Title: Starting Over
Chapter 1: Chapter 1

Author: Mew Rima's Dragon

RATING: PG-13

Former semi cowriter/editor: Is_sm

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ATTENTION: As the summery has stated this is a LONG LONG Story! It is NOT intended to be a small story. So if you've come here to just to read a short sweet story, you're in for a disappointment. As I said this is a long story. Think of this as you would say a book series. You don't go into a book series expecting to learn how the story ends by the end of the first book. Until the Completed stamp has been placed on this story it is STILL in PROGRGESS. I have had at the moment had 2 people complain that by chapter 40 the summery statement has NOT been completely fulfilled. Well of course NOT! The story takes time to build up. If immediately or just shortly after getting together Yuri was to propose then where would the fun and drama of the story be! That'd be fine if this was planned as a short story, but IT'S NOT! So PLEASE if you cannot just read and enjoy the story and wait for the summery to be fulfilled, then PLEASE be patient and wait till the day the COMPLETED stamp has been placed on this story. Trust me I too am anxious to get to the heart of the story but I can't just jump into it and make it work well with the story. Sorry I hope you understand and will enjoy the story.

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Warning: This story does contain Yaoi (male/male) and possible bad language.

This is also a Conrad x Yuri story so if you're strictly a Yuri x Wolfram fan beware! PLEASE no I HATE that pairing comments! Only other pairing is Murata/Wolfram.

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Spoiler Warning: If you are a dub only fan and/or have NOT yet watched the third season then beware that this story does touch on events that occurred in the third season and mostly the final episode! So if you've not seen it yet beware of some major spoilers! Note I changed up and added a scene or two in the final ep to match the story.

The story begins just a few moments before Conrad brings Yuri his lunch in the final ep of season 3.

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Disclaimer I: I don't own Kyo Kara Maoh or any of their characters, the anime or the books from which some facts were taken from.

Disclaimer II: All own villains and own characters are fictional and DO NOTrepresent any persons living or dead or anyone's pen name. Any traces of this doing so is purely coincidental. names are completely random names and again DO NOTrepresent any persons living or dead or anyone's pen name.

Disclaimer III: Yuri is 16 and Conrad is over 100. Neither me nor is_sm condone underage relationships such as this or underage sex. This STORY is NOT meant to be taken as real life it is meant to be taken as FANTASY!

Disclaimer IV: Neither me nor is_sm condone or approve of any form of violence or any form of abuse whether it be an adult or a child or any other forms of abuse such as beatings, mistreatment, things along those lines. Any instances that may occur in this story are pure FICTION! If you cannot handle any of these issues being done to a FICTIONAL character then PLEASE do not read this story!

Disclaimer V: I will again remind that this is a STORY! Neither me nor is_sm mean any disrespect to the blind or any handicapped person. This story is not to be offensive to the blind in any way shape form or fashion.

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Summary: Yuri with Murata's help gets out of his engagement to Wolfram. Yuri then starts dating & later proposes to Conrad but is heartbroken when he refuses. Depressed he returns home only to have an accident leaving him blind and with amnesia.

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Notes: Please bear with me. This is the first Kyo Kara Maoh story I've ever written. I did my best to try to keep them in character, but if they fall out of character, sorry I did my best to try to keep the IC.

I've had different versions of this in my head and finally gave in to write one. For the most part most facts will be based on the manga. Though the story line follows the anime exactly, there are quite a few changes and if you're a Conrad x Yuri fan trust me the manga is defiantly a must read! I'll tell about these changes at the end of the chapter it occurs in.

As I said most facts are mostly going to be based on the manga but I will mix some of the anime. If you think I got something wrong based on one or the other, either live with it or pm me and tell me what you think I did wrong. Don't flame me saying I screwed up tell me why you think that. Also some things will be based upon pictures I've found.

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Name meanings, if you don't know already know them, remember them as I won't repeat this list.

