A/N::
My Name Is not Stephenie Meyer,
So obviously I don't own Twilight.
Unfortunately.

*PICKING UP THE PIECES*

Bella POV

"Ella!" I called

Silence

"Ell!"

"Edella Renee!" I yelled having to use her full name.

"Comingggg." my little girl called as she ran down the stairs, her copper pigtails following behind her.

"Did you not hear me calling you young lady?" I scolded

"Yesh, but I wush putting "Mipshy" in hur bed." Ella said trying to enunciate her words.

"Why aren't you bringing Mipsy with you?"

"Cush Uncle Emy twies to chroe her in da pool aldatime." my daughter sighed.

"Well you tell Uncle Em to leave your Mipsy doll alone or he'll have to deal with me. Okay?"

She nodded.

"Ok baby, Go grab Mipsy and head back down. Quickly. Grandma Esme will be here any minute to pick you up."

My daughter smiled that crooked smile and pranced up the stairs to grab her baby doll.

Not a second later the door bell rang. I sighed and walked to the door.

"Hi Esme," I smiled. "How are you doing?"

"Good honey, and you?" she asked as she enveloped me in a hug. "Where is that granddaughter of mine?"

"She's grabbing Mipsy and then she should be down. Esme do me a favor and don't let Emmett tease her about throwing Mipsy in the pool. I think it's starting to bother Ella." I said as my pretty little girl skipped down the steps.

"Gamma Eshme!" Ella Squealed.

"Edella, My Love!" Esme laughed as she grabbed my baby up in her arms and twirled her around. "Are you ready to spend the weekend with Grandpa Carlisle and me?"

"Yesh, I mish Gampa Carwile." Ella giggled as Esme kissed her cheek.

"Ok say goodbye to mommy and we'll go see grandpa Carlisle." Esme laughed.

"Bye Mommy, I wuv you." Ella sang as I bent down and she pecked my lips.

"Bye baby, Mommy will pick you up Sunday afternoon, Ok?" she nodded. " I love you" I smiled as I hugged her tightly.

I saw Esme and my baby out to her car and watched her buckle her into her child seat and drive off.

I hated this time every other weekend. The two weekends out of the month that I had to send my baby off to visit her grandparents. The sad part was my little three year old loved it. She didn't understand the concept of the visit. She just thought it was fun time with her Uncle Em and Grandma and Grandpa Cullen.

I knew better, it was all stated to me on the court ordered papers. My ex husband was off in Minnesota for "work" for the past year and a half. He signed his rights over to his parents for the time being until he finished his two years of practice at the insurance company in Minnesota his friend Eric had offered too him. He told me it would only be for two years and not to get used to not seeing him because he'd be back to claim his child again.

Esme and Carlisle picked up the unpaid child support and with doing that they gained Edward's visitation of every other weekend. Don't get me wrong, I love Esme and Carlisle, they had been a big part of my life the past 7 years but I hated having to see my baby leave with them every other weekend. Esme knew it, and I knew she understood my feelings but she also wanted time with her granddaughter. Just because her son was a dickwad didn't mean I had the right to take my hatred out on my child's family.

I grabbed a glass of wine and laid back on my sofa. I listened to the silence of my home and hated it. My boyfriend Jacob was at work and my princess was at her grandparents and I was home alone and bored. I felt my eyes begin to water and I tried to close them & will the tears away.

Damn him.

Damn him for taking the easy way out these past years.

Damn him for making me love him unconditionally and him breaking my heart.

I hated him.

So much.

I hated him because as much as he did the shitty things he did I couldn't get over him. And I wanted to, I needed to, but I couldn't. He still owned my heart without even knowing it. He was doing god knows what, or who and yet I still couldn't let go of him.

I had a wonderful man willing to be a part of my life and my child's life and I still turned him away. Jacob and I had been dating for the past 9months. He had met my daughter only a hand full of times because I didn't want her meeting men and trying to name them "daddy" and as she got older I didn't want her trying to place anyone in that position. As messed up as her daddy was he was still her daddy.

