A/N: This is the sequel to Past Love Reminder. I didn't like the whole 1 month gestation period so my half human/half vampire will have the normal 9 month gestation and will not come into her vampire powers until she reaches puberty with the exception of her skin, her skin is impenetrable but it does not sparkle in the sun. She will be strong, fast, and agile, see and hear as well as a vampire, but will only have a sense of smell during PMS and that is the only time she experiences a blood lust. The rest of the time she consumes human food. She only requires 4-5 hours of sleep. I really liked Lolashoes power in A Life Extraordinary and Let Your Light Shine so with permission, my Bella will have a similar power. This is rated M for later chapters. Also, Edward doesn't show up until Chapter 4. I don't own these characters, S. Meyer does.

A Dark Secret

Bella's POV

12 years later

Many pregnancies have been referred to as a pleasant surprise. It is safe to say that my mamma's pregnancy was the biggest surprise of all pregnancies. Who knew that a human female and a male vampire could procreate; but that is exactly how I came to be.

The pregnancy was progressing along normally until the 4th month. That was when my mother had a sonogram and it could not penetrate the placenta. No one knew what to make of it. During the 8th month, my papa came back into my mamma's life and that is when she discovered exactly what he was. Needless to say, he was very shocked and very much afraid; not for himself but for my mamma and me.

My father had 2 brothers, Aro and Caius, and each had a wife. The 3 brothers and their wives made up the Volturi, the royalty of the vampire world. There are only 2 rules in the vampire world: 1. Keep the secret; 2. Do not sire an immortal child. My papa was afraid he had broken the second law. He couldn't bring himself to kill my mother because he had fallen in love with her and also he was curious as to how I would turn out. So, he stayed with my mamma until she gave birth. Good thing he did, because I nearly killed my mamma during childbirth.

Mamma had many complications and it finally became evident that a c-section was needed but the placenta was similar to vampire skin and that is why the sonogram was not able to penetrate it, also there is only one thing that can penetrate vampire skin – vampire teeth. Needless to say, Papa had to perform a c-section on Mamma with his teeth and because this caused so much damage, Papa had no choice but to turn Mamma.

A vampire is considered a newborn during the first 2 years after their transformation. These early years are the hardest because of all the adjustments between being human and then being a vampire, not to mention the unquenchable thirst. A responsible sire will teach his newborn the laws and also how to be anonymous while hunting humans; but for some unknown reason Mamma did not experience this unquenchable thirst. My guess is because she was turned just after giving birth and maternal instincts are stronger than blood lust.

Needless to say, this made life easier for Papa. He only had to worry about me. After about a month, it was assumed that I would be mostly human, with the exception of my skin. It was impenetrable like vampire skin except I had sweat glands and didn't glitter in the sun. When I was about 6 months old, I could walk, read and carry on a normal conversation; also when I got my first tooth, it was amazingly sharp. My father was afraid I might have been venomous, but I wasn't. Instead I produced saliva like humans. It was about this time that Papa's brothers came looking for him. When they found him they were shocked at what they had found. Thank goodness for Zio (Italian for uncle) Aro's gift of mind reading. He was able to see what happened and how I came to be, so my family was spared. Zio Aro to this day finds me to be a mystery while Caius finds me to be an abomination and would have me destroyed if he could. I'm not sure which one is correct.

Life has been good to me. It would be safe to say that I am a bit spoiled. Not only do I have Papa wrapped around my finger but I also have Zio Aro. Also, I have 3 mothers also known as the wives. Although Caius finds me to be an abomination, his wife, Anthenodora , does not. If that is not enough people to spoil me, I also have Felix, my personal protector and Gilda my human nanny. My papa and his brothers were afraid I would be mistaken for an immortal child, so no one else knew of my existence.

I lived just outside of Volterra in a nice cottage with Gilda and Felix. My parents hired private tutors because of my superior intellect and because my existence must be kept a secret from the vampire world. I can speak 6 languages and I would consider my education to be a classical one. I love to debate my teachers regarding Aristotle and Euclid's geometry proofs, but I'm most passionate when it regards literature. I have read hundreds of books in my lifetime by authors all around the world, but I think Emily Bronte and Jane Austen are my favorites. I also really enjoyed Shakespeare, especially Romeo and Juliet. My life was good, but I felt things were about to change.

I have always been more human than vampire, but now I can hear things that I have never been able to hear before and I see things so much more clearly. I also can see a new color that I have never seen before nor do I know the name of it. If that isn't bad enough I'm beginning to get bumps on my chest. Gilda tried to explain the bumps to me, she called them breasts and she told me I was becoming a woman and soon I would start having a monthly period. All I could say was EWWWW gross. I didn't want this.

