A/N: All characters created by me. Characters, places and incidents are fictional. Any resemblance to actual characters, places and incidents are purely coincidental.
WARNING: Some scenes might be pertaining to Yuri. If you don't like Yuri, please don't read this.
CHAPTER 1
– Lives Intertwined.
If you love the person, learn to let go..
Cliché eh? I stumbled upon these words dozens of times and I didn't even learn from it. Not even at a glance.
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It's been almost two years since THAT day… THAT day is still clear in my mind, every move and every word you've said never really faded. They are fresh as new.. and it haunts me every time. Although I wanted to erase it, I cannot. And I would never want to…. And I would never know the reason why you are the one I fell in love with.. it was so wrong. Why? Look. I am a girl, she is a girl. Totally wrong. I screwed up so much. And up until now I am confused if I'm like THAT because I also like guys. Well let's just say I like both. But I like her more… most..
"Shiiiin!!!" a voice suddenly woke up my daydreaming soul.
Well, yes, I'm a girl and my name is Shiin. Yanagi Shiin. Yes, I tell you, I'm really a girl. Well they named me that because my parents said they like a boy as their first child, turned out I'm not and still insisted to name me a boy's name. It kinda sucks you see, but I don't really care. Now who's this person calling my name??? Pfff, what a disturbance.
I look up and saw a curly-haired girl. She has a chubby appearance and a lot taller than me.
"Merri-chan!!!" I shouted, real shocked.
"Why visit so suddenly and how come you got inside of my house?!" I pouted my lips.
"Well, I just visited because you've left your wallet in our dormitory. I know, I know, money is your first priority~!! And oh by the way, you didn't lock your front door." She laughed. A witch-like laugh.
This is Merri Juun, one of my closest friends since High School. She knows everything, almost everything about me. And yes, she really does laugh like a witch, errr.
"Oh!!! I've really forgotten about my wallet. Errr, thanks for bringing it here." I replied.
"By the way, you wanna eat??" I told her.
"Nah! I just pass by because of your wallet, Nika-pyon is waiting outside, we'll gonna go shopping for her you know, her show." She jerked, sounding regretful for being dragged by Nika-pyon to go shopping.
"Oh I see, just tell my regards to her then." I said sounding confused about the so-called show.
"It seems like you're not your usual self today? Hmmm." She continued. "You just got some new news about her eh? I'm sure about it, it's written all over your face!! Well, me too, I think I would never be moving on with Li-kun.. He's just so handsome~" she sighed.
"Not really, you do know me that much. I'm not thinking of that goddamn Lady Gaga-fan!" I said while pushing her to the door.
"All right, all right, just stop pushing me! I know how to go outside with my own two feet!!!" She laughed again.
"Just tell me, you know, I could lend you my ears. I'm just an SMS away." She replied and gone.
I'm NOT thinking of her. I'm just daydreaming!!!
I told myself. I went back to my room to check my wallet. I opened it and pulled the pictures out. I stared at them one by one.
Time goes by so fast… I miss my old friends…
I sighed. I smiled as I glance at my friends' pictures, one by one. Remembering every memory I spent with each one of them. I stared at the last picture. This girl, I missed her so much... How is she doing now.. I wonder.
It is still so clear in my mind. Our so-called story…
2006.
I was in my freshman year. It was the first day of classes and I feel nervous. Even though I know that one of my best friends was my classmate. It was always been like this. I always feel nervous and anxious towards first days. Who wouldn't be? New teachers, new classmates and a new academic year. Everything is new!
I walk nervously towards my classroom. 1-B. I look at the plate at the top of the door again: 1-B.
Okay, I hope Ai arrived earlier than me. I sighed.
I opened the door and walked inside.
"Shiin~ oi oi oi!!! You're early for the first day of classes huh!!" She ran towards me and hugged me.
This is Ai, my best friend. She is taller than me and has long black hair. She has fair skin and a confident aura. She may look quiet but she isn't. We're always together whenever we put pranks to other people. Especially in singing, we both compose songs and play the guitar. We're friends since middle school and yes she's mischievous like me.
