A/N: Hey what's up CAM fans its me SDR I Know you're all wondering why am I starting a new Cam when Wonderland TV is in the works well I have to start this one because it's in my head and won't go away so hear goes and as you guessed by the title this not a normal iCarly fic and Carly is not her normal good girl self and will do some things you won't believe. But I hope you like it

Disclaimer: I do not own iCarly I only own my Oc's and plot

Carly's POV

I guess it all started for me the night I met Sam's gang. It was about five months after Sam started hanging around less. She'd still do iCarly with me and Freddie but afterwards she'd just grab her book bag and bail. When I'd ask she'd say to hang with her cousin Dab. David Armond Brown or Dab ,or Mon as people called him was Sam's cousin from South Carolina. When Sam first brought him over when he moved here I was a little shocked to see a six foot four black guy walk through my door. Then they explained that he was her cousin by marriage. But despite there being no real blood relation he and Sam where close and acted a lot alike. I mean like exactly one day when they weren't at school Spencer and I came home and found them in the apartment in front of the TV and the fridge empty. To which they said Spencer needed to go shopping. That day I noticed something I'd never seen David and Sam only had on wife beaters and jeans and I saw they both had the same tattoo of a dragon and the number 108 on their arms. When I asked Sam since when does she have a tattoo she just said "Don't worry bout it cupcake," then her and Dave found an excuse to leave. Then Sam started showing up with money. I mean lots of money and new clothes expensive ones at that. she even bought me a few gifts like a diamond bracelet and a new pear phone when I'd ask why she'd say something like "because you're my baby and I want to keep you happy." I wasn't stupid I had known for sometime that Sam was gay and that she had a crush on me. And to be honest I had one on her as well. and I liked knowing she had feelings for me even if she never openly said it Freddie. Freddie that name disgust me now. But if it wasn't for him doing what he did to me that night I would've never met Sam's gang that night and I would've never known how much Sam loved me.

Flash back:

I banged on the door to Sam's apartment that night tears streaming down my face my clothes torn and blood running down my leg. I banged and banged in shock wondering who someone so sweet could do this to me. As I thought about this the door flew open and I found my self staring into the barrel of a 45 caliber desert eagle.

"What fuck!... Oh shit Carly what happened!," David said lowering his gun. I just stood there in a panic before I fell into Dave's arms shaking . David scooped me up and carried me into the apartment. "Sammie, KP, Vega, Shorty, ya'll get out here!," David said as he laid me on the couch.

"Dab what the... Shit Carly! Carly baby what happened!" Sam said as she came out with a gun drawn that looked similar to David's a long with the others her gang. the first one Katie Perritt or KP as she liked to be called. She was an attractive red head she was about five six and had freckles and several tattoos on her knuckles and arms and one on her neck that matched the ones Sam and David had. The next one was Vega who was Puerto Rican and had long shoulder length hair he was shirt less and had tattoos covering most of his arms and one large one on his chest I also notice the 108 tattooed on his hand. The last one was Amanda or as David called her I recognized her as a transfer student from Long Beach and to be honest the only thing I knew about her was she was Asian, Cambodian to be exact and it was obvious she was gay. She along with Dave were the only ones I knew. " Carly talk to me cupcake tell me what happened to you," Sam asked cupping my face with her hands.

" Freddie... he.. he raped me. We were coming from the movies and we cut through the ally by the Groovie Smoothie and he just did it. I told him to stop and I tried to fight him ... but, but." I broke down crying in Sam's arms before I could finish. "I got him off me and I ran all the way here, Sam I just ran. Why Sam why!,"

"Shh its okay baby . Its okay its not you fault," Sam said as she rocked me a few moments. "Don't worry Carly we'll take care of Freddie Dave," Sam said getting up from the couch.

"Yeah cuz I already called Mandy and Taylor we'll scoop them on the way," David said cocking his gun.

"Lets go then," Sam said picking her gun up off the coffee table. I knew something bad was going to happen and knew it wasn't good and I needed answers and fast. With out thinking I grabbed Sam's arm and pulled her too the couch

" What are you gonna do and why do you and David have guns!," I yelled finding my voice

" I'm going to go get the rest of my crew then I'm going to fuck up Freddie. And don't worry about it cupcake," she said. But I grabbed her arm tighter I wanted answers.

"No Sam, why do you and. Dave have guns and what are you going to do. Tell me Sam! Tell me!," I yelled tears in my eyes still trying to make all the things going on make sense.

"Not now cupcake!," Sam said trying to shake me off her. But I held her tight and our eyes locked and I could see the fear and rage in her lovely electric blue eyes.

"Sam just tell please just tell me please," I pleaded. Both wanting to know and not know the answer.