Heika - Your Majesty

Maoh-Heika - Your/His Majesty, the Demon King

Yuri-Heika - King Yuri

Bocchan - Young Master/Kiddo (The first two seasons said it meant Kiddo, the third season changed it to Young Master so whichever you prefer.

Nazukeoya - Godfather - (Man that named me)

Geika - Your Highness/Your Eminence/Your Grace/Your Holiness

Taichou - Captain/Commander

Hahaue - Mother

Aniue - Big Brother.

Oni-san/Oni-chan - both also mean big brother (some people mistake onee-san/onee-chan for big brother but it means big sister .Inuyasha says Aniue can also mean Big Sister.)

Any other Japanese words used will be explained at the end of said chapter. If I happen to miss one which considering the very few I plan to use beyond this list isn't likely please let me know.

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Yuri still remembered when it all started. Janus had, finally, been put to rest, all thanks to him. And as a result, Gisela had, forcefully, made him stay in bed to rest and recover from his maryokou exhaustion, against his will until after lunch, even though he'd been out cold for three whole days. Personally, he thought that that much time was more than enough to recover from any sort of exhaustion. After all, he was a healthy teenage kid who needed to frolic around and not just sit tied up in the bed like some old coot, pretending as if he was about to die. But no, no one understood such a simple little thing. Everyone was acting as if losing his maryokou was going to be some sort of a huge blow to his system, when in truth it wasn't. Sure he was a bit surprised by it; but since unlike Wolfram or Gunter, he didn't find it that much of a great loss if he couldn't just raise his hand and make something unexplainable happen. He had been living that way for most of his fifteen years of average life to shout it out loud. But, alas, nobody understood.

Yuri was just wondering for how long his forced house arrest was going to last when, suddenly, Conrad entered his room with a tray full of food for him. That was the most exciting moment of his day so far and he remembered telling Conrad just that. Conrad had smiled and it was infectious. They had chatted for a while, just basking in each other's presence, and making plans for what he was going to do now that he was just another half-human like Conrad and everyone else of his kind, with no magic to wield. Although a terrible news to everyone else, this realization was somewhat subtly soothing to Yuri. It made him even closer to Conrad, his long standing secret crush. And the thought made him giddy with pleasure.

Yes, it was true. He liked Conrad…a lot…and in a romantic manner at that. He had just recently realized it and had kept it a secret, unsure and somewhat afraid of Conrad's own feelings. But that didn't change the fact that he wanted him badly and as more than just his godfather or a close-friend.

Ever since he woke up, everyone had horded his room and flocked him, making him feel as a lamb at the auction. Even breathing had become a tedious task, although he'll admit that could have more to do with Gunter and his tear-wet arm-locks. Finally getting an opportunity to spend some quality time alone with his most secretly beloved - Conrad, had been very reviving to him. He still remembered smiling at each other ever so frequently and the merry twinkle in Conrad's beautiful brown eyes. He had been lost in the depth of that brown abyss throughout their talk. Conrad had even called him by his name. Conrad's spell was overpowering him. Even though the realization of his feelings hadn't been very old but, once sparked, his want to claim Conrad, to be able to call him his, had been unbearable. But he knew he couldn't have it…not yet…not with Wolfram still his… Maybe that deprivation and helplessness was the reason that he was slowly losing his power of judgment and control over this particular situation. Of course, his raging hormones could also be blamed for all the unwanted (or wanted?) commotion. Deep in his thoughts somewhere, he was scared but these new strange feelings were overpowering, especially with Conrad right there with him, looking at him with such tender eyes…his
control slipped. And then…

He didn't know why he did it then, why even attempted something like that; especially when he was still so unaware of Conrad's feelings towards him, but something about having Conrad sitting that close him, emanating such a wonderful musky odor and safe protective aura, he couldn't resist. He just leaned in and for the first time, breaking all of his personal beliefs regarding romantic and sexual relations, kissed him.

