it anymore," I told him. And it is true; I cannot stay away from him.

The rest of our evening was perfect. We had dinner, danced a little, and at the end of the night he took me back to Alice's because we both knew if we rushed this it would just complicate things. He did kiss me goodnight at the door, and it was a kiss to remember. I touch my lips as I recall the feeling of his lips left on mine that night.

After that night I didn't move back in with him till two weeks before Christmas. With the help of therapy, Edward had done a complete 180. He is not the man that thought he could own me and tell me what to do anymore. He is still controlling in some ways, but nothing that I couldn't handle. He was still hesitant when it came to other men, but he has lightened up to the point where I can have Jake over without him freaking out. Yes, he has changed for the better, and life was really good now. Just then Edward came into the room and startled me.

"Bella, are you okay?" He looked at me with a worried expression.

"Yes, I am fine. I was just day dreaming and didn't hear you come upstairs. You just startled me, that's all."

"Oh, I'm sorry didn't mean too. So, day dreaming, huh? About what?" he asked walking over, and sat next to me on the bed. He looked amazing dressed in a suit. I could never get over it. I propped myself up against the head board so I could be face to face with him and gave him a knowing smirk.

"Well, I was just thinking about our first official date, and how perfect it was. You were a perfect gentleman that night," I told him and leaned over so I could graze his nose with mine.

"Well Bella, to be honest with you, it may of seemed that way on the outside, but in my mind I was anything but a gentleman," he murmured to me as he started to graze my cheek with his lips and gave me goose bumps.

"Oh is that so, um, mind telling me what you were thinking about then?" I ask him and moved so I was sitting on my legs, so I could have easier access to his lips. I gave him small teasing pecks on his lips and he caught me by surprise when he pulled me to him and my breath left my body with a big huff.

"Why don't I show you instead," he whispered in my ear. His was voice very deep from his arousal. Oh my, show me, yes please.

"Edward." Was all I could say and he just looked at me with eyes full of pure lust and then kissed me deeply letting me know just how much he needed me. He runs his hands under my shirt to my breast. He moaned as he saw I was not wearing a bra, and kissed me harder. He opened his mouth, and I took his tongue into my mouth so I could taste him. He always tasted so sweet to me.

He broke our kiss, and moved to my neck kissing me from my collarbone to my earlobe where he sucked, and then back down again. I start to remove his jacket and threw it on the floor next to the bed. Edward then lifted my shirt over my head and threw it next to his jacket. He moved his mouth down to my chest, and took my left nipple in his mouth, swirling his tongue around, and sucking on it while his left hand massaged and twisted my nipple on my other breast.

"Oh god Edward, so good. More. I need more," I managed to mumble out. I made quick works with the buttons on his shirt and threw it on to the growing pile of cloths.

"So beautiful, so perfect. God, I love you," he said to me. I moved my hands over his perfectly sculptured chest, and then down to his pants. I undid his belt and button of his pants then slowly pull his zipper down. I could feel his hard on straining to get out. I push them down along with his boxers, and his long cock sprung out for me to take in my hands. Before, I could grab him he got off the bed and I huff in frustration.

"Someone feeling a little impatient, uh Bella," he said and as a devilish smirk came on his face. He removed his shoes so he could pull his pants and boxers off. Then came back and pushed me down so I was now lying on my back. He slowly moved his hands over my legs, and puts his long finger to the waist band of my yoga pants and started to pull them down. I lifted my ass up off the bed so he could pull them all the way down. He let out a growl from deep within his chest when he saw I was not wearing any panties.

"Oh Bella," he said moving his hands toward my overheated sex. He slid his finger between my wet fold, and he hissed under his breath.

"So wet, always so wet and ready from me," he moaned as if he was talking to himself.

I moan in pure pleasure as he puts a second finger in me and teases my swollen clit with his thumb. "More please, I need more," I murmur to him while pushing my pelvis towards his hand to get more friction.