In those few times though Jacob had fell in love with my little silly girl and I couldn't blame him. She was smart and funny and so easy to love. She had her daddies copper hair with my long waves and a mixture of our eyes, some day's they were dark brown like mine, and some days a piercing green like Edward's and some days they combined into a beautiful hazel. She had my pouty lips with Edwards little nose and Edwards big hands and his bony feet with my little toes. She was the perfect in between of Edward and I. Everything about my little princess was equally divided, even her name.

Her name that I came up with 2 weeks before she was born to us. The name that I couldn't even fully use now. I hated that name. I wish I put nothing of his to her. I was 19 and hopelessly in love but still. I wish she would have my last name and I wish I would have the balls to cut the Cullen out of my own name but I couldn't. My excuse to everyone was 'If she gets sick & I have to take her to the hospital I don't want the difficulty of having to explain our different last names. So it's better this way'. Stupid excuse I know, but it was my last tie to him, to them. Isabella Marie Swan - Cullen was a demented woman who couldn't even suck it up and drop the Cullen. I hated myself for it.

I knew it bothered Jake but he would never admit it. Deep down I know he knows I still have feelings for Edward. I wouldn't even let him spend the night at my house. I blamed it on Ella, saying I didn't want her waking in the middle of the night and to be scared seeing Jacob there. Truth was I didn't want anyone in the spot where I shared with my husband. The only people I would let in this bed was Ella or Edward. My bed was sacred. Hell in the 9months I've been with Jake we've only slept together twice. I couldn't bring myself to do it with him again after Ella asked if I was going to marry him and make him her daddy. I wouldn't let him touch me let alone have sex with me.

I was one messed up human being, I was tempted to call up my little girl and beg her to come home and keep mommy company. How crazy am I, but hell I missed her.

I heard my phone chirp beside me and a reached over to grab it. It was a picture of my baby with her Auntie Alice sticking out their bright blue tongues to me with a caption below it.

Bells -

Drinking your favorite blue slurpees & wishing you were here to share.

Care to come over for a girl's night?

-Ali

I couldn't help the small whimper that escaped me. Alice my old best friend. We were inseparable back in high school. I met her my freshman year and we became the best of friends. She was fun and loud and silly and just a breath of fresh air, like she never had a care in the world.

She introduced me to her older brother Edward, who was a year older then me and her other older brother Emmett who was two years older then me. Emmett and I became fast friends but Edward was the brother I shied away from because I was so attracted to him. We ended up having Home Ec the next year together and he couldn't cook to save his life so I partnered up with him because I had a knack for cooking. That started our relationship, I was sixteen and he was seventeen. We were together all the time. I went on vacation with him and his family and he would sneak up into my room in the middle of the night.

Edward was my first real kiss, my first love, We lost our virginity to each other the summer before my junior year. I was head over heels for Edward and I loved the Cullen's like they were my family.

Rumors started to circle my senior year that Edward was seeing someone behind my back and that's when problems began to surface. He was away in Seattle, only 3 hrs from me and we'd see each other every weekend but still I was a naïve girl and began to believe them. We started fighting more, crude words passed back and forth. We split for a few months and I found out he was seeing other girls. I ended up attending the university in Seattle also and we ended up getting back together. He promised he didn't sleep with anyone else, just dated around.

I later found out he lied and had slept with one other girl, her name was Jessica. I was livid and stopped talking to him for 2 months until I found out I was pregnant. I remember calling Alice up and telling her first, she cried with me and told me she was happy she was gaining a niece but sad about the circumstances. I then called Edward and asked him to come over. He was a jerk and told me he was busy with his girlfriend.

I remember being so angry and sobbing over the phone. I just ended up blurting out 'I'm pregnant and you're the dad' and then hung up. He came over to my dorm ten minutes later and told me he was so sorry and didn't mean to be a prick and that he loved me and wanted to be in my life. We ended up working things out again and told his parents about the pregnancy. They were excited for us. It was my parents who weren't happy. They were excited about getting a grandchild but just wished I was older.

