That idiot's child...

Haruhi rested her back against the wall and nervously tapped her feet on the chilly bathroom floor, breathing heavily to calm herself down. Faint music streamed out from the radio behind her. Realizing it was playing a love song, she quickly turned it off in annoyance.

"Oh, give me a break..."

Going back to staying silent, she took a look at the watch lying on the bathroom sink next to a blue, thermometer - like object.

"Almost two minutes..." she thought to herself, keeping her stare at the watch while trying to keep her impatience and nervousness under control. The tenseness was making her shake. Seeing the arrow hit at two minutes exactly, she could feel how a twinch of fear hit her.

"Can't be helped... I have to look now."

Haruhi slowly pushed herself from the wall and bent towards the sink to pick up the pregnancy test. To make absolutely sure there wouldn't be a misunderstanding she read the manual for what felt like the hundredth time.

"Alright... blue means pregnant..." she whispered while putting the manual away to look back at the pregnancy test. Holding it upside down she took several deep breaths as to prepare herself. For a moment she wanted to just throw it away and forget about it all, but there was no way she could. Slowly turning it around with shaking fingers, Haruhi could feel how her heart skipped a beat as she let the pregnancy test slip out from her fingers, down into the sink with the blue stripe pointing up towards her. Placing her hands on the sink desk, she bended over and kept her stare at the stripe to make sure she was seeing right. After having stared at it for about a minute, she slowly lifted her head up to stare at her own mirror reflection with widened eyes.

"Oh, God..."

*3 WEEKS EARLIER*

Haruhi rustled to try and prevent all the grocery bags from falling onto the ground as she switched between walking and running to the bus stop. Not minding she wasn't looking where she was going, she looked down to try and grab a better hold of one of the lower bags when she suddenly felt her body crashing into another one's, making all the bags fall to the ground with the groceries scattering across the ground.

"Oh… oh no! I'm terribly sorry, I wasn't...", Haruhi felt herself stopping in the middle of the sentence when she saw just who she had crashed with, who was staring back at her with just as surprised eyes.

"Tamaki?"

"Ha... Haruhi? Wha..." Tamaki stuttered before looking down at all the groceries.

"Waaa, I'm... I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to... I'll pick them all up!" he yelled franticly which made Haruhi sweatdrop.

"Still like that..."

"Y... you don't need to. It was my fault, I wasn't looking where I was going." she said while she could feel her body heating up. The both of them kept quiet while they picked everything up and putting it back into the bags, occasionally giving each other a look when the other one wasn't looking. Both getting up when they had finished, they nervously looked at each other with blushing faces which made them both feel awkward. Tamaki decided to be the first to break the silence.

"So... that's a lot of groceries. How come you've bought this much, you're usually not the person to..."

"Well, it's..." Haruhi interrupted him but had to clear her throat as she felt her voice shaking.

"I just got my own apartment, so this is to fill up the yet pretty empty refrigerator." she said with a nervous chuckle, giving him a tiny smile.

"Ehh? You got your own apartment?" Tamaki shouted before a big smile spread on his face.

"That's awesome! Co... congratulations!" he said with a cheery voice. Seeing his bright smile, Haruhi felt her body getting even warmer as she realized just how much she'd missed that smile.

"Thank you... I'm a bit nervous actually... I've never lived anywhere but with my dad for my whole life up until now. I wonder if I'll be able to manage." she said while looking down with a hint of uncertainty in her voice that Tamaki noticed.

"I have no doubt that you will... you've got a great independence. That's one of the things I always loved you for..." he said with a nervous chuckle which made Haruhi look back at him with a tad flustered eyes.

"Thank you..." was all she managed to say before looking back down at the ground while she could feel her heart beat faster from hearing that last bit.

Another moment of awkward silence went on between them before Tamaki spoke up again in a low voice.

"So... how've you been?"

Haruhi looked back at him and gave a tiny smile again.

"I've been good, thank you. Studying to be a lawyer is hard but not more than I can take. And I have good teachers. I learn a lot from them..." she cleared her voice as she could feel it shaking again, before continuing.

"So how about you? Is running the Suoh Company that hard as it used to be?"

