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Chapter 8

"What!" Alex stood there dumbfounded.

"I will not repeat myself," Itachi stated casually.

Turning to Kakashi, her frowned deepen knowing he probably had a smug ass grin under that stupid mask of his. She only shook her head as he shrugged his shoulders.

Kakashi may have been cock-blocked again, but hearing this news made up for the lack of action.

"Can she just change her mind like that?" Alex asked.

"She can do whatever she wants. She's the Hokage," Kakashi replied.

"I can't believe I'm not going anymore," she said angrily, crossing her arms across her chest as she took a seat in between Kakashi and Itachi on the couch.

Just five minutes ago, everything was good. She was going to make Kakashi a very excited man and she was going to be by his side when he left for war. Sure, she was scared about going, about dying; but if it meant preventing any of her friends from dying then she would go.

Now how was she going to make sure that Kakashi, Itachi and everyone else was safe if she wasn't there? She didn't save Itachi just to have him die on her now.

"This is your fault," she pouted, giving Itachi the evil eye.

"That may be so, but it was an absurd plan to bring you along."

"So you tricked me early, making it seem that you were okay with me going."

"I did no such thing," the Uchiha replied.

"Great! So I'm supposed to stay here while someone else disguised as me goes and risk their own life?"

"Alex, you need to understand that this is a much safer plan for everyone," Kakashi said, trying to sound like he cared that she was upset.

This was the plan he wanted to begin with, but early today Tsunade made it clear that Alex was going if Alex agree.

"I know." She hung her head. "I know, but I would die if something happened to you guys," she said, trying her best not to cry.

"We're ninjas Alex, there always that risk of something happening to us and you know this," Kakashi said, putting his right hand on her left thigh.

She looked at him. "But it doesn't change the fact that I worry," she said grabbing his hand.

If I only knew what was going to happen. Why couldn't Kishimoto finish Naruto before I came here? This sucks so much balls!

"It's getting late," Itachi said, standing up.

"Wait you can't go yet!" Alex quickly grabbed onto his hand, letting go of Kakashi's.

Itachi glanced down at their hands before locking eyes with her. "I'm leaving. I still need to get prepared." He pulled his hand free and started to walk away.

"Itachi." She followed after him.

He didn't stop until they were outside of the apartment, standing in the empty hallway.

She starred at his back grateful he didn't turn around knowing she was on the verge of tears.

"You better not doing anything stupid," she told him.

He could hear the concern and distress in her voice and knew she was crying.

"I never do anything stupid," he replied.

"I know, but I swear if I don't see you walk through those gates when everything is done and said, I'll bring you back to life just to kill you myself," she threaten as she wiped away her tears.

He smirked turning around and closing the distance between, taking her hands into his.

"If that's the case then I better come back with the ability to use my legs."

Alex weakly punched in his chest. "It's not joking time idiot."

"I know, but I'm happy because someone special also told me the same thing earlier today."

She raised an eyebrow. "Sasuke?"

He shook his head. "I wanted to tell you sooner, but I'm seeing someone...kind of."

She pulled her hand away and pointed at him."Holy shit! What?"

She wiped away her tears in shock. She knew he wouldn't like her forever which is why she was happy for him, but a small part of her did feel a little jealous.

"What's her name? What's she like? Do I know her? How long have you been going out? What does she look like?"

A very small smile appeared on his lips glad that he was able to cheer her up.

"I'll tell you everything when I get back."

"I'm so happy for you," she said, giving him a hug. "And here I was hoping to be the first one to greet you when you got back, but now it seems that I'll be second," she laughed, pulling away from him.

"It's getting late you should go back in," he said changing the subject.

"Fine, but I have one last question."

He gave her a worried a look.

"It's nothing bad," she said, frowning at him.

"Then what is your question?"

"So how far have you guys gone? Am I going to see any little Uchihas running around soon?" She asked, wiggling her eyebrows, making a pervert face and nudging him with her elbow.

"Go inside," he stated, flicking her nose.

"Sheesh! It was just a question," she huffed, watching him walk to his door.

"Itachi," she called. Her voice sounded unsure yet serious.

She wanted to say, but knew better than to say it.

