I WILL FOLLOW HIM

This story is dedicated to my friend, Leanne, for being my inspiration. Happy Birthday, Leanne. *smile*

SUMMARY: Clark and Lex begin a passionate affair - but as soon as it's begun, an unexpected event occurs that changes their relationship forever...

SPOILERS: This story mainly takes place in Season 5. Everything from the end of the episode Mortal and beyond is an AU - although some events that originally occurred in Season 5 may still happen. There are events from prior seasons that might be referenced as well. But that's my secret.

DISCLAIMER: I'm writing this story because the idea just wouldn't leave me alone until I wrote it. So this will be my one and only Clex story. I also want to say that I'll understand if this isn't your type of story. It's not everybody's cup of tea.

Up to now, I've written strictly Clois. I don't know why, but there's something about Clark and Lex being together in a romantic sense that just fascinates me. So there will be a LOT of passionate encounters at first. Then...well...that's another secret. You'll just have to keep reading to find out.

I'm also not sure how well I'll be able to write Lex because I've never written him before, but I'll try. So enough of my rambling. Here is Chapter 1 of I will follow him.

CHAPTER 1

Luthor mansion - early evening

Clark storms into Lex's office unannounced and promptly walks up to Lex. Before Lex could say anything, Clark reaches out and punches him in the face.

"What the hell?" automatically responding with a punch of his own.

"You sent a meteor freak after me. You were testing me and you put my family in danger," Clark yells at him after he punches him again.

"You forgot to mention your girlfriend," Lex retorts; holding his hand to his face.

"I consider her part of my family," glaring at Lex and wiping some of the blood from his cut lip.

Lex is startled to see the spot of blood that's still on Clark's lip. I guess I was wrong about him being invulnerable. Out loud he says, "I would never deliberately put your family in danger," resting his hand on Clark's shoulder. "I admit to having a curious nature, but I would never..."

Clark throws off Lex's hand. "I don't buy that 'curious nature' crap for a minute," his fists clenching. "You've been trying to find out my so-called 'secret' for a long time now," still glaring at him.

"Everybody has secrets that they keep hidden from the world - especially from the ones they care most about," Lex replies.

"If all you are is curious, then why on earth would you go through all the trouble?" he asks him. "Why are you so fascinated by me anyway? What makes me so special?"

"Because..." he starts to reply.

"Because...what?" Clark interrupting him; his hands resting on his hips.

"Because I'm attracted to you," he blurts out. I can't believe I just told him that.

Clark stares at Lex in shock. Did he just say what I thought he said? "You're...WHAT?" his eyes widening.

"You heard what I said," coming up to Clark. "I've been attracted to you ever since the day you gave me mouth-to-mouth resuscitation and saved my life," cupping his face before kissing him full on the lips.

Clark is startled by Lex's words - then his bold move, but finds himself responding to the kiss in a way he didn't expect.

Wow!

His eyes close as he instinctively grabs Lex by the waist and pulls him flush against him; their groins pressing up against each others. Double wow! losing his train of thought for a moment as Lex's hands move from his face to link up behind his neck; their tongues caressing each others as the kiss deepens.

"I want you so much," Lex murmurs; his hands now moving from Clark's neck to cup his ass.

"I want you too," the words slipping out of Clark's mouth when Lex's lips move down to his neck and begins to plant soft kisses down to the base of his throat.

I can't believe I'm being kissed by a man. And not just any man. It's Lex of all people.

His eyes pop open; widening at the realization. He lets go of Lex's waist and stares at him in shock, then starts backing away; rushing over to the office doors and flinging them open, then running away.

Lex just stares at Clark's retreating form; a wistful look on his face. Why on earth did I tell him I was attracted to him? It just scared him off.

He touches his hand to his lips. On the other hand, he did say he wanted me too. He returns to his desk and sits down. He's a wonderful kisser, leaning back in his chair. I'm a patient man, he continues to think to himself. When he's ready to admit to his feelings, I will be more than happy to return the favor, a smile appearing on his face at last.

Clark Kent WILL be mine.

Clark gets back in his truck and starts the engine; flooring the accelerator and taking off down the road as fast as he could without breaking the speed limit . He arrives at the farm and parks the truck in the driveway; getting out and making his way to the loft - or what his father likes to call his 'Fortress of Solitude.' He walks over to his desk and sits down; leaning back in his chair.

I can't believe Lex kissed me. He actually kissed me.

He gets up from his chair and starts pacing back and forth. He touches his lips with his finger and remembers how passionate the kiss was.

I've never been kissed like that before; smiling to himself. It felt so right to kiss him. He stops in his tracks at that last thought. No, Kent, he tells himself. You're supposed to be in love with Lana. It's Lana you want to be with.

He makes a decision, then goes back to his truck and starts the engine again. But this time he has a different destination in mind. He arrives at the Talon a short time later and parks the truck in front. He gets out and enters the building; quickly climbing the steps to Lana's apartment.

"Lana? It's me, Clark," knocking on the door.

He hears her footsteps coming closer, then they stop; the door opening. She starts to smile at him, but notices the weird expression on his face.

"Clark? Is everything okay?" lightly touching his face. "You're hurt," she says.

"I've been better," coming into the apartment and sitting down on the couch.

"I'll get some ice," going to the freezer and pulling out an ice cube tray. She grabs a washcloth and wraps the ice in it, then walks over to Clark and kneels down in front of him; gently resting it on his face.

"What happened?" she asks him; continuing to hold it to his face.

"I...um...don't really want to talk about it right now," he replies; not looking at her at first. Then he looks up and takes the cloth away from her. "Lana?"

"Yes, Clark?" a concerned look on her face.

He stands up and lifts her off her knees; pulling her into his arms. "I need to be with you," pulling her shirt off and tossing it away. He scoops her into his arms and lays her down on the carpet in front of the fireplace; laying on top of her. He quickly undresses them both, then begins to make love to her.

"Oh, Clark," she cries out as he promptly penetrates her; thrusting hard inside her like a man possessed.

Why can't I look her in the eye? he wonders as he's making love to her.

What's wrong with me? So he finally opens his eyes and looks into hers. But when he does, he's startled to see Lex's face staring back at him. That's the moment when he finally has his orgasm and releases himself into her.

He gives himself a mental shake and the image of Lex's face disappears. He rests his head on Lana's shoulder; not thinking about the fact that he just made love for the first time.

I wish it were Lex laying here beneath me instead of Lana. As soon as that thought pops into his head, he suddenly panics and gets off Lana.

"What's wrong, Clark?" looking up at him with confusion in her eyes.

"I have to go," quickly getting dressed.

"But we just..." getting up and grabbing her shirt.

"I'm so sorry," quickly kissing her on the cheek, then running out of the apartment. He doesn't stop running until he reaches his truck; quickly starting it up and taking off down the street.

He returns to the farm and promptly goes up to his bedroom; locking the door behind him. He lays down on his bed with a sigh; briefly closing his eyes and thinking about what just happened with Lana.

Why did that happen? Why was I thinking about Lex while making love to Lana? Why can't I stop thinking about the kiss? What does this all mean? Does it mean that I'm gay?

He continues to lay there as he finally admits to the possibility of it. I've always felt different, but I thought it was because I was from another planet. I guess the question now is what do I do about it? If I am gay, should I come out to everybody or is it yet another secret I have to keep to myself?

He sits up; bending his knees and wrapping his arms around them. I am just so tired of keeping secrets. Then he gets up from the bed and strips down to his tee-shirt and boxers. I'll just sleep on it; going back to bed and pulling the top sheet over himself...