"Haha, I guess you could say so. There's alot of stuff to do, but like you, it's not more than I can take. After all I get to do what I always wanted to. Help people." he said while all the time keeping his bright smile. Haruhi returned the smile as she felt really happy for him living out his dream. Her smile then disappeared a little as she looked down again and sighed before looking back at him.

"Then I guess we did the right thing... with the two of us..." she said while feeling her chest tightening at her own statement. Tamaki gave her a hurt look before sighing.

"That was you decision though, remember? I still think we could have made it work out..." he said, which made Haruhi give the same hurt expression back at him.

"Don't start on that again. You know our worlds are too different... it's not enough with just love..."

"I know, I know... I've heard that too many times already, though I still have to disagree." he said with a sad voice, but giving her a smile. Again they felt themselves unable to speak up when looking at each other, when Haruhi suddenly snapped out of her flustered expression to look at her watch.

"Oh no! I completely forgot my bus! It already left!" she yelled while looking franticly around to see if there were any cabs she could take. She also wanted to get away from Tamaki as she could feel tears pressing on her eyes from the whole situation and everything that had just been said, and she really didn't want him to see her cry.

"Hey, my car is just around the corner. I can make my driver give you a lift if you want?"

"Thank you, but it's alright. I just have to find a cab or something." Haruhi quickly said, trying to avoid meeting his eyes.

"I don't think there's any cabs this time of the day. Won't you let me take you? I came here for an appointment but turns out it was cancelled so I'm free. Come on, I'd be happy to."

Tamaki looked at her with pleading eyes which made Haruhi lose her grip a little.

"Guess I don't have a choice...he'll just keep on insisting…"

"Okay... if it's really alright…"

XXX

"I don't believe it! You have a kotatsu?" Tamaki shouted in excitement as he stepped into the living room that was combined with a kitchen. Haruhi couldn't help but to feel a little embarrassed to show him the tiny and a bit messy apartment, even though she knew it wouldn't matter to him. However, she had to let out a smile when she saw how he was checking out every corner of the apartment, all the time with a smile on his face, before he went back up to her.

"You've really got a nice place here. Hey, can we sit by the kotatsu? Please?" he asked with sparkly eyes, which made Haruhi let out a little laugh while she nodded.

"Seriously, doesn't Kyouya have a kotatsu too? And I would think with that big residence you're living in, there's bound to be at least one kotatsu there."

"True that Kyouya has one, but it's been a while since I visited him. And no, there are no kotatsu's at the residence, sad at it is. I just think it's such a great invention, how you can sit and warm your legs while you do all sorts of other stuff, don't you think?" Tamaki kept talking as he had already seated, with Haruhi on the other side of the table, after having put her grocery bags on the kitchen desk.

"I guess..." she just bluntly answered while giving him a stare, feeling how her heart wouldn't calm down as it just kept beating hard in her chest. She almost thought he could hear it. The thumping only left a sad feeling in her chest as she thought back to that day three years ago, when Tamaki and Kyouya were graduating, where she had told Tamaki how she didn't want to be in his way when he would further his studies to follow in his father's footsteps and one day take over his place. She knew that having a girlfriend would be out of the question when he had to focus on that goal and not be distracted by such a trivial personal matter. This had happened no more than a week after they had both confessed to each other. Haruhi could still remember the shock she had felt from his confession, when she had thought all the time he only considered her as a daughter. Therefore she had confessed under the belief that she would be rejected, but she felt she wouldn't be able to hold it in anymore. And when it was only a week left until he was graduating, she thought it had to be now or never. Recalling how happy he had become from hearing her somewhat clumsy confession, she could feel how that hurt feeling in her chest only increased.

"Haruhi? Are you okay?"

Haruhi snapped out from her thoughts as she didn't realize she'd been sitting with a sad frown on her face while Tamaki had blabbered away.

"I'm sorry ... it's nothing." she sighed while stroking her forehead. Quickly pulling her hand away when she realized Tamaki had moved from his place and seated next to her, placing his hand on her forehead. Haruhi couldn't help but to widen her eyes at him as she could feel tears pressing on her eyes. She was just glad he didn't know just how much she wanted to touch and embrace him, a feeling that only increased to the almost unbearable when he was this close to her.

"No, don't do anything. Just stay calm." she thought to herself inside her mind as she kept her blank stare at Tamaki.