Conrad been stunned at first and had gone absolutely still. Yuri was scared that he royally screwed it up, so as to say. So, he started to pull away, thoroughly embarrassed and sputtering apologies, when Conrad suddenly grabbed the back of his head and attacked his mouth in a searing kiss. Yuri couldn't help the intimate moan that escaped him and eagerly provided access when he felt Conrad's questioning tongue seeking entrance into his mouth. The resulting sensation was the most wonderful thing he'd ever tasted. Yuri couldn't believe his luck.

Conrad was so forceful that he could clearly feel the need oozing from him. He started to hope that maybe he wasn't the only one hoping and, perhaps, waiting for that forbidden secret wish of his to come true. Yuri was in paradise. He wanted more, wanted to let Conrad feel that need emanating from him in equal proportions, if not more, too; and he couldn't do that in his current half-sitting half-lying position. But in the entire pleasurable game of sucking and grinding together, both had completely forgotten the innocent tray of food still placed in Yuri's lap, waiting for its share of attention. And when he shifted a little, the tray must have thought that it'd had enough because, suddenly, Yuri felt it starting to move, slowly sliding and preparing to fall; thus, make its big unwanted entrance into the scene. However, Yuri had other plans. So, just like that he had to abruptly pull away and let go of the wonderful moment with his hopefully-future lover, in order to grab the offending object before it succeeds in all of its ill plans of completely destroying his long-wished happiness. This had been a big mistake.

The sudden moment acted as a wakeup call for Conrad. The spell broke and he was brought out of his trance, cold harsh logic and reality taking place of pleasurable want, wishes and dreams in his mind. And before Yuri could even think of speaking, Conrad stood up. "I'm so sorry, Heika. I'll wait for you outside if you need me for anything." And with that, Conrad as good as sprinted from the suddenly uncomfortable room, eager to escape. Yuri just watched him retreat, thoroughly perplexed.

Yuri may have been shocked from the sudden retreat and must've been a little hurt as well, but he was not clueless. He knew why Conrad had so suddenly run away. He sighed and decided to talk to him about it later. He could just hope that this act of his doesn't change anything between them. Having had his affection return would've been good but losing that old carefree friendship for it was not worth it. And having a new-found awkwardness in it would be even worse. He quickly finished his lunch and decided to go and search for Conrad. After he got dressed decently, he exited his room and the first person he bumped into was none other than his dream man - Conrad. To say that he was surprised would be an understatement. He was not prepared to find Conrad actually standing just outside the door, as he had said he would. Normally, in such cases, people usually only say that they'll be nearby and not actually mean it. They flee and do their best to remain hidden, at least from the one they'd been hiding from. Yuri had banked on that logic to find time to gather his wits and matter for the talk he'll have with Conrad when he found him a few hours, if not days, later. The sudden appearance of the one person he wanted to talk to and avoid at the same time made him stop dead and stare owlishly at him for an entire minute. All reasonable thoughts fled his mind.

"Ahh…I didn't think you'd really be standing here."

"I wouldn't have felt right about leaving you alone so soon after recovering. No one else was available right now. Even outside your door, I was nearby in case you had needed me." Conrad spoke with just a hint of awkwardness.

Both stood silent for a long moment after that, Conrad trying to look dignified while simultaneously avoiding Yuri's eyes and Yuri shuffling his feet, looking here and there, thinking of what to say.

"Um…"

"Yes, Heika?"

"So, um, do…do you regret what happened?" Yuri asked nervously.

Conrad was dreading this talk but knew it would come up sooner or later. He sighed, "Heika, what happened in there…"

"What happened was something I wanted to do." Yuri interjected before he lost his courage.

"Heika, you don't know what you're saying. You'd just woken up a few hours ago and learned of the sudden loss of your maryokou. You were vulnerable and looking for reassurance, a way to fill that loss. I…I took advantage of that." His voice shook towards the end.

"No, if I remember correctly, I'm the one who kissed you. Don't you dare blame yourself for this Conrad." Yuri said sternly. "And don't even think of assuming that I don't know what I want or feel. I'm not a kid anymore, for heaven's sake."

