My Journey to my mothers past

Don't own fma only the charecters i make up

Chapter 1

Riza's point of view

Just another ordinary day in the military or so I thought "sir, have you even attempted to at lest look at the white rectangles most of us would call paper work" I said staring at him directly with a face as straight as possible.

"pay-per-work, never herd of such a thing lieutenant" he grinned. Okay two can play this game

"well sir as they say no trick no treat" now it's my turn to grin. Let's see how long it takes him to realise what I'm talking about.

Three, two , one

"how can you be so crew" he started.

"simple, how can you be so lazy".

It went on like this for what seemed like hours but in reality it was ten minuets. Just wasting more time and to make matters worse everyone seemed to be listening lets see

For a start there's people I've never seen before at the windows trying to hide idiots and then there's the people and my work colleagues listening in at the door and even people trying to listen in threw the walls. I've had enough of this silliness and ease droppers gees.

BANG BANG

That got everyone's attention

"don't you all have work to do" I yelled and I tell ya there's nothing more annoying than people listening to you having a sarcastic fight with your secret lover and fiancée your not even aloud to have

Okay it's true I've been in love since practically the beginning but I've always discarded those feeling until two weeks ago when I went to drop off paper work at his apartment he asked me to come in got chatting some how it turned in to a kiss then confession then kiss then to his bed and you get the idea though most the time I'm thinking and saying we can't and he's all no one will know and I suppose I gave in. If anyone finds out there dead

"lieutenant please go grab some lunch while I finish here he said eyeing the paper work then looking at me.

"sir have you even began the pay-per-work" I said with my eye brow arched

"I'm not that much of an idiot" he argued and my reply to that was "so you confess you are part idiot sir" knowing I won this round.

"te amo Riza " he spoke in Latin.

"te amo Roy" I spoke back after all as far as we know we're the only people who know Latin as far as I know apart from people know a few things for the alcamy or chemistry words people use.

At lunch I sat with Maria and Rebecca who were talking about going on vacation with everyone and somehow they managed to get me in to coming to as well as the boys and Garcia's coming to with Elysia. O what fun this will be, joy.

"The guys are going to meets us there for there going one day ahead but I don't see why" questioned Rebecca

"Maybe they want to check out the place to make sure it's ok" answered Maria as if it was obvious but I wasn't really paying attention nor was I hungry and for a fact the food didn't seem like some yummy treat you eat but more like a horrible medicine.

"Riza are you ok" asked Maria suddenly snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Not thinking about a guy are you" asked Rebecca "you haven't touched a thing are you feeling ok" she asked now more concerned.

"I'm just not hungry that's all" I answered in a reassuring voice also thinking I hope not but brushing that away I should get back. "I'll catch you and later ok" I said standing up taking a red apple with me for who knows why.

"I hopes she's ok" asked a concerned Maria and got the reply of "she'll be fine this is Riza we're talking about" form a half unsure Rebecca herself.

"Back already Hawkeye" asked a busy Roy mustang signing paper work and not even stopping to look at me, WAIT WHAT!.

"I got an apple for you sir" I said showing him the red apple.

"you eat it I'm not hungry" he said briefly looking up and I answered "I just went for lunch sir" well I did go for lunch I just never had any and I'm not about to let you do them same.

"It's an apple" he protested.

"so you won't mind eating it" got ya again ha Roy.

"no thanks" he said more seriously. Well I guess I'm going to have to do it the hard way then.

I waited until he was focused back on his work, amazingly, and walked behind his chair then to his left side. I leaned forward and blew on his ear causing him to snap t face me his mouth wide about to say something and I shoved the apple I his mouth as he bit down.

Everyone just stared at the little incident like fish if I could describe it. "well who else hasn't had there lunch today" I asked as if nothing out of the ordinary had happened and as expected nearly everyone got put of there as fast as they could.

"mou bevle mooman" mumbled Roy not thinking of using his hand to take the apple out as he tried to chew his mouth free.

"well some times you need some tough love and care sir" was my reply to

what I thought what said you evil woman or you are the blue man but having a though time trying not to to to laugh (bursts out laughing).

"ma ma merry huni" he said it only made me laugh more "yes sugar plum" I asked "mot huni, huni" he said mean while I'm laughing and he's looking like a fool so I pointed to my hand which he copied until he realised what I meant.

"that wasn't funny" he said " o … really ….really colonel … sir" I managed to get out trying to stop my self laughing. Now Maria walks in and we both

laughing our heads off and she backs away slowly and out the door.

"ok, time for work" I said straightening my self out.

"you should laugh more often lieutenant" he smirked

"me laughing sir where did you ever get that idea, now I've got to see someone about something so get on with your paper work or don't you remember our talk earlier" cause now I've got to catch Maria to tell her to keep her quiet.

A week past in a blink of and the boys had already left the last day so it was me and Black Hayate my Shiba inu, Gracia with Elysia, Rebecca, Maria and Sheska.

While Elysia and Hayate played while we waited for the train I wasn't feeling to well but I can take it probably cause it's early in the morning and the suns just raising that's it.

"music is an science" shouted Cheska followed by "it's a horrible noise" by Rebecca then a "more of an classical type of art" by Maria.

Here we go just the thing I need to keep me a wake and there behaving worse than a four year sorry Elysia but it's true. At lest Gracia has some sense about her.

"well what do you think Riza" asked Gracia trying to include me probably cause she thought I was board or lonely or something I could defiantly do with out being dragged in to this.

"never mind the music, I think this is a horrible noise" I said honestly trying to read my book. They didn't even notice my opinion but Gracia gave me a warm smile and I smiled back.

15 minuets later the train finally arrived. Next time we take a car or even walk it's been ages and now it's time for the next five hours of my life to be pure hell.