"You really alright? You don`t have a fever, do you?" he said while looking at her with his warm and gentle eyes, that made Haruhi lose it. Before she knew it, she could feel tears rolling down her cheeks, which she quickly wiped away in pure reflex as she turned her head away, but to no use as Tamaki had clearly seen it. Placing his right hand her cheek, he wiped away a tear with his thumb while he leaned in closer, letting his forehead rest towards hers.

"Does this mean you've missed me as much as I've missed you?" he said with a smile in a soft, low voice that Haruhi could barely hear, as she looked back into his violet eyes. Making small faces as she tried to keep her emotions under control, she knew there was no point in lying, as he could probably tell from her big blush.

"Of... of course.. I've missed you..." she said with a shaking voice, while nervously looking away, but still had her forehead touching his. Tamaki let out a tiny giggle and pushed his forehead more towards hers while his cheeks were getting red as well. Haruhi could feel how, between all her embarrassments, she was getting upset with him too. For she knew why he was doing this. Ever since that day she had told him they could never be together as a couple, Tamaki had on several occasions whenever they would meet, try and turn the subject into that particular one and try and tell her that she was wrong and how he thought they would have been just fine, but everytime she would just tell for him to stop or change the subject into something else. She couldn't stand when he would do this, as he was the whole reason she didn't want to get involved. She couldn't help but to think how she would only be a hindrance to him in his goal to succeed his father. It hurt her, but her sensible mind told her that it was the right thing to do. But having him close in on her like this, was not helping. Haruhi could feel as if her heart was about to jump out of her chest. Feeling the tension growing between them again, as they had stayed silent for the past ten seconds or so, both resting their foreheads against one another's, Haruhi decided she would tell for him to leave right now, or else she was afraid she never would. The second she was about to speak up, Tamaki leaned his body over hers, wrapping his arms tightly around her. Haruhi for a split second felt as if she was going to melt as she felt his entire body heat blending with hers.

"God, it feels nice..."

"Tamaki... let go, please." Haruhi said in an upset tone, while squirming a bit under his hold to hint for him to let go, expecting him to do so, but got surprised as he just held her tighter, making her unable to break free.

"Tamaki... you're hurting me...let go." Haruhi said a bit louder while grabbing a hold of his shirt and pulling at it, as to show she was serious. Tamaki let go his hold a little, but still held onto her as he suddenly began to give her small kisses over her ear.

"Uh...", Haruhi let out an unintentional moan as she felt the tender kisses.

"Screw it! Why do I have to love him this goddamn much..." was all she managed to think before she finally gave in and let her arms grab a tight hold around his neck, returning the tight embrace. Clenching her grip, she felt as if she never wanted to let go. She buried her face into his shoulder while he kept giving her light kisses on the side of her head, as the two sat in their own little world, letting feelings like fear and doubt disappear completely.

Haruhi just let Tamaki pick her up from the floor, carrying her to the little bedroom that lied at the end of the little hallway. Still holding onto her, he closed the door behind them and placed Haruhi carefully down onto the bed, as if she was glass that could break any minute. Taking a seat next to her, he slowly let his hand stroke her lower torso, while letting his forehead rest towards hers again. Haruhi couldn't do anything but to stare at him with flustered eyes.

"How can I make you understand..?" he said in a low voice while giving a little forced smile, which made Haruhi tremble as she felt tears pressing on her eyes again.

"There is nothing to understa..." she answered, but only to be interrupted by his lips covering hers. Again, as if she was something timid, he gave a soft and careful kiss, letting his nosetip brush against hers. Haruhi by now couldn't bother anymore to worry. Not minding who she or he was anymore, or their situations.

Lightly touching his shirt over his chest, she kissed carefully back. She felt a bit embarrased at her own clumsiness with kissing, but could feel how Tamaki kissed her a bit more tenderly, which made her calm down and enjoy it. This was the first time she had ever kissed someone for real, without it having been an accident, and it was the greatest feeling she had ever felt. Letting her hands grab a hold of his shirt, she clenched it tightly while he had grabbed a hold of her head. Realizing her body was heating up by the minute, she just let Tamaki slowly pull her shirt off. Still holding onto it, he began stroking her exposed back with his hands, slowly letting the shirt slip out from his fingers. Haruhi could feel herself blush hard from the fact that she was shirtless, with only the bra left on her upper body.

