I eventually found my way home. I laid down my bed thinking about what happened until I eventually fell asleep. As I slept I had a nightmare it was like it was all happening again. I saw Dean and his friends as I laid there helpless as they took their turns violating me. I woke up covered in sweat. I've looked at my clock it was time to get ready for school. I got up and began to get dress. For the rest of the day it was like my body was just going through the motions. I went to school went to all my classes but it was like I was watching someone else. I was completely disconnected with everything around me. After school Lilly came up to me "Hey Miley, is something wrong you seem a little off today" she said. "Nothing I'm fine" I answered coldly. "Are you sure, did your date with Dean go badly" she said. "I don't want to talk about "I said as I walked away. She didn't understand, none of them understands the pain I was in to know what it is like to have to lay there helpless and powerless as they take turns having their way with you. To have them make you feel like a dirty slut, and to walk around in fear of it all happening again. I just want the pain and the fear to go away for everything to go back to how was before. After school I went looking for a kid named josh. "Hey Miley what's a nice girl like you doing over here over here." "I know you sale and I want to buy some" I said coldly. "I did not know you were interested in stuff like that here you go come back if you need some more" he handed me a small bag and some needles and I handed him the money. I then left, I melted the brown powder and inject it into my arm and for the first time today the pain was gone.