Author's Note- K, so this is my first ever fanfic, so don't hate me if it isn't amazing. I know this story is a bit on the more depressing side, and it spooks me out as I'm a very happy-go-lucky person. But after the 100th episode, I doubt that any fanfic has a right to sound happy.

Disclaimer- Bones is not mine, if it was Brennan would've kissed Booth 5 years ago

"I want to give this a shot"

Her face changed, from uncertainty to shock

"The FBI won't let us work together as a couple"

"That's no reason….."

And then Booth was kissing Brennan, and for a second she was shocked. She felt herself let herself go in his arms, enjoying the kiss, but only for a moment. Her brain was taking over, and she was pulling back from the kiss, and she could feel Booth trying desperately to keep her in his arms.

"No, no" she said, accompanying her words by two meager slaps to Booth's chest.

Booth's face looked heartbroken and imploring "Why, why?"

And then she had told him no, that she could not love him.

Brennan was stretched out on her couch, reliving what had happened only an hour ago. Booth's expression when she had said no, and the tears that had fell from both their eyes. And the kiss, she kept on reliving the kiss.

"He is a great kisser" She mused to herself, but that thought just made her heart ache as she knew she would never kiss him again. She didn't know how she felt about Booth. She didn't understand what love felt like, so how was she to know what she felt for Booth was love.

She needed someone to help her sort out her feelings, and the first person she thought of was Booth. He had always been the one who had taught her about love and relationships, but she could not call Booth, so she settled for second best.

"Sweetie, what's wrong? It's past midnight" She could hear Angela's confusion and her sleepiness in her voice.

"Listen Ange, I'm sorry for waking you but, but I need someone to be with me. I don't understand what I'm feeling." Brennan's voice cracked from unshed tears as she spoke.

She heard Angela's intake of breath, then "Hold on sweetie, I'll be there in 10 minutes"

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