He watched as she bite her bottom lip, staring at him intently.

"Wrap your weasel before you please her," she laughed, before turning around and going inside, leaving him with a raised eyebrow in confusion.

She found Kakashi in the same spot on the couch, looking at her. There was a certain sadness in the eye that wasn't hidden.

"What's wrong?" She asked, walking towards him.

"You still have feelings for him don't you?"

"Whoa! Time out," she said forming a T with her hands. "Why would you say something like that?"

He stood up, "I'm a ninja. I'm train to read people. "

"Well then you're not reading me right. He's my friend. Hell, I risked my life for him, so of course I care for him."

"That's not the kind of feelings I'm referring to and you know it," his voice became stern.

Her gazed dropped, knowing what he was talking about. Her heart filled with a little guilt knowing she did have those kinds of feelings for Itachi, however her feelings for Kakashi were stronger.

Itachi would always be in her heart, but Kakashi had her heart.

"Let's not talk about this tonight. We can have this conversation when you come back," she replied forcing a smile, fighting back the tears that wanted escape.

"We're having this talk now," he stated calmly, clenching his empty, right hand into a fist. "I'm sorry," she said, quickly trying to wipe away her tears as they formed. "Kakashi, I love you, but I can't help that I have some feelings for Itachi, okay? They'll probably never go away, but I love you. I really do."

A pain grasped his heart.

"How can you say you love me when you having feelings for another man? There is no other woman in my heart, but you."

This pain hurting him was completely different then the hurt he usually felt when he lost a fellow comrade.

"Kakashi," she took a step closer, only to have him put up a hand stopping her from coming closer. "I don't know how to explain it, but please believe me when I say that I only want you."

He shook head, giving nothing away of how he felt.

"I'll sleep on the couch tonight, but when I return I don't want to find you here," he said, keeping his voice as strong and firm as possible.

She swallowed a sob. This is not how she wanted to spend last possible night with Kakashi.

"Ka-", his back was to her and the distance grew between them as he walked down the hall.

He couldn't look her in the face, knowing that he had hurt her, that she hurt him.

He grabbed his pillow and a blanket off their bed and returned to the living room, founding her in the spot with miserable face. The sound of her crying became louder as he stood there with an indifferent facade, staring at her.

"I need to sleep," he said, making his way to the couch.

"I'm really sorry Kakashi," she sobbed, covering her mouth with her hand.

He eyes never left her as she disappeared in the hallway. He needed to push this painful feeling in his heart away. He needed sleep for tomorrow.

It was still dark outside when he awoke. The hallway light allowed him to gazed at her sleeping figure as he stood in the doorway. Taking a deep breath, he made his way to her side.

He couldn't help but to smile when he saw the small note tape to her back. Her writing was messy as ever as he read each line.

Kakashi,

I taped this note on my back because I hoped would say goodbye to me and if you are reading this then I was right. Anyway I'm writing this because I pretty damn sure you don't want to talk to me. Listen, I don't care if you hate me, okay I do, but understand my feelings for Itachi are complex, but know that I love YOU! I want to be with YOU! ONLY YOU! Please, come back and don't anything stupid or I will hate you forever! Come back to tell me you still hate or to yell at me, I don't care. But please come back alive! I love you! I'm sorry for hurting you.

Love Alex xoxoxoxxox

P.S. If you get into a fight with a female ninja or a gay one, just take off your shirt. It will distract them. Trust me, but keep your pants. No taking off the pants!

A sigh escape him, placing the note in his pocket.

He wanted to believe that she loved him, but how could he? She still had feelings for another man. He didn't have feelings for another woman.

He always knew that Alex still had feelings for Itachi by the way she looked at him longingly, the way she would smiled at him, but he always told himself that he was just over analyzing the situations.

However, last night when she let go of his hand and took that another man's hand and chase after him; he could no longer over look it.

He bent over and placed a small masked kiss on her head. "Goodbye Alex," he said softly in her hair.

Standing in the doorway, he looked at her once more lovingly before turning his back to go to war.

A/N: Poor Kakashi! It must be so hard for him.

On a lighter note Alex is pretty wise with her advice for Itachi lol

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