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This is my first fic, so please don't flame meT_T English isn't my own language, so I'm completely open to critical comments on my grammar. Also, please give me some tips, cuz I don't really know how this works.

Pairing: AllenxKanda

Raiting: M. contains blood/gore. May later contain sexual actions.

Summary: He couldn't find him. Panic raced through his body as he ran down the corridors of the Black Order. He swore. '' Let him be alive! '' He couldn't take it if he was all alone. He didn't want to be the last survivor.

Crawling under your bed at night

Flying through your sleep

Following you to school

Whispering to you when you are alone

Creeping up to you when you're in an alley

Confusing you when you're sad

The jealousy at friends

The 'no good' you

The one who screams at your family

The one who messes up your tests

The one telling you the cliff isn't so high

And dying is a curious thing

The blade isn't really that sharp

Don't you want to know?

Who I am?

Me, I'm your worst nightmare

Your true self

Kanda stared at the bodies on the floor. He had just gotten back from a mission in Germany in a hurry. The reason for his hurry was that no one had answered his golem when he called to the headquarters. He had gotten anxious, although he would never admit that, and finished his mission as soon as possible.

When he had gotten back at headquarters, he immediately had known something wasn't right at all. It was too silent. Way too silent.

There were no noisy finders, who normally would glare at him as soon as he passed by. There were no scientists, who normally stood sleeping against one of the many doors in the building, because they hadn't gotten enough sleep.

There wasn't a baka usagi who normally came flying at him as soon as he got back. And the weirdest thing of all, he didn't come to greet him.

Kanda walked down the corridor to the cafeteria, and opened its doors carefully, as if he knew what he was going to see. As if he knew that nothing would be normal after he opened these doors.

He squinted his eyes close when a small beam of light hit them. When he opened his eyes again, his breath hitched in his throat and his eyes opened in shock.

Now he was staring at the mess that was once the cafeteria. A cold, dark feeling consumed his insides when he was looking at the thorn bodies of the finders. Their eyes were ripped out of their bodies, their arms and legs bended in awkward positions. Organs hung down the chandeliers as if they were Christmas decorations.

Slowly, kanda stepped backward and turned around. He kept staring at the blood, which crept down the food as if it were some kind of sauce. Those finders had probably been sitting here not so long ago, eating the same food.

They hadn't gotten a warning.

Suddenly fearing for his fellow exorcists, kanda leaped around and ran straight for the scientific rooms. "who did this", he thought, rage flowing through him, "and are they still here? Was it the earl with the Noah's? Or was it just some surprise attack from the akuma?"

Suddenly, he noticed something strange at his right. He turned to look, and he knew that he didn't need to go searching for the scientists. Nausea got to him, and he throwed up on the floor. A bitter taste rose in his mouth. Kanda was shaking, the fear was slowly controlling him.

"I can't break down now, I have to go find the moyashi and the others", he thought bitterly. He turned around and ran for the exorcist's rooms with newfound determination, away from the mountain of bloodied bodies pierced with kitchen knives, scissors, pieces of glass and nails. Away from Komui, strung to a rope, dangling in the air.

Kanda ran, and ran, and ran. Each door of one of the exorcist's rooms seemed like hell's gates themselves. He ran from Miranda and Maria, entangled in each other, body parts sticking out in weird places. He ran from Krory, who had been killed with his own teeth, which had been torn out of his mouth. He ran from Chaoji, who had thousand pieces of steel piercing his body. He ran from Lavi, who had been suffocated by the paper of his own books. He ran from Lenalee, who no longer had her legs and had a strange smile plastered upon her face.

'WHY!', he screamed, panic racing through his body, 'why did this have to happen?! ' DAMN IT ALL!!! He cursed the one who did this, sweat running down his body as he ran. His usual stoic face was shattered to pieces. He had always said they didn't mean anything to him. But now that they were gone, he felt more lonely then ever before, knowing that they would never bug him again, nor bother him with their small worries and feelings. Knowing that nothing would be normal again.

But he was still searching. Searching for hím. Praying that hé had survived. Hoping that hé wasn't as weak as he had always said.

He screamed, slowing starting to panic. 'MOYASHI!!!!!!', 'ALLLLEEEEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!' 'COME OUT, YOU BEANSPROUT!! GET YOUR FRIGGIN' ASS OVER HERE!!!' He broke down in a whisper. 'I'm begging you, so please…..'

'……Kanda?'

Kanda froze upon hearing his name. He whipped around to see a torn body lie down on the floor of the training hall, illuminated by moonlight. The white hair was tainted by red blood, the arm which was once innocence crushed to pieces. And oh, those eyes. Those beautiful silver eyes staring at him.

'Moyashi?' kanda whispered. He fell down on his knees next to the body, and took Allen's head in his hands. 'Are you all right?'

'Do I look all right to you, bakanda', Allen chuckled, 'And here I was being happy that you finally called me by my name'. He started coughing, blood was beginning to leak out of his mouth. Alarmed, kanda pulled the body even closer to him.

'Don't say anything if it hurts, you idiot!'

Kanda started looking around for something to bandage Allen's wounds with.

'You just wait, I'll get something to bandage you with.'

'…..Kanda…'

'You'll see, bean, we'll get out of here.'

'…..Kanda…'

'Your wounds are not that bad, they'll heal soon, and-

'KANDA!'

Kanda whipped around, nervously (yes, nervously) staring at the bean.

'I won't survive this'

'........!'

Kanda opened his mouth, gasping like a goldfish, and he grabbed Allen's hand, clasping it tightly. Fear started to consume his entire being.

'Of course you will, you idiotic bean, don't say stupid things'

Allen chuckled. 'This whole Miranda like character doesn't suit you, kanda'

Before kanda could tell the bean to shut up, he was pulled down by his hair.

One second, he was trying to keep his calm, and the next second, he felt soft lips on his own, tenderly asking access to his mouth.

'Wha- you stupid,mmmmfffgrl' kanda struggled for a few seconds, but soon melted into the embrace, giving the other's tongue the access it wanted. He tasted the bitter taste of blood in Allen's mouth, and cringed at the sensation.

The two tongues battled for dominance, and as usual, Allen won. Kanda pulled away, panting. He felt a soft hand stroke his cheek, and looked into the silver eyes of his deadly wounded lover.

'Go, kanda.' Allen muttered.

Kanda's world started to crumble. But he responded stubbornly, not wanting to listen.

'Wha- no way, bean, you can't order me around!'

'Kanda, if you don't leave now, I'll never forgive you', Allen said, this time more pressure in his voice.

Kanda stared at him in shock, not comprehending the situation, tears slowly starting to fall down his face. He finally broke down sobbing, shaking uncontrollably.

A hand petted his head softly for a little time. 'I love you, yuu, I really do.'

Kanda leaned into the comfortable touch. After a while the petting stopped. Kanda slowly looked up, and stared into the dead eyes of his lover.

It felt as if his own heart stopped beating.

'Noooooo', he moaned, 'noooo, you can't, you just can't'

And so he lay down on the dead body of his lover, all alone again, until the darkness took over.

'kanda….'

'kanda…!'

'kanda!'

'YUU!!'

Kanda leaped up, tears streaming down his face, his heart beating at a rapid rate.

He looked around with wide eyes, taking in the surroundings of his room, feeling his warm bed beneath him.

'Yuu, love, are you all right? Did you have a nightmare?' a soft voice next to him asked concerned.

Kanda whipped around to look into the sleepy and worried, beautiful silver eyes of his lover.

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