Hello everyone but today i had a few hours to spare and all i could think was that i wanted to update at least one of my stories - so here it is! there wont be another update till next week as i am going away AGAIN to a festival this weekend and wont be back at my lap top until tuesday, but now the ideas are flowing again i hope it wont be long before updates are posted regurly again.# a massive thank you for stickign with me during the haitus of this story, i hope you are still interested in reading and want to hear more from merder. please read, comment, review... you know i love it if you do. sorry from the bottom of my heart again i hope this makes up for the wait xxxx
I am so so sory for the length of time you have had to wait for an update, my holiday lft me in holiday mode far too long and it was hard to get back to write and my mind was blank!
then i had some bad news regarding a family member (that has since got a little bit positive again thank god!) that i literally had no time to write!
Ch 73 not as cute as ours
Derek hadn't seen his girlfriend for nearly 48 hours and it was driving him insane! Well technically he had seen her running with gurneys into the OR, or studying scans in the corridor, or shouting orders to her interns in the ER but he hadn't seen her, seen her! He hadn't held her, touched her, smelt her, breathed her in…kissed her and he felt pathetic to admit that he missed her!
After the last week together he hadn't thought it possible to fall any more in love with the women he intended to marry, but he had, everyday in fact that love just got bigger! Since they had landed nearly 2 days ago the hospital had owned them, and somehow had them seem invisible to one another. Derek had completed back to back surgeries to make up for those that he had had to postpone the week before and then there had been the continuous stream of 911 calls arriving in the ER that he had been paged to. Meredith had been in the hospital the same amount of time but was Nelson's resident and every time he had paged her she had been in surgery or on her way there and now as he headed back towards his office he was feeling slightly frustrated that now she was not returning his messages at all, where was she? He looked at his wrist and watched as the hands gently fall in place to make it 7am, and his shoulders shrugged as he knew his day would have to begin all over again in a few short hours!
As he neared his office he stared at the door, confused to see it open a jar, knowing fine well he never left it that way. He hurried a little, closing the gap between himself and his office and pushed the door wide, a smile spreading across his face when his eyes rested upon a sleeping Meredith on his couch, she was laid out on her stomach, her head resting precariously on one of his over sized cushions and her converse were kicked off to the side, her pager and phone sat on the table vibrating, but her tiny body so exhausted that she failed to wake to respond to them.
He stood for a moment and took in the sight before him; he was exhausted, yet was easily double the size of Meredith, so he couldn't even begin to imagine how tired she must have been. He stepped into his office carefully, eager not to wake her, knowing that before long she would be expected on rounds. He bent down and ran his fingers through her hair, gently pressing a soft, delicate kiss to the top of her head, pausing to inhale the beautiful aroma she always carried with her, his senses where flooded with the sweet smell of lavender, and as if by magic his weary body seemed more at ease, his shoulders seemed to instantly relax…she made everything better. He made an effort to stand and leave her sleeping, but as he inched away her hand instantly reached out to his and pulled him back down towards her. Her eyes didn't open but she shifted towards the back of the couch, making room for him as she turned onto her side, freeing up the remainder of the couch for him. He smiled to himself as he lay his body down, his arm snaking underneath her head, and her golden hair falling perfectly across his chest as she snuggled down into him.
'I love you,' he whispered to her as he felt his eye lids close and give in to the exhaustion that had overcome his body.
'I love you too.' she returned as she too allowed her body to rest again…safe in his arms.
'BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP'
Derek woke with a start after what only felt like a few minutes, but as he took in where he was, and how comfortable he was he smiled at the sight of a sleeping Meredith on his chest. He let his eyes focus on his watch and was surprised to see it was now nearing 12. The beeping of one of their pagers brought his attention back to the sound that had woke him in the first place and he felt for Meredith when he realised it was in fact hers that was breaking their silence.
'Mer…Mer.' He whispered to the top of her head, his right arm gently brushing hers as he shook her a little to wake her.
'Mmmmm, don't want to get up, it's warm, it's a cocoon here.' he murmured as Derek laughed a little at the pleading nature to her voice.
'I'm sorry Mer; it's yours, 911 room 4391.'
'Crap, Mr Walters.' She groaned as she climbed over Derek, pressing her lips to his before she slipped to the floor 'ouch!'
'You ok.' He chuckled as he took in the sight of her sitting back up and pulling her converse on to her feet.
'Urgh I think my shoes shrunk, or my feet grew over night or whatever!' she huffed to herself.
'You know I think that's pretty impossible Mer, but if you loosened the laces you might have more…' he didn't get to finish his sentence as Mer launched one of the offending shoes at his head.
'Make yourself useful.' She laughed
'Yes boss.' He smiled 'you sure you are ok?' he whispered as he past back her shoe and watched as she easily slipped it on and began to retie the laces.
'Yeah, but I gotta go, I operated last night on Mr Walters…this cant good…'
'Go, save lives…I love you. Page me if you need me.'
'I love you too.' she called as she hurried off out of the room.
Derek lay back against the couch, a smile across his lips as his hand rested on the top pocket of his lab coat and pulled out the small, black box that was nestled in there.
