The Reason I love him: Kurugaya Version!

Author's Note: Contains hints of spoilers, if you never went through the game, you probably won't understand it.

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Original Game: Little Busters Ecstasy

Original Concept: Key

Written by: wrathie

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Ara ara, why are you asking me this?

Why do I love him? The boy?

Must I answer this?

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Onee-san, doesn't want to answer this.

No, no, it would be better for him to scream why he loved me.

Sou, Sou~ Him taking a microphone and telling the entire school that he liked me.

Yes, Onee-san can Imagine that.

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But then, he did that once, did he not?

In the broadcasting room, when we were alone.

When, we were supposed to be alone.

When, we were supposed to have no interruptions.

He said that:

He liked me.

He liked, Kurugaya Yuiko.

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Odd, he already did that.

So… Onee-san, has to tell you, why I love him?

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Oh, what of it?

It might be interesting..

I'm rubbing off those 3 idiots I guess…

I believe I am a robot, a person with no emotions.

A person, who does not feel, who does not know, who is not human.

But he said he liked me.

Weird, which part of me did he like?

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He told me he had no answer.

Silly boy, you can't just fall in love with someone without thinking?

Oh, that's right.

He told me he didn't know either… for some reason, he seems to be saying the truth.

It's odd, he makes me so confused.

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He makes me think about him, make me restless at night.

Makes me does things that is not me.

Who would go out, deep in the night to meet with a person you had clearly rejected?

Who would, indeed?

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I did.

Odd, now that I reflected, if I had not done that, would this have happened?

Then, I made a wish.

Perhaps, I had made the wish a long, long time ago…

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A little wish, that I would know.

That I would experience, that I would know.

Perhaps, more about this thing called: 'Liking someone'

It's odd, it's funny, it's something that I made a wish for.

A wish for the future beyond now.

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That I would know, that I would enjoy, that I can experience…

What it is like to like someone, to love someone.

I'm definitely rubbing off the Little Busters.

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It is their fault, but I do not mind it this way.

They made me realize what is having fun.

What is being bored.

What is happiness and what is sadness all at the same time.

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Ara, ara? Why did I join the Little Busters?

It is to know, whether I am 'human'.

I am human, in the sense that my species is Homo sapiens

My appearance is human, my body is human.

Onee-chan is inviting you to look~

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Oh my, no need to get embarrassed.

I can do everything, anything that I wished to.

But I cannot, be human.

I saw the Little Busters, they seemed to be having fun.

And so, I was jealous. Perhaps a little, perhaps very much so…

I do not know.

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Yes, I wish to experience all those again.

Even if it hurts me, even if it is ridiculous.

Even if it is not the most effective way.

So be it, let me be with him and them.

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With Riki-kun, I know there will be many firsts.

I know I can smile to him, to them.
That is what I feel.

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So, I do love him after all?

Ahahaha.

Onee-chan is embarrassed. Can you turn away for a little while?

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So, I do love…

Turn away, NOW!

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So as to why? Such a silly question…

I like Riki and he likes me as well…

That is all…

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That is not enough? Onee-san does not have the mood to talk to you for very long.

I baked cookies for him, yes I did. I wanted to see if he would like it.

After all, it is good for lovers to give gifts to each other.

Like the gift that he gave me…

It was the dumplings with: "Evol" written on it.

On hindsight, perhaps I have not even considered the possibilities for it.

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There is only two ways those words can be spelt:

Vole or Love.

Onee-san is not a vole.

So it must be love..

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Turn away, now. I demand it, or be prepared for punishment!

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Perhaps I was dreaming.

Yes, I was dreaming.

Was, as in, I had been dreaming.

Onee-chan is teaching you something here.

Be serious, or be punished.

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I was dreaming.

A dream, where wishes can come true.

Have you, ever, wished upon a star.

Have you? Have you ever, wished upon a star?

Komari-kun must have done so.

So must have Kudo-kun.

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I too, have wished upon a star.

For a place, where I can fall in love with him.

Where all my wishes can come true.

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I had not known I was dreaming.

No, I had not know.

All I remember, was that, I loved him.

And he loved me.

But it was like sand.

Slipping away through my fingers.

Memories, dreams, hopes, realities.

Everything, just disappearing after one wakes up.

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It is useless to fight.

It is useless to resist.

After all, if it is inevitable, why resist when the most effective way to end it, is to let it happen?

But I did not give in.

I did not lose, I fought, I resisted.

I, stupid and foolish girl that I am,

risked it all. Everything, everything I had.

I risked his trust in me.

His faith in me.

His love in me.

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Everything I had, just to hold on to one…

Single… memory of him.

Of me and him.

Of the fact that I loved him.

Of the fact that he, loved me.

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Of the fact that, we were happy.

Of the fact that, I, was once happy.

I, was once in love.

I, had smiled to him.

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Meaningless struggles.

Meaningless fights.

Scribbling the facts that I had learned.

Everything I had, to just… remember. To just, stay steadfast…

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But it had to give, somewhere.

This meaningless, fantasy of mine.

Slipping through my fingers… Disappearing into the abyss, to the void.

Even if he wanted it to be there.

Even if he remembered..

Even if.. all these never happened.

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Onee-chan, wishes you to leave.

Just.. for a small moment.

Please.

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Perhaps it is better not to know.

Perhaps I was wrong.

Yes, perhaps, after all.

I was wrong.

I am human, I make mistakes.

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This, is the worst mistake ever.

I did not know it would be so painful.

They call it, bitter sweet.

There s nothing… bitter nor sweet about it.

It is just, agonizingly painful.

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To love someone is wonderful.

To be with someone you love is wonderful.

To… leave someone you love… is… indescribable.

My heart, which I thought was not human, felt it was like being ripped from my chest.

It is so painful.

I did not know it was so painful.

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Perhaps, it is alright, not to learn about it.

Loving, is painful.

But it is so, wonderful.

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I do not know, Onee-chan does not know.

Whether it is right to love

Or to know what is love

Or to know, what it is like, leaving the one you love.

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But there is no endless story,

The world goes on.

Even if it is flawed.

Even if this is flawed reality is the one that I choose.

Yes, I choose to love him.

Even if it hurts

Even if it is meaningless.

I just hope, he felt it…

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Even if he did not.

Even if he can't hear it.

After all, no one… could hear it.

It was only him, only Riki-kun who heard it.

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I, am satisfied.

This small flawed world.

This small, useless and ultimately impossible world.

There is nothing for me to say.

There is nothing that is needed to be said.

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Even if it is just a moment.

Even if it is just a hour, a minute, a second…

I am satisfied.

I know, what it is like to love.

I know, what it is like, to be human.

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So it is alright.

So it is fine.

So… why is Onee-san crying?

Why… why am I crying?

Why am I so upset…

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Because I will forget him?

Because he will forget me?

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So… even if there is nothing left.

Even if there should be nothing.

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I know…

I will…

I must…

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Never forget that.

I, once, loved a person.

His name is:

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Naoe Riki.

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Author's Notes: I believe there should be another ending for her, but for now, here you go.

A character that has more inside her, that is Kurugaya...

Even if it is she, deserves an eternity in this world.