My Hair is Curls, Her Hair is Straight

Dear Diary,

Yesterday… was… disastrous. Lexi is dead and Damon and I are over. Yesterday you would say that I was happy and I wont deny that because I was. I gave Damon everything but Damon got rid of his brothers best friend for almost a hundred years and… it's heartbreaking. I couldn't stay with Damon, he broke my heart but I also broke his. I promised myself that… I wont let him get past my guard just because he cares because he has to work for it this time… he has to earn it himself if he wants to get back to my good graces. He used Caroline, he killed people, he doesn't care about the people who die around him or who he kills but apparently he doesn't with me. I just suppose that's a lie as well. My attacks of my condition is getting worse because of my lack of taking pills. I forgot last night because of the overwhelming grief and heartbreak that took over me but what's the big deal. I'm dying anyway emotionally and physically.

With life and death,

Olivia Pierce

I stopped writing when a powerful attack hit me that it choked me for a minute. When I began breathing, I took deep breaths slowly.

I leaned my head back as I closed my diary and put my stuff away in the drawer. I put my hand on my chest where my heart is that feels like it's slowly running than its supposed to be.

I'm losing time, but I can live again.

***

I follow Elena in the woods after she explained everything to me that was happening. Damon wants Katherine back. When we got, there Emily in Bonnie's body created fire while Damon tried to stop her. A little while, it stopped and I could tell that Bonnie was back in possession but that didn't stop Damon in his rage.

He was in rage and began to feed on Bonnie. Stefan stopped Damon from killing her completely and he saved her from death with his blood. While Elena talked with Stefan about Bonnie, I just kept looking at Damon. He was going to bring her back and that gave me proof that he never loved me but loved Katherine.

I exhaled as I watched Damon walk away to sit on a tree bark. I left back to the car and knew that my life is over. I thought he loved me but I was wrong. He has never seen me as me… he sees Katherine.

***

Dear Diary,

I just got back home and… I was right. Completely right about Damon; he doesn't care about me and now I wish I could die in a hole and I knew that my wish is about to come true. I could feel my life ending and in my guess. I don't think I will last another week. Too much pain and suffering has Damon given me… and I can't take it anymore. I talked to my Aunt Jenna about it and she disagreed with my decision but I won in the end because she promised not to tell anyone of my condition. I'm writing letters to the people I love: Elena, Jeremy, Aunt Jenna, Bonnie, Caroline, Stefan… and Damon. Even though he doesn't deserve it, he needs to know of my feelings. I would always love him with all my heart… but I wont be able to say it to him face to face. So this is why I'm going to give one of my last entries. If anyone reads this… I hope you could be happy and live on with the person you love.

With a broken heart,

Olivia Pierce