Conrad looked surprised at the sudden outburst that caused Yuri to soften. "Look Conrad, I-I don't know how to say this but…" He gulped, feeling nervous. This was his first ever love confession…sort of. "You see, I-I have had random thoughts here and there as to what it must be like to kiss you for a very long time. Like-like that time when I had to learn to dance for that party, you remember? It was very hard trying to learn from all four of you. You all had your own way of trying to teaching. And although I was a bit nervous with the way Gunter was acting during both practice and the party, I was actually surprised at how easy it was to dance with Gwendal. And you know, it wasn't that bad with Wolfram either…by then." Then, Yuri blushed, "But when you were dancing with me, I really had to fight the urge to lean in and kiss you. When we were dancing back then, it was like I had always been doing it and it's embarrassing to admit it but you really made me feel like a princess at the time and…" Yuri lost thereafter. That was the most he could bring himself to say at the moment. So much for a love confession…

"That maybe because you were pretty as a princess." Conrad lost some of his hesitation and awkwardness and teased in the old familiar manner. "That green dress really suited you…maybe even more than it would have many other ladies present at that party, had they worn it. I saw some of them watching you in jealousy too."

"Why you…" Yuri showed him a fist and tried to sound indignant but failed. "Shut up."

Conrad chuckled in the same manner that made Yuri's toes curl and spark that same fire in his stomach again. Remembering his original mission, Yuri's blush deepened and he squirmed as he asked, "You're still ignoring my question though. Do you regret it? It had seemed like you enjoyed the kiss."

Conrad's sober mood returned at that. "Forgive me, Heika. But I…"

"It's Yuri, Nazukeoya. Why do you keep trying to distance me from you?" Seeing that Conrad refused to answer, he tried a different approach. "I don't want to have to order you to tell me the truth. I want you to tell me on your own." He looked Conrad straight in the eye and asked again, "Did you enjoy kissing me?"

Seeing no way out, Conrad sighed in frustration. He had a feeling that Yuri would catch him in a lie if he tried one right now, especially since he wouldn't be able to look at him right in the eye and do so. So, he gathered up his courage, and looking at the boy straight in the eye, replied honestly, "Yes, I did."

Yuri smiled brightly hearing that and leaned up to give him a quick peck on the lips, thus, surprising Conrad again and said a cheerful "Good." before fleeing.

'At least, through all this turmoil…' Yuri thought. '…our friendship is salvaged.'

Conrad was left stunned as Yuri turned and quickly sprinted off in the direction of the main hall, maybe, to meet others. Quickly regaining his senses, Conrad followed before anyone could suspect his unusual absence from his liege's side. Too many confusing thoughts and questions swarmed within his poor, tired brain; but he'd time for all of them later. His duty to his liege would always come first, no matter what.

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A short while into the day and Yuri went to meet everyone else and found that Shinou had lost all of his maryokou too, which meant that he'd be stuck in Shin Makoku now for who knows how long, maybe even forever. As daunting as the phrase might sound, Yuri wasn't much bothered by it. After all, over all this time, Shin Makoku had become his other home, which he loved dearly. The only guilt bothering him was that Shori was also stuck there because of him. Also, neither he nor Murata were ever to see the earth or their parents again; he had acknowledged it and was feeling a bit put down by the harsh reality. Murata was eerily composed and content with that knowledge which made him uneasy standing next to him. So much had happened in the past few days and his entire life was turned upside down in a moment. Even so, he was strangely happy thinking that he'd now get to stay with his Conrad forever. And this strange unexpected happiness and calm was visible as a bright day on his face, much to the confusion of everyone else. Gwendal even looked at him as if he'd lost his mind. Overall, it had been a hectic reunion.