I was getting faster, stronger and more agile. It was almost like becoming more like a vampire. I wondered if every woman went through this or just me because of what I am. Another disturbing change: Gilda smelt…delicious. I didn't consume blood, I never had. I had always consumed human food. What was happening to me?

To make matters worse, I overheard Papa and Zio Aro, with my new hearing, one day when they came to visit, talking about me. It seemed they wanted to change me. They were waiting for me to get a bit older, little did they know, but I believed I was already changing.

"Bella dear, are you okay?" asked Gilda.

"I'm not sure; I really don't feel very well." I wished she would go away. Her smell was overpowering me.

Next thing I knew, Gilda is hugging me and what I did next I would never forgive myself. She smelled so delicious and I had such a burn in my throat and a lust for a taste of her, I couldn't stop myself. So I turned my head and clamped down on her neck. The more I tasted her the more I wanted. This was the most delicious substance to cross my tongue ever. Before I even realized what I was doing, Gilda was dead.

I let her fall to the ground and I just fell with her. I took her dead body into my arms and just cried. What had I done? Why did I do this?

My mamma must have heard me crying because next thing I knew she was running into my room. She just stopped and I could see the shock on her face. I just cried even more.

"Bella, what happened?"

"Mamma, she smelled so delicious and I just couldn't stop myself." I saw the look of concern on my mamma's face.

"Bella, we need to find your papa. We need to figure out what is going on." So we left my room and went to where my papa was. He was with Zio Aro.

The looks on their faces were mixed when my mamma told them what I did. My papa had a look of concern and fear. But it was Zio Aro's reaction that surprised me the most; he had a look of being proud of me.

"Little Bella, why dear are you so upset?" asked Zio Aro.

"I'm a monster, I just killed Gilda." I said with tears still running down my face.

"My dear you are no more a monster than anyone is this room. What you did is who you are. Never hate what you are." said Zio Aro.

May papa came to me and hugged me while kissing my forehead. "Sweetheart, everything will be okay. It appears you are becoming more like us."

Is this a good thing? Will I be able to move into the big house in Volterra? Will I no longer be a secret? These questions were running through my mind.

That afternoon, Papa and Zio Aro went back home. It seems they have been researching the legends regarding creatures like me. I think they wanted to see what might happen next.

Mamma stayed with me. A few days later I got another shock. I woke up one morning to a puddle of blood on my sheets. I screamed for Mamma and she came running.

"Mamma, what is wrong with me? Why is there blood on my sheets?"

Mamma just smiled, "Sweetheart, it looks like today you became a woman."

Are you kidding me? After the trauma I just went through, I now had to go through this? Mamma came to me and put her arms around me, assuring me everything would be okay. Fortunately, Gilda had already stocked my bathroom with needed supplies. By that afternoon I had a new nanny, her name was Fiore.

When I first met Fiore, she didn't smell delicious, she smelt like every other human. Later that month, is when I figured out what had happened to me. Instead of having regular PMS like other humans, I experienced blood lust. Fortunately, I was able to resist Fiore until I could find Felix.

"Felix, you must take me to my papa NOW!!!! It is important."

"Bella, you know I can't do that."

"Do you remember what happen to Gilda? Well the same thing is going to happen to Fiore if you don't." I said hysterically.

"So, she is only a human that is what humans are for. We feed off humans." He said this with a grin on his face.

"Felix, I can't do it again. I'm not like you. Please take me to my father." I begged him with tears running down my face.

I seem to have a way with male vampires; I can just wrap them around my finger, except for Caius. Felix was no different. When he saw the pain in my face we left immediately.

We found my papa at the big house. He was shocked, but very happy to see me. When I told him what happen he just smiled.

"Sweetheart, it is okay. It is in your nature."

"Papa, I don't want to kill her."

"Well, Heidi will be back soon with our dinner I will make sure to send some to you."

"Papa, I don't think I want to kill anyone. I just can't. It breaks my heart to just think about it." I said this with tears in my eyes.

"Well dear, this complicates things. I guess I could kill one for you and drain the blood so you can consume it. Because you have to feed your blood lust or you will go mad."

I just broke down. Felix and Papa just looked at me with shock. I knew they would never understand my reservation against killing humans. I believe it to be my half human self that does not want to kill another human.

I agreed to my Papa's compromise because I knew he was right. So, every month when I experienced my blood lust, Papa would kill for me and collect the blood so I could consume it. And this is how it was for many years.