Time for disclaimers and author's notes! (How wonderful?!)

Well for starters, I do not own The Outsiders or anything that has to do with the plot or characters in the book. (Or any songs used)

A\N: Hello everyone and welcome to my quadruple first feature! My first Outsiders fanfic, my first yaoi fanfic, my first incest and my first lemon! Well before you start reading I must warn you of a few things some people may not like, for starters everything from yaoi (gay) to incest (family slash family) to lemons (sex scenes and such). So, if you have any problems with any of the suggested themes then shoo! I don't like flames or anything of equal or more value! I just totally warned you so don't be like, "I hated your story, it was so disgusting and why the hell would anyone want to read the piece of crap you just made? Try straight couples! Sicko!" Or anything like that. So if you like, stick around. If you don't? Then why are you in the rated M section anyways?! Ok. I'm done! Well I hope you enjoy one of my many first and yeah! =)

Prologue: This isn't set towards the events in the book. First, no one died in the Greasers Gang. And the only event I'm using in the book is the Sandy leaving part but that's all. And, that was the shortest prologue I have ever wrote, wow. Was this even a prologue?

Oct. 17, 2:37P.M.

Dear Journal,

My name is Sodapop Patrick Curtis. I am 16 going on 17. I haven't wrote in a journal since grade school and man aren't I paying for it? But do the gang love teasing me because I felt like buying a journal to keep my life in pages. All Two-Bit is saying is, "Man, I thought you were tuff, but now you bought some girly diary for your life? Where did the real Soda run of to?" But, I don't care. They just don't understand. I bought this journal to hold parts of my life that shouldn't be said. I just can't believe that it was only about a few months ago when my fake love, Sandy, left me. I never wanted to hurt her and when I realized what I really wanted she broke up with me before I even got the chance. Moved all the way to Florida just because she had some baby with another guy. If I loved her, man, would I be pretty pissed. But, actually she helped me. And, I thank her for that. To hide my real secret I had to date a girl to make everything normal. Ha, at least I never slept with her…. Anyways, I just wanted to tell you something, but you have to keep it a secret. I have no affection, no love, don't even wanna date…. Girls. So yeah, I'm gay. And sometimes I have dreams and visions of being with only one boy. He's the one who makes my world spin. He's the one who makes me wanna live for. But, many people ain't like me. Gay. To make matters worse, I'm in love with someone very close to me. My own brother, his name is-

"Hey! Soda! Get your girly ass down here! Dally just robbed a damn liquor store, again! We gotta go hide him!" I heard Steve yelling at me from downstairs of the Curtis home. Overly loud and obnoxious as usual, not that I ever complain.

I quickly close my Journal and carefully slide it under my bed in my old room. After I offered to sleep with Ponyboy in his room I just keep most of my stuff in his room, but this journal is private so I keep it under my bed. I run down the stairs and find Steve, Darry, and Two-Bit running through the door right as we all see Dally running down the street full speed as we hear sirens going off very close by. Dally runs to our house and jumps over the gate to the back.

"That's what the gate is for to keep hoodlums like you from jumping over them." Darry muttered while ushering everyone else back inside. The cops knew we knew Dally pretty well and our house was the first to be investigated. The sirens stopped and we hear doors open and slam as two police officers come and walked towards the front door.

"Let me handle it." Darry said in his deep voice while walking towards the front door to greet the officers who haven't even knocked yet.

"Looking for Dallas Winston again?" Although Darry asked it as a question, it was actually more like a statement.

"Yes we are and we believe that here would be his first stop. Have you seen him?" The taller officer asked while the second one peeked around Darry trying to see anything unusual.

"No we have not, sir. He did call I do believe but we said we didn't want him or his constant trouble around here no more."

The first office pondered about this before saying, "Well ok. But, if you hear of him don't hesitate to call us, you got that?"

"Yes, I do believe so, sir."

"Alright. Have a nice day don't you." Then both officers left and we heard the car drove off.

"Man, do you scare off those pussy po-po's off Superman!" Dally came from the kitchen shaking his head. "Hate to be them, coming so close but leaving with nothing. Ha!"

"Dally, if you don't cut that out than it will come back to bite you." Darry said turning on the TV and sitting down on the couch.

"Hell, it can bite me anywhere it wants. I can take it."

If only my brother can take my bite. I thought dirty. All the time.

As everyone settled down watching the local news and cursing each other out, I slowly went up stairs and back into my old room, silently closing it shut. I grabbed my journal and my pencil and continued writing where I left it.

My own brother, his name is-

Then I stopped. I heard the door opened and footsteps lightly coming up.

Ponyboy….

Well, I do believe that is the end of chapter one! Thank for reading it! I do thank you for support! If you could can you leave me a review? I love them and they make me feel accomplished! But not only that but they tell me what I'm doing wrong or doing right. So remember, NO FLAMES! And, hopefully I will get chapter 2 up, (only if I get enough support for it though) Thanks!