Later that day, things had started to get normal. The overexcitement of the day had faded away and everyone was enjoying a nice time together, drinking tea and devouring finest cakes baked by the maids. Conrad, true to his nature, had reverted back to calling him 'Heika' and showing all the troublesome formalities which he hated so much, especially coming from him. For the umpteenth time, he reminded Conrad to call him by his given name. As a result, the same precious smile bloom on his face that made his heart skip a beat. Not one to stay out of the spotlight for long, Wolfram chose that particular moment to notice them and started yelling. Fearing for his own safety, Yuri started to run followed by his so-called-fiancé. Even though he was being chased by the fiercest blond in the nation, Yuri was oddly at peace and everyone was enjoying the exciting chase and wonderful weather.

Ending the chase soon after and tuning the blonde's voice out, he stopped next to a fountain, surveying his new family from afar, and thanked whatever power was up there for bringing such wonderful people as these in his boring life. He felt so lucky then and there. He had only been standing there for less than a minute when Murata chose to come and destroy the precious moment for him and tried to push him head-long into the fountain. At that moment, he realized his powers had obviously returned. Without wasting a second he side stepped Murata causing him to fall in after Greta accidently pushed Shiroi in, and so Yuri chose to fall in. During his short fall, he paid his wishes to his other family and promised to return soon. The last thing that he heard was Conrad's 'Have a safe trip!' before his head hit the water, and a surge of happiness washed through his entire being.

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Yuri took a deep breath, snapping out of his thoughts. Murata had just returned with their ice-creams and joined him. Sigh. Once again he'd fled off to the world of his memories. Not that he complained. These memories were precious to him, not to mention pleasurable and brought him all the closer to his family in the other world. It was just that he felt it strange that how much he'd started to long for them all and his desire to be there with them after the recent events had broken all records. He couldn't think of anything else even for a second. His full attention was captured by them, especially a brunet in particular. That happened a lot recently, whenever he was on Earth, he kept on thinking about the other world. And whenever he was in the other world, he kept on thinking about Earth and his family here, although the intensity of his longing for Earth has been reducing recently. He wondered if he was cutting off from Earth. It was a terrible prospect for him.

It had been two days since they returned. Murata had invited him out for Ice Cream. But even now sitting at their table in the 'Tokyo Ice Cream Parlor', he was more interested in speculating what must be going on Shin Makoku than in Murata's chat, who seemed desperate to gain his undivided full-attention.

"So Shibuya, what's going on between you and Sir Weller?"

That did the trick and finally, Yuri was focusing at him. Murata grinned mentally, 'Only Sir Weller could gain your attention so quick even here, though he's not present physically. Sigh. What am I going to do with you, Shibuya?'

Yuri blinked, "What do mean 'what happened between us'? What makes you think that anything even happened between us?" Yuri asked cautiously.

"Aww, don't be like that Shibuya. You can tell me. I saw the looks on both your faces when we met in the gallery that day. Something did happen, I know. So, spill quickly."

Knowing Murata and his adamancy, Yuri sighed defeated. 'So that was his true intentions for inviting me out.' Yuri thought.

"All right, but you can, absolutely, not tell my mom or especially Shori." Yuri warned seriously.

"I swear." Murata said showing his palm. "I won't breathe a word of it."

"Well, alright." Yuri started nervously. "Well, actually, not a lot happened. I just kissed him."

Murata blinked, speechless for a whole minute, before replying, "With your speed and intelligence in these matters, you call that 'Not A Lot Happened'?" There was moment's silence during which both stared at each other before Murata spoke again, conspicuously. "And? Did he kiss you back?" His interest was piqued now.

"What do you mean 'And? Did he kiss me back?'? Aren't you at least shocked by it?" Yuri cried out indignantly, his mood fouled by the fact that such a huge and unexpected step from him was not even able to make the other boy bat an eye.

"No. Why should I be? Besides, you're avoiding my question. Did he kiss you back?" He asked again.

Yuri squirmed uncomfortably under his gaze and said, "Yeah, well, actually he didn't, at first. And I was afraid that I'd screwed up, thinking that he'd hate me for it. So, I started to pull away. But…"

"But?" Murata interjected.