"I'M A GANGSTER CARLY, I SELL DRUGS, CARRY A GUN AND BEAT PEOPLE UP! THERE YOU HAPPY!" Sam yelled. I was shocked at what I heard. Sam had always been a trouble maker and had been picked up a few times by the cops but I never figured her to sell drugs but it all made sense now. The money the tattoo, the times she and Dave came to school beat up. To be honest I would've been dumb not to see it before.

"Sam tell me every thing I need to know it all Sam tell," I said coming out of my shock.

"I'll tell you Carls when I get back ok,'' she said getting up and tucking her gun into the waist band of her pants.

"No Sam! we're talking about this and you're going to explain every thing now!," I said in my demanding voice letting her know I was serious.

" Dab you guys go get Mandy and Tay. Find that bitch Freddie and bring him here you understand! Vega don't shot him I want him here hurt not dead," Sam said like a general commanding her troops.

"Don't worry little cuz Ralph and Mandy will be in the car while me Shorty, KP and Taylor grab him. come on," David said using Vega's first name as he and the others left.

"Sam tell me everything now, " I said. Sam let out a sigh and Explained everything. after her mom went missing a year ago and the cops did little to find her until she came up dead Sam got depressed at how her neighborhood was and how the cops seemed not to care. I remembered those nights after her mom passed for awhile she stayed with us. We had offered to take her in but Sam said she mooched off of us enough. so she got a job working at the auto shop slash tattoo shop Vega's family own and became an emancipated miner while her sister Melanie became a ward of her boarding school. Anyway after awhile Vega's shop got robbed and the cops again really didn't care. Sam had, had enough so She Vega and her next door neighbor KP went out and beat the guys down. And for a while they did it just to police the blocks and when David came from South Carolina he got evolved mainly to watch Sam's back and they brought in Mandy and her girlfriend Taylor a couple of street racers they knew from the shop. and Shorty joined up when she moved here. they all lived on the same block so be came a gang the 108th street dragons or the 108 for short and they made Sam the leader. and they policed the dealers and pimps in there area. but they weren't respected. they'd beat up dealers and tell them not to sell on their street but they'd just come back. Sam then realized that to keep the dealers off her street she'd have to become the compation. So she had Shorty use her connections from Long beach to supply her with high grade marijuana. Sam didn't feel too badly about this because she knew that she wasn't selling a truly addictive drug, and she didn't sell to school aged kids or people with kids. She also explained that David used some of his connections in South Carolina to get bootleg merchandise and like CDs disposable cell phones, DVDs, clothes toys, various electronic devices, and mix tapes from popular southern artist that he knew would sell in Seattle. Vega was the crew's tattoo artist but he also had family in Canada that hooked them up with cheep Meds from across the boarder. That they'd sell at a discount or simply give to people who couldn't afford it in the pharmacy. She further explained that KP's relatives own an army surplus store slash pawn shop that provided them with gun's and bullets she also helped secure a ware house to store all the merchandise that had as Sam put it fell of a trucks. Sam further explained that she knew that dealing was wrong and that she also did a lot of good. As it turn's out she did. Aside from selling low cost meds Sam and her crew taxed the pimps and if they were caught pimping underage girls or didn't pay they got shut down. Easy to say prostitution went down. They also handled the pedophiles and rapist by either beating them half way to death and turning them into the cops or taking them for a ride which meant locking them in a crate and driving them into Canada with no way of getting back and no clothes. And of the money they made they only kept a small percentage of what they didn't use to pay off the suppliers for themselves and I have to admit keeping ten percent of a hundred thousand week wasn't doing to bad. The rest they either gave to the local Baptist and Catholic churches or to local businesses and families that were in need and how the gang was her family. That's why no one ever called the cops or testified against them they did more good than harm . After Sam spent an hour or so explaining everything I still had one question, "Why."

"damn Carly I just told you all this," Sam said getting up from the couch with a frustrated sigh.

"No Sam tell me why after how long we've been friends you didn't tell me about this," I said angry that she kept a secret from me.

"because I love you Carly! I'm in love with you and I didn't want you to turn your back on me because of what I do I need you in my life Carly and I was scared that if you found out you'd freak and.-" She said before I cut her words off with my lips. It was our first kiss I had waited for, for so long. It was so perfect so pure and at that thought I stopped. "Why'd you stop baby." Sam asked.

"Sam I wanted you to say that to me for so long I I feel the same way its just. Look at me Sam I'm dirty I'm trash Sam. look what I let him do to me," I said tears running down my face feeling the Shame of being raped. Having my innocence ripped from me by someone who claimed to love me.

Sam cupped her my face with her hands and dabbed the tears away and said. "Carly listen to me what happened wasn't your fault you her me you're the victim ok. And you're not dirty and you never will be. She then kissed me and said, "Go hop in the shower okay cupcake and get cleaned up I'll have some clothes for you get out okay," she then kissed me again and I went to the shower.