He gently lifted the lid and stared inside…his future.
'Whoa, what is that?' Mark asked as he barged into his brother's office
'Don't you knock?' Derek groaned as he sat up, the black box open in his hand. 'What do you think it is?'
'It's dangerous; people who carry guns are more likely to fire 'em.'
'Oh I'm ready to fire it, that's not the problem, she's the problem, she spooks easy. I have to fire at the right time, the right way; otherwise she will panic and bolt. She's not ready; do you think she's ready? Mom thinks she's ready!'
'I dunno, she's been through a lot man…you both have, is this she wants? She had it once, you both did.'
'What I had with Addison was never love, not compared to Meredith…and Meredith with William…she wants this, we both agree its forever.'
'I dunno, and more importantly you shouldn't do anything until you do know.'
'For once you talk a lot of sense.'
'I have my moments, where is Meredith anyway? I thought I was about to bust you two up here at it like kid at the prom?'
'And you still chose to barge in?'
'Meredith is hot man, what I wouldn't have done to catch a glimpse of her…'
'Mark!'
'Relax man, I'm just kidding…you know I'm proud of you and what you have done for Meredith, there aren't many people who would have been able to offer the support that you have. I hope it works out for you both, you deserve it.'
'Where you just sincere?'
'I was.'
'Was that your please pick me to be best man speech?'
'Depends.'
'On?'
'If it worked or not!'
'Mark, when Meredith says yes, when ever that may be…then of course you will be my best man, there is no one else on this earth I would want standing next to me on my wedding day.'
'She will say yes you know, but your right you gotta find the right time…don't push her away when you want her forever. One false move and she will be running, you get that?'
'I do, that's why for now I wait…I just need a sign, anything, and I have to wait.'
'Did you to talk to yang?'
'No, should I?'
'I dunno, she's her friend, she picked up the pieces initially before you came along, if anyone knows she might?'
'Hmm, I will have to think about that, she's a chatty one, and she would probably tell Mer knowing her.'
'She might not as well, think about it.'
'I will, thank Mark, this has helped.'
'You're welcome, with all that excitement I've forgotten what I came up here for in the first place, I know it wasn't only to perve on Mer!'
'And he's back…'
'Good luck man.' Mark called as his pager beeped and he headed back to the OR.
'What have we got Dr Grey?' Derek asked as he responded to a page from Meredith in the ER, 'Jen Harmon, 34, 28 weeks pregnant ran over her husband with an SUV, Rob Harmon, 34, damage to his right collar bone, no sign of head trauma at the moment.'
'Can we get a CT for them both please, and make sure we have all the details.' He smiled as he picked up the chart in front of him. 'Can someone page Torres and Sloan down here to come and see to Mr Harmon please?'
'Already done Dr Shepherd.' Meredith replied as she continued to asses Jen alongside her sister Lexie.
'Mer, her BP is 170 over a hundred.' Lexie pointed out.
'Give her 5 of Hydralazine' Meredith responded as she began to follow Derek out of the room.
'Pregnancy and increased hyper tension? Derek asked as he fell into step with Meredith.
'Yeah, I have to get her BP down before it starts affecting the baby.'
'Nice couple, they'll have cute kids.' He stated as they came to a stop a little further down the corridor.
'Yeah, Not as cute as ours. But, cute' Meredith replied as she stood in front of him, trying to read the grin that had appeared on Derek's face. ... 'What?'
'Nothing.' he smiled, grateful that she was unable to hear his heart thumping with excitement.
Meredith wanted kids.
'Dr Shepherd, have you got a minute?' the sound of Cristina's voice brought him back from his day dream a moment as he watched Meredith head off down the corridor before turning to respond.
'My patient in 4387 came in with a chest pains, but is also mentioning numbness and tingling in her feet, I thought you could take a look?'
'Of course I have a few minutes, I wanted to speak to you actually?'
'Me?'
'Yes' he smiled as he reached into his pocket and pulled out the box that held all his love and hope inside.
'It's a ring?' Cristina pointed out as she cast her eyes over the glistening diamond before her.
'It's from my mother…it's from me, it was my mothers, and I'm going to give it to meredith soon so what I'm looking for is an opinion on if she is going to like the ring, or if I should have the setting redone in something more modern.'
'It's really none of my business.'
'It is cristina, because when I ask her she is going to need someone to freak out to, you're her family.'
'It's a beautiful ring; do you think she is ready for this?' Cristina smiled at the man before her, the man who had saved her best friends life
'I do, or I hope very soon yes. Sometimes she manages to surprise me with just how ready I think she might be.' He smiled thinking back to Meredith's earlier casual comment about babies.
'And my opinion on this is really that important to you?'
'It is, you're her family Cristina, and you're her person.'
'You're not actually asking for my permission are you? Like you would her father? Is this where this is going?' she laughed as she saw the look of horror on Derek's face 'oh it was…wasn't it, you want to ask me for my friends hand in marriage!'
'I want to do this properly; I want her to have it all…and more…so…'
'So what?'
'Do I have your permission to propose to your best friend?'
'You do…now do it quick because I can't wait to tell Meredith about this part of the proposal…go…do your thing Mcdreamy!'