Edward ended up asking me to marry him and I agreed. We got married 3 months later at his parents house in their garden. A small wedding that consisted of 30 people. I moved into the Cullen house and Edward and I dropped out of the university and signed up for online classes while Edward got a part time job. When Edward and I were good, we were good. But when we were bad, we were bad. I remember countless fights over the smallest most petty things.

His ex girlfriend came around starting trouble at his job. He disappeared one night after work without a phone call or anything and then showed up the next morning apologizing, saying he got drunk at a friends. I looked for him all night thinking something had happened. I ended up stressing myself out and then lost consciousness and was hospitalized.

I almost lost Ella.

I packed my bags up and left my husband to move back in with my parents. I was not risking losing my baby. Esme came by to see me every week and asked to throw me a baby shower. I agreed and went over to the Cullen house. After the shower Edward showed up and begged me to talk to him. I was now 7months pregnant. I agreed and we worked our issues out and he came to live with me at my house for the time being. Charlie said I couldn't leave until the baby was born so 'he could keep an eye on me and his gun on Edward.' I loved him for being so protective.

They induced me a week after my due date and I gave birth to my precious Edella Renee Cullen on Oct. 5th, 2006. I moved back in with the Cullen's when I was released from the hospital.

Things were great at first, but only 2 hrs of sleep for 4months straight from a colicky little baby leaves no person happy. Edward and I began bumping heads once again and after our final blow out which involved our families fighting and Edward and my father physically having it out I threw in the towel.

I moved myself and my baby back into my parents house, filed for divorce 3 months later. Edward and I fought for primary parents and I won. He would get her every other weekend until she was seven. Then he would get her every other week. I dreaded her seventh birthday. Edward announced his leaving when Ella was almost two. My hatred for him grew but for some reason the hatred never over powers the love.

Alice and my relationship was strained after the split. Whenever we would meet we'd end up butting heads about how miserable Edward was or how this separation was silly. We stopped talking after a while and cut all ties.

We recently just started talking again, she's dating one of my fellow co-workers at the law office I work at. I'm a paralegal there, after the split I was determined to become a paralegal and I did it. I just graduated from school 3 months ago and am working at "Whitlock & Associates". Alice is Dating Dmitri Whitlock's son Jasper, one of my good friends. Alice and I were finally getting back to how we used to be.

My phone chirped bringing me out of my stroll down memory lane.

Bells-

Is that a no? =(

-Ali

I sighed completely forgetting she wrote me.

Ali-

Sorry!

Yeah, it's a no.

I'm tired and just gonna cuddle up and watch a movie.

Kiss my baby for me.

Xoxo night!

-Bells

I sighed contently as I popped in 'The Ugly Truth'.

My life is far from perfect but at least I'm here taking care of my responsibilities and able to put a roof over my babies head. It may be a rented roof but at least I can say I put it there. She was happy and I was happy seeing her happy. No matter my feelings for Edward, I would never let him in again to break down what has taken so long for me to build up. We were better then that.

Saturday flew by with a lunch date with my friend Angela, sending an e-mail to my legal assistant about our trial on Monday and then a late dinner with Jacob at his house. He begged me to stay over but I declined saying I had to be up early to get Ella. He pouted saying that I was 23 and should be able to spend the night without worrying about getting in trouble from my daughter. I told him to back off and he apologized before I left for the evening.

Here I was getting ready to go pick up my baby girl. I really missed her. I hopped out of the shower and let my hair dry wavy as I threw on a white wife beater and a pair of skinny jeans along with a pair of white flats.

I hopped into my pearl white Jeep Liberty and tossed on my aviators as I headed towards the Cullen's house. I turned onto their long passageway about 10 minutes later. I hated this drive, it brought back so many memories. Good and bad.

I pulled up to the house finally and hopped out. Emmett's girlfriend Rosalie's car was here. Great. She hated me for some ungodly reason.

I pushed my glasses up on my head and rang the doorbell.

The door flew open and my feet were dangling off the floor.

"Bells!" Emmett boomed. "It's been too long. You look good. How've you been."

"Emmett, you saw me a month ago, it really hasn't been that long. I'm fine, good. Thanks you look good two. Where's my monk?" I asked.

