Hi, well you've come to read my story which is really nice of you so I guess I should start huh?

But note this story isn't very good and my friends that do look it over have less grammatical skills then I do, so please ignore the horrible sentence structure.

And note I wrote this at like two in the morning so please don't kill me over it being horrible

disclaimer: T.T I own nothing of 'death note'

Dull, every thing seems to be dull to me. But my computer screen, it shines like a beckon in this dull world. The brightness makes my head hurt. I want to move my hand, so he might be able to take some of the pain away,but my arms feel heavy. I looks down, 'how long had that been there?' I looked at the chain for a few seconds, then looked up at the clock.

It was 1 a.m, it's the start of another night. I barely remember the times going by, the clock between 1 a.m and 4 a.m I never seem to notice. Some times I wonder if I fall asleep but I know its not true. Sleep is something I truly do miss through.

After the team leaves and Watari goes to bed, Ryuzaki has taken up a habit of drinking. It wasn't so bad at first he seemed less annoying when he was drunk, but sometimes he changes. At first he would just play the piano on his key board, some kind of program he had. It really was quite lovely and the music would sometime lull me to sleep. But when he gets too drunk he has four different moods. The kind L always asking me if I need anything, telling me to go to bed and playing beautiful songs. The workaholic L which seems normal beside the fact that the theories seem horrible and make no sense what so ever.

Then there's the other two. The mean L he is more strong then most would believe with that figure of his. And his punches are quite hard I believe that my ribs are a show to this. And the last the L i fear most, is someone else. Holding no justice that he wholeheartedly clams to, holding no mind that it is truly a crime, what he does is not the Ryuzaki I know, he is not my friend.

"Light-kun is something wrong?" Ryuzaki asked standing not a foot away. I groaned inwardly, turning towards the computer so I at least wouldn't have to look at L.

"No everything is fine Ryuzaki, I guess I'm just tired." he nodded and went back to his work. The team was gone and he had picked up his first bottle of whatever sorta sweet drink it is. He drinks it with strawberries. I don't know why but he seems to enjoy it. He looks at me and after a while his beautiful kind eyes turn angry.

"Just admit you're Kira." It's the side of hate, the side of L that shows what he really wants, in the terms of justice. I block my face and just say as I always do "I am not Kira"

My chair is kicked from under me and his eyes are filled with hate. There is a kick to my abdominal and he looks down at me he kicks me again. Then as if he has done nothing he sets back down in his chair. The fights never last long but they always hurt.

I wonder sometimes why not just tell my father or L him self. But the reason is always the same, I would be kicked off the Kira case and L, my only true friend would hate me. I don't know why I think he is my true friend but he has never really let me down and is never dishonest. He is the only one that I truly trust.

I get up as quietly as possible most nights it will be more then one fight but hopefully he won't notice me and I can just work.

After a few more kicks me yelling that I am not Kira, he falls asleep. I look at him and sigh wishing that L would just go back to being normal. I know its strange but I walk up to him brushing his hair out of his eyes. He seems so kind when he is asleep. I walk back to my chair and fall asleep letting my computer be my night light. In hopes that it might keep away the evil that is drunk Ryuzaki, and bring the brilliant detective Ryuzaki back.

The next morning around 6 a.m

L shakes me and I jolt awake afraid that he is still drunk and I wasn't awake to defend myself "Light-kun go take a shower." I nod and he looks at me strangely as if wondering why I agree so easily. Wondering why I jolt awake. But he doesn't wonder for long, and he shakes me ones more and says to go. I walk in to the bath room he unlocks the cuffs and turns around. I quickly undress and get in to the shower he sets in a chair working on his laptop. He remembers nothing of last night. That is something that is lucky I just hope that he never looks at the cameras.

I wonder if I should re edit this one and turn it in to 3nd person so you will know what Ryuzaki thinks . . . should I? Please review and tell me how much you hate it and what I did wrong. Next chappy up soon