Do you guys even remember me? I haven't been on here in so long. Well, life is overpowering. And between reality and fanfiction, reality wins. But I am back now. It's been a few months but I am back. No, I did not die. I wrote this in one of my writing bursts and I think I will continue it. Nest chapter, will be about Obi-wan. Anyway, hope you enjoy this little piece.

I was never supposed to cry.

I am the padawan of the chosen one. No, I was the padawan of the cursed one. He wasn't the chosen one. He wasn't my master, I say to myself. I live in denial. I live like an animal in the hill of some force-forsaken jungle. I don't want to remember how I got here. I don't want to remember who brought me here. Memories bring pain and agony.

I can now feel the hot burst of liquids streaming down my sunset face. It does not hurt but humiliates.

They were my family and they persecuted me. I loved them all and they turned on me. I can describe the feelings I had for them. The feelings I have for them now have numerous descriptions; hate, terror, and confusion.

The tears drip off my face and fall to the floor. Not a sound do they make.

He was the hero. He was my hero. Yet also he was my enemy. He is the reason, I do not love. I hate love with a burning passion. Love is what killed him so I will not love. My heart is just a bowl of fuming emotions that lack any affection.

The ground absorbs my tears. It looks like they were never there but who would even care?

I wonder why I haven't gone mad yet. I don't know why I don't just take my life. Perhaps it's because I am too afraid to die. Or perhaps, I still cannot bear to see blood. Or perhaps, it's because I have hope. I suspect, it is just because it would be a waste. Yet my life is a waste anyway.

The tears are now gone. They are such a waste and just for emotions.

The one thing, I truly learned from my master was to never trust emotions. They will just kill you in the end. A life without emotions is a life of bland peace. Flavorless but satisfying.

And the tears begin again.

A waste.

Hope you liked it and please leave a review.

And if you can, can someone give me a brief over view of the last season on the Clone Wars? I wasn't able to watch it.

Thanks!