"But before I could get too far away, he pulled my head back down and started to kiss me properly. It was weird and so nice both at the same time. I swear, I'll never forget it throughout my life." Murata smirked at the confession but Yuri, unaware of it, continued on in a much more serious note. "But then, I kind of screwed up. I had wanted to lean into it more. When I tried to do so, the tray of food placed in my lap almost got knocked down to the floor. I rushed to grab it, thereby, breaking our kiss. He realized what we did, stood up suddenly and, practically, ran for the door. He told me briefly that he'd be waiting outside the door. And sure enough he was, but he claimed that his duty made him stay. I guess he regretted it all." He ended his monologue in a sad tone.

"I see." Murata said thoughtfully. "Well, I can't say that I'm surprised, really. From what you've told me about you and Sir Weller's past, as well as seeing it for myself, I'm actually surprised that he didn't give into it sooner. But I guess he was just too afraid of losing you, your friendship actually, had he acted upon it earlier. I'm actually more surprised that you managed to figure it out and act first. I can't believe you wasted so much time."

Yuri's eyes were bulging out and he wore a ridiculous expression on his face. "Yeah, well, in case you hadn't noticed yet, I kind of have a fiery fiancé problem. Even if I had had the courage to do it sooner, I wouldn't have been able to do it. Wolfram's always lurking somewhere around me, waiting to find a reason to attack me. And I'd like, very much, to remain unfried, if you don't mind."

"Well, why not break it off with him. I heard he did with you once, after we returned after defeating Shoushu."

"Yeah, he did. And I was told that the nullification was binding if I wanted it to be, which I did. But I hadn't wanted to lose Wolfram either. He's my friend and he was in trouble then. After I rescued him, I never expected him to return and tear up that agreement to dissolve the engagement. I, even, talked to Gunter about it and he said that since I proposed, I couldn't get out of it in the same way Wolfram did. That's so my luck."

Yuri crossed one arm a crossed his chest with the other hovering just over it, holding his ice cream cone. After taking a brief lick, he continued casually, "Whenever I ask someone how I can dissolve the engagement, be it Gunter or anybody else, everyone just tells me the same thing that I shouldn't think like that, that Wolfram is a wonderful catch and that I should feel honored that he's still willing to marry me. No matter how much I try, they always refuse to tell me anything about dissolving it. I even asked Conrad and, after a bit of hesitation, Gwendal on how to go about doing it."

"And? What did they say?"

"Same thing. Both told me to go ask Gunter."

At that Murata smiled, his glasses gleaming in the sun. He leaned in and said, "So Shibuya, do you want me to help you with it?"

Yuri blinked in surprise. Then, he too leaned in closer and asked, "Really? Ah…that's right. You were the Great Sage. You must know how to."

Murata smiled cunningly, "Yes, I do. But, let me tell you, it won't be easy. Since you proposed, your engagement's binding."

"But if it's so binding, then how can I get out of it?" Yuri asked perplexed.

"If you'll do something for me in return, I'll tell you."

Yuri didn't even stop to think about what might be asked of him or what trouble it may lead to before saying, "Please, tell me. I'll do anything."

"Anything?" That question had a distinct tone.

This time he did stop to register what had been said and then sighed, "Fine. I'll agree as long as it's nothing embarrassing to do."

"Don't worry Shibuya. I promise it won't embarrass you."

"All right then, tell me."

With this, both boys bent over the table in order to discuss their indigenous plan.

"Let's call this mission - 'Let's Quash The Unwanted Engagement'." Yuri shouted with excitement.

"Have you been spending too much time with Anissina recently, Shibuya?" Murata asked amused at his friend's suggestion.

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A/N: If you have not seen the final episode of season 3 then that's why you might not have understood the opening scene. The dancing lessons and dancing in the green dress. I assume maybe it might be from the game? Don't know just a guess.

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