Well about an hour or an hour and hour and a half of listening to three of my friends arguing, getting asked a lot about Hayate by Elysia and trying to read my book my stomach started hurting really bad.

I took in a sharp breath and Gracia seemed to notice because she asked "are you alright Riza" which I answered "I must of eat something bad don't worry I'm fine" trying to reassure her. "hum" was her reply but she said nothing more.

When lunch came I barely touched it cause it tasted funny but what can you expect from train food. Come to think of it Rebecca didn't eat her soup cause she found a green leaf in it. "it's for flavour" said Gracia when she saw her playing with it on the end of her spoon "I can't eat this" she complained and compression another argument with the four of them this time.

So tempted to bring out my gun to make them shut up.

"ahh" another sharp shallow breath no way I'm eating now.

It was like this the whole train ride and when we got to the train station Gracia and the others were all concerned about my stomach pains and agreed that Gracia would take me to the towns clinic while the others got a cab to take them to the lake side resort.

"Gracia I'll be fine It's just a sore stomach" I pleaded but to no ale. "better to be safe that sorry" she smile softly but I could see she was trying to keep me calm.

"hello we're here for the appointment for Riza Hawkeye" asked Gracia

once we got to the town clinic. It was rather small but well used and seemed cheery enough. I hate it. Also when did Gracia make me an appointment should I ask or would that offend her humm.

"Yes please take a seat over there and someone will be with you shortly" smile the reference girl.

Waiting was a pain, literally my stomach never felt worse but I was beginning to get used to the pain to describe this is to be as uncomfortable as saddle sore only in your stomach. "miss Hawkeye the doctor will see you now please go to room 5 on left then right then left then another left followed by a right". "right" I said only to be answered by "left" as the assistant girl smiled and went away some where.

"right Gracia did you catch any of that cause I have no idea any more" I said confused what's with people and making life harder on you all the time .

"Left, right, left, left, right, it helps to make a rhyme" said Gracia doing a now funny dance as she said the rhyme.

"Okay time to go and get this over with" I said before I burst out laughing again and I can't have that now, no sir. Okay now I'm talking to an imaginary person maybe need this more than I thought I do but okay then charge.

The doctor seemed nice, her name was Eleanor. "right miss Hawkeye

What seems to be the problem" she asked with a smile that I was sure she gave to everybody who came in here.

"got up at half five, listened to arguments, felt nauseous, felt board and annoyed felt pain in stomach been dragged here mam" I told her with a serious face and she just seemed to laugh like I was trying to be sarcastic.

"have you been eating properly lately" she asked and my reply is "well less than normal but I'm still eating" ok I thought I was something to do with the food maybe I'm missing vitamins or something.

"Have you vomited with in the last week" and my reply was a sudden "no" and think of this it was last week I started going off food.

Eleanor asked me a whole load of questions which I thought were just pointless. "okay we're going to need a swab of your throat and a sample of your urine and a sample of your blood" she said looking at that silly clip board of hers

"and why is that I asked her" I swear if she doesn't stop annoying me I'm goanna shoot her any moment.

"I have several theory's and one of which I more likely that the rest" she answered with that same smile and I just looked to Gracia for help but she now looked more worried than cheerful than ever.

Once all that horrible stuff was done and out of the way (did I mention if I had a list she's on it) we were told to go back and wait in the waiting room again but we ended up at some sort of cafeteria on the other side of the building.

"We should have changed the rhyme" said Gracia and I agreed and when we did make it back after buying our self's a drink of bottled water each the assistant was calling for us again.

"well miss Hawkeye I have found the cause of your condition". I just blinked and Gracia just blurted out "is it bad".

"well it depends on the situation, Miss Riza Hawkeye" she said and paused.

"Yes" I said like I was talking to a two year old wonder what's wrong with my body now

"You are pregnant" she smiled.

Both mine and Garcia's jaws dropped open.

No way this can't be happening and then it dawned on me who the father was. "Riza I think we better go now" said Gracia but I had one more question to ask. "How far along doctor" I said in a dark voice. Three or four weeks" she replied. "Thank you you've been a big help I said as kindly as possible and left her room before she could talk to me anymore and Gracia wasn't far off my heels.

We were at some sort of park and in the middle of some field where there were no people but us I just broke down crying in the shade of the trees.

"Riza" said Gracia as she came and sat beside me and gave me a hug.

"What am I going to do Gracia" I sobbed, I must look an awful state.

"well you should tell the father and sort it out together" she said her words sounded so simple yet they weren't so.

"I can't Gracia" I said and she replied "why not" which got me biting my lip. "you must promise not to tell a soul" I warned and she agreed. "The father of my unborn child is Roy Mustang".

"Knew it" she squealed "GRACIA" I yelled. "Sorry it's just we were right" she explained. "We" I asked "me and Maes" she said and sighed.

"Gracia, I need to get out of the country to go somewhere far away wear no one will find out about this which starts with me ever going to that clinic" I tried to explain calmly.

"Getting those files is the easy part Riza but if your leaving so am I" she said.

"But your daughter and Hayate and our cloths are at the lake resort" I protested but she wouldn't hear of it. "I'll sort it out but I want you to go home pack and book a hotel room for two nights and stay there, wear a disguise so no one will recognise you and meet me at the train station at 4am sharp, there I will have Black Hayate, my daughter and our belongings packed as well".

"Okay, but only bring what's necessary so it doesn't look like we've run away" said Riza now coming in to the reality of things.

"and when the laws lets us be together Roy then we'll finally be a happy family like we've always dreamed would happen" I whisper to my self as I boarded the train to take me home, a tear rolling down my cheek as I knew I wouldn't see my love for a long long time.

Well what do you think ? i'll update when i can so don't shoot me ^_^ oh and before i forget te amo is also spanish