After I nearly scrubbed my self raw for an hour I came back into the living room and noticed the others were not back yet and I saw Sam putting her phone away. I sat down beside her and laid my head in her lap and asked, "Who was that on the phone."

"Spence I told him you were crashing here tonight," she said.

"Why," I asked feeling safe and comfortable with her hands combing my hair.

"Because I want to keep you safe tonight. I want to take care of my baby tonight," when she said that I had never felt so loved. then again I needed to know what she truly meant

"Am I your baby Sam. I mean now that every thing in the open and we know I we feel about each other am I really your baby. Like your girlfriend," I asked looking up into her eyes.

" Carly I would like nothing better than to be your girlfriend but I'm a gangster Carly. That means everyday I walk out side I may not come back. I carry that gun for a reason and one day I may need to do something bad with it if it means I see you another day or keeps you safe. I'm not telling you this because I want to scare you. I'm telling you cause its true and you need to know what you're getting into. So if you can handle this Carly then say you're my baby," I paused for a second to think but in my hart I already knew what I was going to say when Sam ever asked this, and despite all I found out that night my answer remained the same.

"Sam I'm your baby," I said looking into those crystal blue eyes. Just as Sam leaned down to kiss me the door flew open and a very badly beaten Freddie fell to the floor on his hands and knees. He was then kicked on to his back by a blonde girl who I'd later find out was Taylor.

"He bit me the little nub ass bitch bit me!," Tay said as she and the others repeatedly kicked and stomped Freddie. "Get this bitch up," Taylor said David proceed to pick him up by his arms while KP Vega Taylor and black haired girl who turned out to be Mandy got a few punches in until Sam said stop.

"What the fuck Dab it took you guys two hours to hours get him here," Sam said walking towards them.

"Hey we had to find his bitch made ass, first," Vega said.

"Yeah Sammie then me Katie, Tay, and Shorty chased him for three blocks. He almost out ran us until Shorty threw that bottle at him," David said

"And just where the fuck is Shorty," Sam asked.

"Getting the create," KP said.

Sam grabbed Freddie's face and said, "So you think just because a girl agrees to go to the movies with you, you can just force yourself on her. Huh you little bitch," before punching him in the jaw so hard I heard a crack.

Then Freddie did something else to shock me he turned and spit in Sam's face and said, " fuck you Sam! and she wanted it." I wanted it. He said I wanted him to through me against the wall I wanted him to take my virginity. He said I wanted it. I felt myself break down tears. Then I heard Freddie's body hit the floor with a loud thud.

"Mandy take Carly in the back she doesn't need to see this shit!," Mandy helped e off the couch then led me to the back room of Sam's apartment and instantly got scared . I had seen her beat up people before so why not now.

"What are you guys going to do him," I asked as I sat on the bed.

" I don't think you wanna know," Mandy said as she left the room. For the next few minutes all I heard was cursing and the sound of furniture and glass breaking. Then I heard it aloud pop followed by Freddie screaming. Without thinking I ran into the living room and froze at what I saw Freddie standing laying on the floor by the kitchen with a bloody knife by him clutching his leg blood seeping through his fingers. Then I saw David with his gun in his hand and I knew what had happened.

"You think you can just stab my little cousin and get away with it," David said stomping on Freddie's leg making him scream. Then what he said donned on me and I saw Sam propped up against the door way to the kitchen clutching her side.

"Oh my God Sam!," I ran over to her and her weight fell on my shoulder and my legs buckled a little. She was losing a lot of blood and could barely stand. "Sam come on baby get stay up,"

"Dave get him out of here," Sam groaned out.

David stomped on his leg one last time and said, "I know where you live bitch and if you come near Carly or go to the cops, next time I won't just aim for your leg," and punched him in the face. "Mandy, Taylor, Vega ya'll take him to Shorty clean his leg up and make sure he doesn't know where he's at. KP get my kit and that bottle of Ever Clear from the kitchen now1 Carly help me get her to the couch." He said as the others picked Freddie up and carried him out and David supported Sam's other side as we carried her to the couch.

"I'm bleeding to death and you want a drink," Sam said as we set her on the couch. I set behind her holding her head in my lap.

" Shut up Sam you know I don't drink. KP get your ass out here," David yelled as he tore open Sam's wife beater revealing a very deep cut as Katie walked in the room carrying a large first aid kit.

"How bad is it Dab," KP asked handing David the small flash light from the med kit

"Yeah Monny boo, how bad did he get me," Sam asked .

"Its bad but he didn't hit an artery. But it did go deep so I'm still going to have to clean it and sow you up. KP you know what do. And Sam I told you not to call me that," David said putting on a pair of rubber gloves. I looked over and saw KP pouring the Ever clear onto a clean towel from the kit and hand it to Dave. Then pour some in a shot glass and hand it to Sam.