Pulling away from her lips, he gave her a deep stare which made Haruhi stare back with wondering eyes.

"Tell me you love me." he said in a low tone with blushing cheeks, giving her a little smile.

While letting a little smile escape from her mouth, she murmured back, almost out of his hearing range; "I love you."

…

Haruhi didn't know what it was. Why she loved him so much. Why she wanted him so much. That even with how much they embraced and kissed each other, even if he had his body on top of hers, she wanted more of him. Such an embarrasing emotion, she thought to herself. It almost felt bizarre how much she had despised him when she had first got to know him. And now she was lying here, in this idiot's arms.

Letting out a painful moan, she saw how Tamaki looked down at her with his worried, yet warm and tender eyes. She loved those eyes. Assuring him that she was alright, he leaned in for another soft kiss. Haruhi just closed her eyes and took all that he would give her.

XXX

Feeling the sun rays covering her eyes, Haruhi slowly opened them to realize it was morning. Leaning to her side to check the watch on the side of the bed, she got surprised as she felt an arm laying on her waist, as she for a moment had to remind herself who the arm belonged to. Slowly turning around to see the sleeping body next to her, she rewinded in her head what had happened yesterday. Still in a bit of a daze though, it hadn't really gone up for her yet, as she could feel herself wander off from her own thoughts looking at Tamaki's sleeping face. Not realizing she laid in the same position for minutes, just staring at his face. Lightly touching his left cheek with her fingertips, she gave a tiny smile.

"He really has a child's face when sleeping... so peaceful..."

At the same time Haruhi could feel herself getting a bit flustered as she couldn't help but to think how gorgeus he looked. Wondering to herself just when did she get such girly thoughts, she startled a bit as Tamaki let out a groan while he moved in his position, letting out a smile in his sleep. Again, Haruhi couldn't help but to let out a smile at the sight, but it suddenly disappeared when she realized the situation. Looking around for her clothes that were lying on the floor next to the bed, she felt how a giant blush spread across her face as she remembered just what had went on yesterday. Getting up in a sitting position, she tightly wrapped the blanket around her while somehow trying to get out of the bed without making much noise, but felt herself holding her breath as she saw Tamaki moving again. Slowly opening his eyes, he ended up looking straight at her with a dull expression. Haruhi couldn't manage to do anything but to stay in her sitting position and look back at him with her flustered eyes, as he rubbed his face with hand, also getting up in a sitting position. Still having his hand rubbing on his face, he looked at her and gave a smile.

"Good morning." he said in a drowsy tone. Haruhi just gave a tiny smile back.

"Morning..." was all she managed to say before looking away for a bit before shyly looking back at him, trying to avoid eye contact.

"You... your clothes are there. If you should want to get dressed." she blurted out, feeling a bit embarassed at her own statement, as she saw him getting red cheeks after hearing it as well.

"Oh... right." was all he said while not moving from his position. Since the bed was a one-person only, making them sit really close, Haruhi tried to move as far away from him as she could, but suddenly stopped in her movement when she felt something running down her leg. Tamaki noticed her shocked expression, causing him to bend towards her with a worried expression, asking if she was alright.

"I'm fine. Sorry, I need to use the bathroom." she said quickly while getting out of the bed with the blanket wrapped tightly around her, leaving a dumbfounded Tamaki.

"In the meantime you can get dressed and leave. I have stuff I need to do." she said with a hasty voice while turning around for a brief second, before walking into the bathroom that was just next door to the bedroom.

Haruhi breathed heavily while lifting the blanket away to expose her legs to discover the tiny drops of blood running down her thighs.

"What the hell? It's not that time of the month yet!" she thought panickly while quickly grabbing some toilet paper to wipe it away. Hearing Tamaki knock on the door, she ignored it as she got done wiping, tossing the bloody paper into the toilet.

"Haruhi? Are you really alright? If you're not using the toilet, please let me in?" he asked through the door with a nervous voice.

"No, I'm not dressed yet! Just go!" she shouted in a mad voice, as a result of all her mixed emotions welling up in her. Regretting it at once, she just let herself rest against the wall and slide down in a seating position, holding around her legs while she felt tears pressing on her eyes again, deciding to wait until he had left, but she heard no sound of a door closing. After the pause, she heard him speak up again.

"I know, I have your clothes here. I just wanted to give them to you before I leave."