"Eh? Am I early?" I looked around the room and saw about 5 people sitting and being quiet. Only our two voices can be heard.
"Here, here, here! Here's our seat!!" She said sounding excited and pointing at the front row.
"Eh??! You put us on the front row?" I sounded depressed.
"Our adviser will easily caught us when we're talking with each other you know.." I continued.
"Well, at least you're beside the window!!" She put my bag away from me and put it on the seat beside the window.
"It would be all right!!! Look, look, we're in the far-most right and the teacher's table is in the middle! Don't worry and it's still orientation day today.. so it means, we're not doing anything!" She talked non-stop.
"All right, all right. I got it." I replied sounding defeated.
The adviser talked about the orientation. The same rules we've tackled the previous year when I was in middle school, stupid rules like separate biodegradable trash from non-biodegradable and the like. She called our names one by one and we should answer you-know-what-word, "Present".
"Kimura Takada." She called and talked to her.
"Taka-chan! It's good to see you're one of my students again!" the adviser said, sounding happy.
"By the way, could you kindly please bring these papers at the faculty?" the adviser asked her.
She stood up and said something I really don't understand. (It's because I'm not really paying attention.)
Not until I remembered something about this girl.
This so called Kimura Takada?? I think know her.
I'm a little taller than her, about one centimeter or two I think? I'm 158 centimeter. (I know I'm short.) She has long black shiny hair and sort of big eyes that fit her face well and her lips are just proportional with her face. She also wears a red hair band.
I thought hard… hair band..
I know where I met her!!!
I met her when I was doing piano lessons in middle school. We have to practice for the presentation until 7:00 PM that time and my school bus left me because it would be troublesome for other students to wait for me. I was a real crybaby back then. Worse is that my mother don't know that we have to go home at a later time. I was near-tears at the school gate because I really didn't know how to go home by myself.
"Excuse me? Are you all right? You are Shiin right?" An angelic-like voice asked me, she sounded concerned.
I looked at the person. This person, she's Kimura Takada and she's my piano-group mate. (We perform by groups for the piano presentation).
And at this time, she wore a blue hair band.
"My mother… I don't have anyone to fetch me… and it's so late already.." I blurted out, really tear-eyed.
"It would be all right! Don't worry.. Our car is here." her eyes glanced at their car and back at me.
"I'll just tell our driver where your house is and we'll accompany you home." She smiled and touched my back. She sounded really concerned and at that time, I felt my worries have been gone.
I took a glance at their car.
They look rich. I said to myself. Then suddenly I saw an old woman, she looks prima donna. And really, her stare is a not-so-nice stare. I can't describe it. I see she's listening with my conversation with Kimura Takada.. and they look alike..
Maybe she's her mother? I ask myself.
"Mother, can we accompany her home? It seems like she can't go home by herself and no one is there to fetch her." Takada said.
"Just tell us where you live, do you know where you live?" the driver asked me, smiling.
Of course I know where I live! I thought.
"Yes, I know the way to our house. Thank you very much." I said.
And there, her mother is still looking at me like THAT.
That night, my mother arrived. I'm so lucky because I'm really shy to be accompanied home by someone I really don't know and after that night, every time Takada and I passed by each other at the school corridor, we would greet each other. But then I don't really pay any attention to her. Well at least, not that time. We greeted each other for about uh months, maybe 3 to 4?? Uhh, I don't remember well but time came when I started not greeting her.
And I should get back to reality now.
Good timing, the adviser just called my name.
"Yanagi Shiin?" sounding unsure.
"Present." I replied, sounding bored.
"Oh you're a girl! I thought they just misplaced your name in the girls' list." She said.
I feel everyone in the classroom was staring at me. And I'm used to it.
Damn name. I didn't reply.
Hours passed and time for dismissal came.
My best friend and I walked together in the corridor.
"Pfff, your name is still an issue at this time." Ai said.
"Well I cannot blame them. It does sound like a guy's." I replied, sounding not-so amused.
