Before you read, I'd like to give a bit of context.

I started writing this story in high school, about 6 years prior to me writing this now. It was a different time for me psychologically. A lot of the situations and mental states of these characters really reflects the kind of emotions I was handling at the time.

Over these last 6 years of slowly working on this story, I've changed a lot. What happiness and family and love means to me has changed. I've grown through a lot of hardship, and I like to think I've become a better person by the end of all this.

I am rewriting this story from my new, more stable place in life. But I wanted to preserve this version of my story in its original unedited form here. I know that it's brought a lot of happiness and sadness to a lot of people since I started writing it, people who felt this way, people who are dealing with the kind of things that make them seek out an emotional roller coaster story like this one.

When I started writing this, I got in trouble at school because of the title of my story. Back then, I told my teacher that it was just fiction, and that I wasn't writing anything that actually reflected my experiences, that they should just let me write this little story on my own time for fun. Looking back on it now, though, they had a point. It wasn't the "incest" the story was taking from my life and experiences though. It wasn't the actual events. It was the mental states these characters had that reflected who I was at the time.

Now, if you choose to go through this roller coaster, I can give you some warnings now. There is some uncomfortable stuff in there. Sexual content, depression, suicide, sexual abuse, addiction, it's in there. But what's also in there is a secondary story for anyone who is willing to read. The arc of how I as a writer and a person went from adoring the sexual, feisty angry teen to identifying with a loving father who has been through so much but just wants what is best for the person he loves the most, the only family he has.

The writing style and quality isn't my best. But I believe it deserves to be out there for anyone who needs to read it. Maybe someday when the new version is out, it can help someone too.

-Ridley, aka Kiyux, author.