Haruhi noticed how the three last words made her somehow feel sad, as she just took a deep breath.

"The door's not locked."

Seeing the door knob turning around, she tried to mentally prepare herself for what she or he would say, as she just felt how she couldn't help but to feel all warm and flustered at the sight of him when he entered, fully dressed holding her clothes in one arm while closing the door with the other. Slowly seating down next to her, he handed over the clothes as she just let them lie in her lap while staring at them, as the two just stayed silent for about five minutes before Haruhi gathered up her courage to say what they were both thinking.

"So... yesterday we..." she said in a low voice while tilting her head towards him to see if he would say anything.

"Yeah... I guess we did..." he answered back, while looking at her with a gaze that Haruhi couldn't really figure out.

Quickly looking away from each other, they stayed silent for another five minutes, both of them trying to figure out what to say. Haruhi could hear how Tamaki took a deep breath as he was about to say something, when his cellphone that was in his pocket suddenly began to ring. Excusing himself, Haruhi quietly listened to him talking in a serious manner to whoever it was on the other line, telling that he was sorry for the delay and that he would arrive shortly. Haruhi could pretty much tell from the sound of his words, what the call was about.

"I'm sorry, I..." he said slowly after having hung up.

"Have a meeting to attend to, I get it. Just go." Haruhi said in a low voice, giving him a calm look. He looked back at her with the same calmness in his eyes, but before Haruhi knew it, he had leaned forward to give her another kiss which left her off guard. Staring at him with flustered eyes and a big blush across her face, he left out a giggle and gave a bright smile.

"Sorry, I couldn't help it. You're just so cute." he said cheerfully before getting up on his feet, leaving Haruhi feeling slightly annoyed. Getting up on her feet as well, they both stared at it each other, as the mood between them had lightened a bit.

"You'll be alright then?" Tamaki asked, giving her a wondering expression.

Haruhi just nodded while looking away from him, as she could feel herself unsure about her response. Watching him walk out the hallway door, waving her goodbye with his usual idiot smile, Haruhi just stood at the door for a few minutes, after having watched him being driven away by the driver who came to get him, she eventually got herself to close the door, before resting her back against it and let the tears stream down her face.

*PRESENT TIME*

"And I didn't even know what those tears came from." Haruhi thought to herself while flipping the pregnancy test back and forth between her fingers as she sat at the same bathroom floor like that time three weeks ago. She kept thinking back to how she for almost a whole week had felt unusually ill, even having to vomit at the worst. Her teachers had questioned her about what could be wrong, but never had she thought about what the reason could have been. Being so inexperienced and frankly, uninterested in love, that is, until she discovered she'd fallen for a certain blonde idiot without even knowing, she hadn't had the slightest suspicion to what could have been causing her to be ill. It wasn't until she finally went to see the doctor after some persuasion from her girlfriends from law school, who she had kept telling that it was all probably a reaction to too much work and too little sleep that was causing it, that it started to go up for her, after the doctor had given her a raised eyebrow when she described what her symptoms were.

"Young lady." he had said in a rather strict voice.

"Do you use protection?"

Haruhi had given him a weird look, not sure what he meant by that.

"Um, if you mean against bacteria and such, I do eat vitamins, but there has been some people with a cold at school so perhaps that's..."

"That's not exactly what I meant. What I'm trying to say is: have you had any sexual intercourse with a partner during these last few weeks?"

The question had rammed Haruhi like a brick to the head. Feeling her body heating up as she started to sweat franticly, she tried to cover the fact that she was completely revealing herself, but to no good as the doctor just gave a nod as to say `that's what I thought` before removing his glasses, giving her a calm, but serious look.

"Then what I suspect might be true. I suggest you go to the nearest pharmacy and buy yourself a pregnancy test, you may then come back after finding out the result in case you're in need of further help and advices."

XXX

Haruhi scoffed and let the pregnancy test drop onto the floor, while she just sat and stared at it.

"Help? What sort of help should that be?"

Haruhi picked up the pregnancy test again as she got up onto her feet and leaned over the sink, turning the water on and letting it run for a while, while drenching her face in cold water. Turning of the sink, she stared at her wet face in the mirror, giving herself an expression mixed with both fear, nervousness and joy at the same time.

"... I'm... actually having a child... that idiot's child..."