"Mommy!" Ella squealed as she came into the room.

"Hi babes!" I said as I scooped her up into my arms. "I missed you oh so much!" I sighed as I peppered kisses all over her face.

"I mished you two Bewa."

"Ella, what did I say about calling me that? I'm mommy not Bella."

"But Gamma and Gampa caw you Bewa" she said as her eyes began to tear up.

"Yes, but I'm your mommy, that's a much more special name to call me then Bella." I smiled as I kissed her forehead.

"Okay, Mommy Bewa." she smiled.

I couldn't help but chuckle. She was too cute for her own good sometimes. We said goodbye to the Cullen's and headed home. I sat Ella in her booster while I fixed dinner.

"So did you have fun and Grandma and Grandpa Cullen's house?" I asked

"Yesh, I went shimming in da pool, and uncle Emy and Wose took me to da pawk. And gamma made me cookies and gampa colowed wit me and I tawked to daddy on da phone."

"You talked to daddy on the phone?" I asked curiously.

"yaw."

"And what did he say?"

"Um dat he wuvs me and mishes me and dat he's going to see me vewy soon."

"Oh that's good." I said trying to keep my anger at bay.

Why would he tell her he's going to see her soon when he is still going to be in Minnesota for another 4 months.

We ate dinner together and watched tv and I tucked my princess into bed.

I awoke the next morning with hot breath being blown in my ear and a foot going up my ass. I rolled over and looked at my baby with her mouth open hair all over and sprawled out all over my queen sized bed. I couldn't help my giggle she was just so cute, even when she did sneak into bed with me.

I quickly showered and brushed my teeth and then dresses in a black pencil skirt and red button up with a red skinny belt and red and black pumps and threw my hair up in a messy bun. I applied light make-up and headed to Ella's room. I grabbed her jean shorts and Hannah Montana shirt and sneakers and headed back to my room.

I woke my princess troll up and she grumpily sauntered into my bathroom to brush her teeth. I dress her quickly and threw her hair up into a bun. We ran down stairs and both ate a bowl of cereal. We left the house at 8:45. I dropped Ella off at her daycare and arrived at work at 9:03.

Great, today's already starting out wonderfully.

I headed to my office and began filing and sending e-mails.

My work phone rang in.

"Ms. Cullen?" my new assistant Kate buzzed in.

"Kate, you can call me Bella." I laughed awkwardly. I didn't want her to call me Ms. Cullen.

"Right, Bella, um your husband is on line 2," Kate said quietly.

My husband, huh? "Kate you must be mistaken, I'm not married."

"Oh well he said his name was Mr. Cullen. I just assumed." Kate trailed off.

"Oh must me my daughters grandfather." I thought out loud and then began to panic. Was Ella in the hospital, was something wrong. Why else would Carlisle call. I quickly picked up line 2.

"Carlisle?" I asked breathlessly.

"Uh, Nope." the velvety voice said on the other line. "Where you expecting him?"

"Oh, Edward." I said annoyed. "No, my assistant said Mr. Cullen was on the line. I just assumed."

"Yea, well you know what they say, you shouldn't assume." he chuckled.

"What do you want Edward, I'm at work."

"I just wanted to call and talk to you about some things. Mrs. Cullen." he snapped.

"I am not Mrs. Cullen!" I said pointedly.

"That's not what your assistant said. Why are you still going by my last name, we're divorced remember. Like you wanted?"

"Edward, until you sign your rights over to me and let me change Ella's name to Swan, I will be Swan - Cullen, with or without your consent." I said angrily.

"Why do you do that?" he asked aggravated.

"Do what?" I spat.

"Cut me out of everything! You want to take her last name from me, my rights, and you even cut my name out of hers. Her name is Edella not Ella. Get it right Swan."

"Fuck You Edward.! You cut yourself out of it when you left me and your daughter behind to work in Minnesota. So you can just go fuck yourself.!" I yelled as I hung up the phone.

"Kate, please do not pass through anymore phone calls today from Edward Cullen. Screen first name first. Thank you." I said as I rang Kate.