He chuckled softly and brought his lips back to mine and kissed me feverishly.

"Tell me what you want Bella, and I will give it to you," he said between kisses. He continued to make small circles around my clit, and moved his fingers in and out of me faster.

"Edward oh…." I started to say when he hit a sensitive spot inside me and I come undone all over his fingers. I started to shake against him as my climax took over my body.

"That's right Bella…I love it when you cum like that, all over my hand," he whispered into my ear and brought his fingers to his mouth to lick all of my juices of them.

"Mmm tastes like heaven." He hovered over me and kissed me again and I could taste myself on his tongue as I moaned in his mouth at the sensation it brought over me.

"Edward, I need you now, please," I all but beg while bringing my hips up to him to show him what I wanted.

"I need you too. I love how it feels when I move inside of you. You are always so wet and tight for me, my love," he groaned, his voice more husky now with pure need. He moved so he could better position himself between my legs. I wrapped my legs around his waist and I felt the tip of his cock graze the outside of my folds. He smirked at me knowing he was a tease and I move up against him and he started to slip inside of me, stretching and filling me making me feel complete.

"Oh baby you feel so good inside of me," I said, my voice sounding strained as my body adjust to his massive size.

"You feel so amazing Bella," he said as he glided his body in between my thighs with more purpose.

I moved my hips to match his rhythm and I was lost in the sensation of pure erotic pleasure that only Edward could give me. He started to pick up his speed and thrust harder and faster in me and I moaned out his name. He then moved his upper body up so he was almost in a sitting position and grabbed my legs at the ankles and brought them over his shoulders. He leaned forward and slides in even deeper from this position.

"Ah…yes…Edward so good god…faster please," I groan out. I could feel myself coming closer to another release.

"Yes Bella, I feel you starting to tighten up, cum with me, I'm so close too," he growled out at me.

I could feel myself coming undone as he continued to ram himself in and out of me. His breath became fast pants as I could see how close he was. He mouthed "mine forever," and with that brought me into an abyss of pure pleasure. I came loudly yelling his name out and my breath ragged from my orgasm. Just then Edward found his own release and I felt his hot cum shoot inside of me making me feel even fuller. My legs felt numb and fell back to his sides and he toppled over me. My breath rushed out of my body from his weight on me.

"Sorry, but you just know how to wear me out don't you?" he said, as he sat on his elbows now and brought his lips to mine and kissed me passionately. He then pulled out of me and fell on to the bed next to me. I sat up on my elbows and moved over slightly so I could kiss his cheek.

"I think it is you who wore me out," I murmured in his ear. He took me off guard and pulled me over his body so I was straddling him.

"Well I hope you are not too tired?" he asked and I could feel him hard again behind me. Already? Wow, he is insatiable.

"Round two?" I asked.

"Round two," he chuckled out and lifted me up by my hips and positioned me over his cock and I guide him inside of me…

It was nine in the evening and I was exhausted, Edward defiantly had stamina that's for sure. He never gets tired when it comes to having sex and that I was thankful for. I got up out of bed and he grabbed my hand to stop me.

"Where do you think you're going?" he asked and sat up against the head board.

"Well, I had planned to have a nice bath waiting for you when you got home from work before your cock distracted me. And now I am going to have to join you in it sense I have been freshly fucked an all," I said to him and I pulled him out of bed and gave him a hug and kiss on the chin.

"A bath right now sounds good and you in it with me is even better. So are you done packing for our trip?"

"Yes, I can't wait. It will begin the rest of our life together," I said to him and he pulled me tighter to him and kissed me once more as we made our way to the bathroom.

"Yes Bella, I can't wait to call you Mrs. Cullen," and with that he filled the tub up with water and picked me up to put me in. He then slides in behind me and wrapped his arms around me and whispered "I love you forever and for always" into my ear.

A/N the poem Because Of You is written and owned by Amy S. Bedford.

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