"Dave don't you think we should go to the emergency room or something," I asked.

" Can't cupcake. You come to the ER with a knife or a wound they call the cops," Sam said downing the shot.

"Yeah and in or line of work its best to avoid cops. Don't worry Carls I've done this before," David said as he cleaned Sam's wound. Twenty minutes later found Sam stitched up thinks to a very skillful David and her and I on the couch watching TV our position not changed.

" I'm sorry Carly," Sam said breaking the silence in the room

"Sorry? Sorry for what?" I asked.

" For letting you see this part of my life. I mean-" I cut her off putting my finger on her lips.

"Samantha Puckett I love you no matter what. I always have and nothing changes that. this is just something I have to get used to and I can handle it," I said truthfully. I had waited forever to be Sam's girlfriend and now that I was with her nothing would change it.

"Are you sure Carly," Sam asked.

"I'm your baby. And when I said it I meant it," I said as I leaned down to kiss her. with that kiss that I became the girlfriend of a gangster.

End of Flashback

So the next day we told Spencer we were together. and to be honest he wasn't surprised. And he told us Freddie had been mugged and was in the hospitaland we lied and said we 'd visit. Then a few weeks later I was late and found out I was pregnant. I didn't want an abortion so I told Sam and Spencer at the same time. I explained to Spencer that Freddie wasn't mugged and that Sam and David beat him up and I didn't want to go to the cops. I could tell he was mad but he more mad Sam handled it before he could. but he was also happy that Sam cared for me so much. Sam said that she'd take responsibility for the baby and we'd raise it together, and Spencer let me move in with Sam and David. We all agreed that it was best for our child. Then one month in I got sick with a high fever and my asthma flared up and I miscarried. Sam held me in our bed for weeks after that and we both cried. A while later things went back to normal. Sam conducted her business and sometimes I helped out by running to the border with Mandy and Tay, or doing inventory with Dave and KP. Dave even let me help when he patched the crew up oddly enough that's when I asked Sam something that would change our relationship

Flash Back:

"You're getting good at this nurse cupcake," Sam said as I stitched up the small gun shot wound, thankful the bullet only grassed her shoulder.

"Yeah your just lucky that jerk had sucky aim, and besides I think you just want a new tattoo," I said making light of the situation. Really at that point although hoped Sam and the others came home hurt I had gotten used to them coming home busted up and having to be David's nurse. Sometimes I'd carry Dave's kit to a couple of parties and street races Incase a fight broke out.

"Hey you know I like my ink," Sam said as I finished her stitches.

" Yeah and they're quite sexy," I said pulling Sam into a kiss. Holding it until I needed a breath. "Speaking of tats you think you can have Vega give me one," I asked moving onto Sam's lap.

"Sure what do you want," She asked.

I knew what I wanted, and I think I knew Sam knew too. "I want the same one you guys have. And before you say no hear me out. I'm pretty much in away married to you. I've done border runs helped organize street races. I'm pretty much in the gang already, And I don't have to sell weed I can help Dave move the Bootleg stuff and I can do what I do now be his nurse. all you need to do is say yes baby. So Say yes ok," I said Sam paused for a second and asked why. And I said, "Because the crew's your family and that makes them mine, and I want to be fully apart of our family."

OK Carly you're in," Sam said making a smile come across my face. "but you still have to pass the initiation," She said with a smirk.

"Initiation? What do I have to do?" I asked a bit worried.

"Well cupcake for girls there's two options one you can get jumped in and have us beat you up or you can be sexed in meaning you let me and some of the girls take turns. But you pick the girls," Sam said with a sly smirk causing me to smirk back.

"Well in that case you go wake up Mandy and Tay and I'll get KP and meet you in the bedroom," I said making Sam and I chuckle.

"Well as fun as that sounds baby I think I'll handle this one alone okay cup cake," Sam said pulling me into a deep open mouth kiss.

"Umm ok babe but can we at least wake up Mandy and Taylor later I mean have you seen the ass on Mandy," I said getting up from Sam's lap Sam then picked me up caveman style and gave me a hard smack on the butt.

"Don't worry about Mandy's ass cause right now I'm going to our bed and I'm gonna wear yours out!," Sam said. And she did the next day I could barley walk.

End Of Flash back:

A few days later I got my tattoo and Sam gave me the same white and black beaded necklace that she and the others had. And told me that my job in the crew was the book keeper and I was in charge of the bail found they had in case someone got arrested. Katie even gave me a gun a small pink chrome 22, she figured it was best I had something that fit in a purse. and just like that I became Carly Shay female gang member and I liked it. For awhile.

AN: Well I hope you enjoyed it because due to school this is my Last update for awhile I need to focus on my grades but even if it takes forever i will not abandon any of my fics and I promise you all this I will comeback and I will continue to amaze so please don't hate me