"Yes, Ms. Bella. I will do that."

I heard a knock at my door and turned quickly around, it was Jasper.

"All ok?" he smiled.

"I'm sorry, Edward called and got me worked up." I shrugged.

"Baby papa drama" Jasper chuckled.

"Shut up" I laughed

"Aw, I'm just kidding Bells. Want to catch lunch with me and Alice?" Jasper asked,

"No, you guys go on ahead, I got to finish papers for the trial at 2."

He nodded and headed out.

Work went by smoothly after Edwards call and the day in court settled quickly also.

I picked up Ella from daycare and headed to the only diner in Forks to eat with my mother and father.

"PawPaw you gotta stay inside da wines." Ella corrected her grandfathers coloring.

"Oh, I'm sorry Elle's I can't do it as good as yours." he chuckled.

"You gotta pwactish right mommy?" Ella asked me.

"That's right Papa, you got to practice." I smiled to my dad.

"So he just called you and started fighting?" my mother asked me.

"Yea, I think he get's a rise out of it. Just to hear me stick Edward and the F word in the same sentence gets him excited." I sighed.

"What a prick." my mom whispered. "I hope he stays where he is, you girls are better without him."

I nodded my head.

We left dinner and parted ways.

I tucked my girl into bed and quickly called Jacob before I joined her in Lala land.

The rest of the week went quickly and soon it was the weekend.

We spent Saturday at the beach in La push with Jake and his family. Sunday Ella and I went to the zoo and watched a late movie.

The rest of the week flew by in the same fashion. Daycare, court, office, lunch, office, daycare, home. It all melted into one long day. And this weekend I wouldn't have me baby. I was sad to be without her again. We headed home Friday and spent time talking waiting for Esme to come pick Ella up again. I headed to the kitchen to pack her up a few snacks for Esme's house.

The doorbell rang and I heard Ella running to answer it. I walked towards the door to greet Esme but my babies greeting stopped my heart before I met the person at the door.

"Hewo Edwurd" Ella greeted.

Why?

Why now? Why is he here?

After not coming home for almost 2 years simple calls here and there why is he here and how did my baby know who he was so quickly. Could she really remember him from two years ago?

I walked toward them and protectively wrapped my arms across my babies chest.

"Bella" he greeted as he nodded his head.

"What are you doing here Edward?" I seethed

"I'm here to pick up Edella." he smiled.

"No, you're not taking her." I said as I grabbed Ella's hand and lead her back inside the living room.

"She is my daughter, Isabella." he said as he followed me into the house.

"Yes, but you signed her rights over to your mother." I said matter factly.

"Isabella, really you're going to keep her from me?" he asked hurt.

"She may go with your mother, not you." I said avoiding his question.

"Fine, we'll be back to pick her up later. This isn't the end though Isabella. She is my daughter and I'm back for good. So when I get my rights back don't think you'll be able to keep her from me. She is as rightfully mine as she is yours." he said as he walked towards the door. "Just remember that." he said as he looked down to Ella. "I'll be back later with Nana Esme okay Edella?"

"Okay Edwurd." Ella smiled.

"Call me daddy." Edward corrected.

"You haven't been around for 2 years and you expect her to just pick up the label?" I asked pissed off.

He ignored me and looked back at Edella, "Call me daddy?" he asked.

"Mommy says Mommy and Daddy are speshaw names and you have to earn dem." Ella smiled.

I felt the side of my lip twist up as Edward sighed and ran his hands roughly threw his hair. He knelt down to Ella and enveloped her in a hug. "Ok I will earn the name daddy, I promise." he said as he placed a kiss on her cheek. "Love you, see you later." he said as he walked out the door.

I knew I loved my little girl for a reason. Hopefully 'Edwurd' would NOT be returning tonight.

Un welcomed ass hole.

That I love so much.

Damnit.

A/N:

So I'm in the middle of two stories right now but trust me neither will be neglected.

I will update for both once a week.

Leave me REVIEWS so I know I'm doing ok.

So I can get the "oomph" to continue working my brain.

Ella & I will WUV you!