'Im waiting…'
'Don't wait long…she loves you, if love isn't enough then I don't know what is…go…'
'You won't tell her about the ring?'
'I don't wanna hear any more about your stupid ring till it's on her finger! Oh, you're not gonna do a big thing are you? Like some big, romantic, McDreamy thing. Cause she'd hate that.'
'Well she built the house of candles...'
'Yeah, for you. She built you a house of candles 'cause you like that sort of thing, she doesn't.'
'Okay, thanks.'
'So keep it light…something that means something to the two of you, you can do that right? Because if you can't I might withdraw my permission!'
'I can do light.'
'She said a thing about babies. Like babies were a totally ordinary idea. She's not afraid, she's ready.' Derek smiled as he saw his best friend leaning on the nurses' station ahead of him.
'When are you gonna do it?' Mark replied, patting his brother's arm as he got closer.
'Do what?' the chief asked as he joined the two men.
'Shepherd's proposing.' Mark stated, causing Derek to throw a look of disbelief his way.
'No kidding, outstanding!' the chief laughed as he too embraced Derek, pleased at the news he was hearing for his attending and his resident.
'Yeah. Thanks.'
'How are you gonna do it?' the chief enquired
'I don't know. I just decided.' Derek smiled as all his thoughts began to flood through his head.
How was he going to do it?
Mark was quick to change the subject as he spotted meredith approaching from the right, and after a curious glance from Derek he soon caught on to what his brother was doing as he cleared his throat.
'So what did you use, a twist drill for that?' mark asked.
'Oh no, you don't want a partial propriatal haematoma' Derek laughed, mark too joining in a clearly unrealistic way as Meredith approached.
'Hi.' She motioned towards them, bemused by their actions in the hall.
'Good luck man.' Mark whispered as she walked past.
'Just don't tell anyone else OK? I thought I could trust you.'
'You can trust me.'
'Earth to Meredith? You ok?' Cristina asked as she sat down in the cafeteria with Meredith, her eyes scanning her left hand to see if the ring had made its way to her finger yet, it hadn't…so cristina knew she couldn't be freaking out about that just yet.
'I think I freaked Derek out.' She began as she reached over and took a fry from Cristina's plate. 'Derek is going crazy. This morning I said something about having cute babies and now ever since he's been acting weird and avoiding me and dropping conversations when I walk up. I mean he wants babies, he's always wanted babies.'
' Oh, he wants' babies Mer I'm sure, chatty kids with his perfect hair…no way he wants nothing less than a whole soccer team!.
'Maybe he just doesn't want my babies?' she sighed
'No... That, that's not it,'
'Yeah, because my babies will have Alzheimer's, and suicidal tendencies, and split ends and have to be forced to speak when they are fine, be forced to deal with me as a mother…he doesn't want me to be the mother of his children, it must be that.'
'It's not that Mer, trust me…Mcdreamy has got his name stamped all over your uterus, you should probably start praying for small babies now because you're never gonna be the same again once he starts impregnating you with his sperm!
'I'm gonna ask him…he would if it were me, so I'm just gonna come right out and ask him what the hell is going on.' She announced as she spotted him walk past the window, heading towards the exit.
Derek seemed to spend the rest of the day avoiding the chief, mark and even cristina who all seemed to be popping up to offer him advise in what sort of proposal would be right for Meredith, he had on occasions had to change the subject more than once as she had neared him, and she had given him more than enough funny glances as she had tried to work out why he was being so jumpy when she was around.
Not as cute as ours.
Her words kept ringing thorough his mind…she wanted it all, he just had to make sure he did this right, she deserved the best proposal he could give her, one that was totally her, not cheesy or forced, or anything in-between.
She was unique, and his proposal sure as hell had to be too…which was why he was heading home to the trailer to think, because if it wasn't going to be tonight, it was most definitely going to be soon.
'Hey, um did you eat? Let me change, I'll come with you.' She called after him as she spotted him walking towards the automatic doors 'where you leaving without me?'
'No, no, no, I can't eat. I have to um, work.' he stuttered as she caught him off guard.
'And how do you expect me to get home, you gave me a lift remember?'
'I...I...I'll wait, in my office'
'No forget it, I'll call a cab, it's not too late anyway, you go…work.'
'I really have a lot to do.'
'Okay, listen. You have been acting like a basket case ever since I dropped that stupid little comment about babies. And I'm glad I dropped it, because if you don't want babies, or you don't want babies with me and my crappy DNA... just say so! You don't have to avoid me. You don't have to make up lame excuses about work.
'Meredith, I want your crappy babies.' He smiled, leaning into her, brushing her lips with his own.
'You do? She smiled; her eyes alight with love at his words, all her fears and trepidations disappearing right in front of her.
'All of them.' He whispered, kissing her again, smiling at the look of excitement that had now replaced the earlier one of worry.
'Okay, do you wanna eat?' she smiled, running her fingers through his hair as he stepped back.
'No...I... I... I have to work.' he laughed as he turned and all but ran out of the hospital leaving Meredith bemused, but no longer on edge about her earlier comment.
What was he up to?