"Oh!!! By the way!! I know a new store! They sell really delicious burgers! Let's eat!! I'm hungry ya know." She blurted out.
"Nahh~ I really don't know where the food you eat go. You're not getting any fatter." I said.
"Well I cannot blame my body. It does look sexy." She said, trying to imitate my well I cannot blame them. It does sound like a guy's tone.
"What the heck is that?!!" I laughed.
Well, we both laughed. So hard. Her voice is like that of an Okama.
Weeks passed. Months passed. Practice for the Sports Festival came.
At this point of time, we don't have any classes but we should prepare the class for the festival like cheering competitions, ball games and indoor games, etc. I just like this festival because we've got nothing to do, just that. I don't like sports because I'm clumsy, I don't like cheer dancing because both of my feet are left. Just practices, no lessons. And my best friend is one of our batch's cheer dancers so I frequently went home alone that time.
This time, I started to know my classmates well. One of the encounters is getting to know Kimura Takada. AGAIN.
It was our lunch time and I was busy eating my uhh,not-so-nice bento when I spotted one of my classmates eating a biscuit I like to try. (I've seen it in the commercials and I wonder if it tastes good. XD) I went to that classmate of mine, well her name is Rosu-chan.
"Rosu-chan!!!" I said cheerfully.
"That's the new biscuit …" I read the biscuit's name..
"Para-para biscuit!" I said.
"Is it good?" I continued. Smiling like a fool, waiting for Rosu to give me some.
"Here, have some! It's good!" Rosu replied.
"Thanks!!" I ate one piece.
"Hey hey!! Don't eat that!!" someone blurted out.
"It has about 30 calories!! One piece of that biscuit equals to 30 calorie!"
I looked at the girl. The girl with the red hair band.
"Eh?!" I said. Munching on the last fragments of the biscuit.
"May I have some again?" I asked Rosu.
I ate about 3 pieces of Para-para biscuits.
I looked at the girl teasing me, she's holding a calculator.
"Hmm, 3 pieces multiplied by 30 calories!" she exclaimed.
"90 calories!!!!!! 1 cal equals 4.19 joules!" she continued.
"90 times 4.19.." while obsessively typing in her calculator.
"That would be 377 Joules!! That would make you fat!!! Eww." She exclaimed.
I look at her as if what the heck is this girl? She feels we are THIS close? Really?!
I walked around the room while she was running after me letting me see her calculator better and see the numbers 377.1.
"Look." She said smiling at me and kind of laughing.
I was thinking JUST to ride on whatever she's talking about that time.
"Do you really need to calculate every Para-para biscuits I ate?" I said smiling back at her, still walking towards the front door of the room.
"Yup, it got tons of calories! And I really can't believe it myself! I ate about 5 pieces!! That would be 150 calories." She said, her eyes becoming bigger.
She smiled again at me. Rosu and another classmate of ours laughed.
"What are you? Do you know what are you?" I said to her while laughing a little.
"Me?" she answered confused.
"I know!! I really know who you are!" I replied back.
"Taka-chan is really tripping around!" Rosu laughed.
"She can't believe the nutrition facts written behind the Para-para biscuits' pack!!" Rosu said being so amused.
"Who am I? Who am I?" Takada asked me repeatedly.
"You are…" I said while laughing a little.
"You are… CALORIES GIRL!!!" I laughed so hard with the name. It sounds not good.
Takada laughed. We both laughed.
"It fits you well!" I said.
"Calories Girl?!" she blurted out.
"I'm gonna draw a costume for ya if you like!!" I continued, sounding amused with our conversation.
"How about Nutri Girl? Or uhm.. ehhh Para-Para Girl??" she offered names.
I laughed. Again, we both laughed. Those names are just so stupid!
"Oh, Rosu-chan! Thanks for the biscuit! Oi Nutri Girl, calculate more calories!!" I laughed again.
"By the way, you are Shiin?" Takada asked me smiling again.
"Yup that's my name." I smiled back at her and went to the school cafeteria to buy dessert.
~END