Title: Look at Me
Author: M14Mouse
Achive: Yes (at my site: M14Mouse's Secret Place)
Pairing: 1+2
Disclaimer: I don't own them.

Heero's PoV.

My fingers ran across the keyboard. But my mind isn't on the computer. It was on HIM! That annoying, loud-mouth baka. I don't know why my thoughts always came to him? He distracted me. He confused me. He talked too much. He ate too much. He crowded my
thoughts too much. Why can't I get you out my head? I slammed my fist down on the desk causing my labtop to shake. I can't any work done as long as I have you on my mind. I grabbed my gym stuff. I needed to clear my thoughts.

[[Look at me.
In the eyes]]

I put my gym clothes. Slowly, I walked up to punching bag. My punches made contact with the bag. They were perfect because I am perfect soldier. But when it came to you, I am lost. Why? Why are you doing this to me? I am supposed to be the perfect soldier. No
emotions. No heart.

[[Tell me the truth
No more lies.
No more sorrows
No more pain]]

My punches became unsteady and full of angry. I hate you. I hate you for making me fee this wayl. Why can you leave me be? I hate you. Yet, I love you. You cracked through my mask. Tears rolled down my cheeks. But you can't love me. Because I am dead thing. And you are full with such life. I love you. And yet, I hate you.

[[Look at me
I am nothing.
I am a shadow.
I am a dead thing that walks this earth.
I am no more than a mirror
A mask
Of my true self]]

I fell to floor. My tears and my blood. I hate you. You made me feel for the first time in my life. I hate you. I want. I don't know what I want anymore.

[[Look at me
I want to be free.
I want to get rid these bonds.
I am lost
Never to be found.
I am trapped.
Forever.]]

Then a familiar voice come from behind me. "Heero?"

Author's Notes: This is my first gundam wing fic. This is my first shounen-ai fic. So, I am going to try my best. The poem "Look at Me" belongs to me. Read and Review if you wish.