Leaving, Dean

He's watching me pack

I'm just going to Palo Alto, to Stanford

Dean thinks its too far away

But he won't stop me, I want this too much.

He's in Med School, He'll be a good doctor

But He's afraid to be away from me

He's afraid that he can't protect me if we're not together.

Its been six months since I left

Dean and I talk every day and he

visits almost every weekend, My friends think

he's too protective of me, If I hadn't lived the life I did

and didn't understand why he's so protective, then I'd think like they did too.

My Girlfriend Beth doesn't like him

Its ok though, He's not fond of her either.

One weekend he doesn't show up

I listen for the sound of the Impala it never comes

When I call home and his cell there's no answer

So I call Bobby, He tells me that Dean won't

be coming to see me for awhile.

A Drunk driver ran my brother off the road

Dean's in a coma, in a hospital in South Dakota

He'd been visitin Bobby.

I just leave, don't tell anyone

I pack up the rebuilt mustang that

Bobby and Dean gave me for my 18th birthday

and I drive.

I Drive all night until I reach Bobby's.

What's left of Dean's Impala sits cold and dead in the yard

I honk my horn to get Bobby's attention

He comes out and greets me with a hug and a 'good to see ya boy'

I'm not completely cold, I do greet him back.

But I need to get to My Dean...he needs me.

Bobby doesn't ask any questions he just gets in my car

and directs me to the hospital.

Dean's laying in a bed with cards and flowers all around him

His girlfriend Alex is there, but she looks like she's bored, not concerned.

As soon as she sees me she's jumping all over me to pull the plug

"Its what Dean would want" she says

Bobby holds me back because right then I wanted to Smack a Bitch

I tell Alex to go back home, Dean doesn't need her.

Once she's gone I sit and gently hold my big brother's hand

For Days I'm by his side, begging him to open his eyes.

I tell him I'm scared, That I need him to wake up.

I do this everyday for two months

And finally one day, when I've started to give up

I hear a soft "S'mmy?"

I look up and smile, those bright green eyes

of his are shining with tears

I'm so happy that I almost jump into the bed with him.

After he gets a drink and I've explained what happened,

He asks about Alex.

I don't know what to say, she hasn't been back

or even bothered to call to see how he was.

When I don't answer right away he just nods

seeming to know what it was that I couldn't say

After Dean's out of the hospital

he takes a few months to rebuild the car,

but it takes us going back and forth to Bobby's to get it done.

Because of all the time and missed assignments he's decided not

to go back to school.

Instead he got a job working for a mechanic

and moved to Palo Alto

My friends really hate that

but I don't care...I almost lost him again

and I need him with me.

He was insistant that I go back to school

I got caught up easily enough not to lose my scholarship

since he woke up I tell myself that I won't leave him again

Hell, he lives on the floor above me in my building

can we find our Normal now?