Here's a new story I made…I read someone else's fan fiction and I got this idea…so I put it into supernatural context…and I got this…well I hope you like it!

(A/N: disclaimer: I do not own supernatural...or any of the people from the show….the only people I own are the ones I made up…but either way I don't own anything…it all goes to their respectable owners)

A Dark Life: Chapter 1

I couldn't believe it…he left again! He left because he got a lead on that stupid demon that supposably killed his ex-girlfriend Miranda (A/N: I know dean never had a girlfriend named Miranda but I just thought it would work)

This is the second time he has left the little town of Jericho…but in that time he never once...NEVER noticed me…he was talking to his friends Dylan and Mike who supposably had a lead or two on where this "demon" may be…but I don't know I really think it's not worth it…she's gone so what! Besides she wasn't that great at much of anything…She sucked at hunting...literally…Dean always had to step in and save her…she'd cry and whine hoping dean would come and rescue her...She was just a nuisance to him.

I remember the first time he left as if it were yesterday

Flashback:

It was a cold and rainy night. I went out to get some supplies for the new hunt I just discovered…little did I know it would be a bust. When I did that I saw the man I loved…Dean Winchester...I guess he was packing up his stuff…I didn't know why.

I went up to him and said "hello"

He looked at me for what seemed like a second or two then he continued to put his duffle and his weapons in the back of his classic '67 black Chevy impala.

I looked at him curiously before speaking, "Are you going somewhere?"

He just sighed then he spoke, "aaah…yea I got a lead on a hunt outta town…well more or less a demon…" This time I saw pain and regret in his eyes…there was something that I couldn't even begin to understand…but I wanted to know what was wrong…to help comfort him in any way that I could.

I thought of what I could say before I said anything, "Did a demon do something bad?" I spoke looking up at him curiously

"Yes a demon did do something…the….the damn thing killed my ex…and I want to hunt him down and kill him myself…" He spoke with such anger and rage that I couldn't understand...but I knew it wasn't me he was fighting for…though I wish it was…he was fighting for his ex who passed away while hunting a demon.

I smiled at him, "I could be of some assistance…I'm not too bad of a hunter myself…besides it may not be such a good idea to venture out on such a risky hunt…" I spoke as a walked up to him...but I knew I spoke too soon…I mean hell I hardly even talked to the guy...and here I was asking if he needed some help…talk about desperate...but then again that was me…poor old Ruby Shadow...love sick over a guy who didn't even know her. We did go on a few hunts though and I got to know him quite a bit...we always liked having to talk about our past hunts.

Dean looked at her awkwardly before speaking, "It's okay…besides I don't think I want to put another life endanger…I've already lost enough…I think it's time I take my leave" he slammed the trunk before going over to the driver's side.

I looked at him sadly…not really wanting him to go… "Do you really have to go? Is revenge really worth it?" She spoke...this time though she was very serious

He looked at her confused before he walked over to her, "aaah…yea I do I think this revenge is worth it…besides...what's really left in this town worthy of keeping me here?" He spoke looking down at her curiously.

"Well I thought-"She was cut off by Dean

"You thought what? That I would stay here for you? Look, just because we had a few fun hunts together in the past doesn't mean that I'll hang around you like we are some married couple…got it?" dean said harsher and much ruder than he actually meant it.

"I got it…it's just that it will be hard to not have you here…in this town like you always were…" Ruby spoke softly never meeting his gaze…she was too afraid to.

"Well…get used to it…" dean spoke as he turned his back on her…as he started to walk back to his car he heard her say something…something that stopped him dead in his tracks.

"Ever since we started to hunt together…I thought there was something there…" Just say it! I thought to myself vigorously. "I love you Dean! I love you so much that it hurts! How long is it going to take for you to realize that?" Ruby spoke sadly as she saw him stop dead in his tracks…

For quite some time Dean didn't respond but then he said, "How could you love someone like me? I'll never treat you with the respect you deserve…so don't waste your time…besides I'm way too busy with hunting to worry about any relationship nonsense" He spoke not really liking the position he was thrown into.

"Well what about Miranda? You loved her…and yet you were still able to hunt and keep your relationship with her up to date…then again…I'm not Miranda…" Ruby spoke confused as to why he's acting this way.

"Damn straight you're not Miranda…now if you'll excuse me…I have a demon to kill" Dean spoke as he continued to walk to his car…but he was stopped by Ruby.

"So you're just going to leave huh? Just like that? And after everything we've been through…I thought you were better than this…I told I loved you for crying out loud! Doesn't that mean anything to you?" She asked him more serious than ever.

He sighed before he turned back to look at her, "Ya know, while I was hunting with you, you were never this annoying…in fact I liked you so much better when we were hunting…well anyway…goodbye Ruby" He spoke as he turned away from her and continued to walk over to his car.

Ruby just felt like a bullet hit her heart...she couldn't let him leave…she wouldn't…she couldn't live without him…so with all the strength and determination she had left…she ran after him… "Please…don't go!" she spoke before he turned once again to look at her

Deciding there was no other way...Dean smiled at her and walked over to her…he soon wrapped his arms around her…

"Was this a dream? Did he actually smile at me? Does he really want to hug me?" Ruby thought shocked

As dean hugged her…he brought his hand to her neck…he spoke four final words to her…" thanks Ruby, for everything!" he said before he knocked her out…he then put her in his car and drove off to her house.

When he got to her house he placed her on the bed…looking at her one last time…he turned and walked out of her house…he reved up the Impala and drove off to continue his search for his ex's murderer.

End Flashback

It had been 2 years since he left the village…oh she did find new love yes...but this love wasn't what it had turned out to be…she had found a guy named Chad at a local bar in Jericho…they both seemed to like each other and decided to get together…then after 6 months of them going out…he proposed to her…she said yes…everything seemed so perfect…but nothing is ever too perfect..

A few months after the proposal...she found Chad lying in their bed in the arms of another woman.

Ruby wondered why she even bothered…she tries to find a guy…finds him and then he cheats on her…to Ruby it seemed that she was never meant to find that person…that one special person…she knew it was time for her to give up…

Today Ruby was wearing a purple low cut top…with blue jeans and sketcher shoes…it was close to supper time as Ruby entered the kitchen…it was pouring outside…just like it was on that night that he first left her…

Feeling the pain and regret from her past…she reached for one of the knives on the counter…making sure the knife was sharp she let her right finger brush slightly against the blade…realizing it was sharp enough she brought it to her wrist and let it gently swipe her wrist…though it didn't cut through the skin…she now knew that there was no going back…as she let the knife slice her hand…she soon felt a pair of arms wrap around her…in an instant the knife was knocked out of her hand…