Chapter 14

"Please Leah, I need you." Jacob whispered in her ear.

Leah closed her eyes tightly wanting to believe in the words he said. She could feel the warmth from his breath travel over her shoulder. The wind carried his scent up to her nose making her sigh in contentment as she literally breathed him in. Why was it so hard for her to accept what he was saying? Why did she want to curl up in a ball on his lap and just let him hold her forever? This was not the Leah that she knew herself to be. The Leah she knew was strong and determined to face anything life threw at her. The Leah that didn't take anything from anyone, not Sam, not Emily, not her mother or the rest of the pack, and certainly not Jacob Black. She didn't need him to make herself feel wanted.

Yet why at this very moment did she reach up to his face and step up on her toes so her lips could reach his? Why did she pull his face slightly to the left so he could deepen the kiss just like she likes and moan in pleasure, as she tasted the sweetness of his mouth? Leah felt his hands travel down her back to cup her backside and press her against him. It was his turn to moan in ecstasy.

He broke away and travelled down her neck pecking smaller kisses around her pulse and shoulder. Leah looked up and tried to catch her breath.

"Jacob, wait, we need to think about this." Leah said breathlessly. Why was she talking like that? She sounded like some movie starlet from the 1930's getting kissed for the first time.

"Why do you keep calling me Jacob?"

Leah pushed away from his chest and looked up. Standing where Jacob was an only moment earlier was Alec. But it couldn't be Alec. She knew it wasn't Alec because he didn't smell. Of course she's gotten used to the sweet scent that he gave off, but it was only bearable because of his half human self. The scent was lighter than a normal vampire but she could still usually smell him before he walked into the same room as her. Being this close she should be able to get some kind of scent off of him.

"Alec, what are you doing?" Leah asked, more confused than ever, she could have sworn Jacob was in her arms. In fact the heat from his body still lingered. However it was cooling faster because of the coldness of Alec.

He leaned down and began to nibble on her ear, "Is it not apparent? I'm loving you."

This wasn't right, none of it was. She could feel the coldness in her body that had nothing to do with the icy flesh of her partner. Leah reached up and wound her arms around his neck and pulled him down closer. His face turned and she hesitated for a brief second before closing her eyes and kissing him. She felt...felt...nothing. She felt like she was kissing a good friend, not a lover, and that it was wrong, so, so wrong. Pulling away she whipped her head to the side so he couldn't see her face.

In her head she knew Alec was a safe and right choice for her, but her heart and her body told her differently. She really wanted to feel something, but all she carried was gratitude for the man before her.

"I'm sorry Alec, but I can't love you like that." Leah whispered, a tear sliding down her face. She wanted to be safe and normal and she felt a semblance of that feeling when she was with Alec. But the connection with Jacob couldn't be ignored. Her body, her mind and her heart screamed for the Alpha.

"Why are you calling me Alec?"

Leah whipped her head back to the man and pushed herself away. What the hell was going on? Are they messing with her? Honestly, she didn't think she could take any more mind games. her heart couldn't handle the tug of war her head put it through. Jacob looked angry and hurt at the name of another man, but it was only moments before she said his name and was standing with Alec.

"I broke the imprint for you, do you know what it felt like? A tearing inside my body leaving me in agony for hours. I pushed through it to get to you that day. I wouldn't allow myself to rest. Afraid that I would let you down, and still I haven't done enough. What do you want from me!" Jacob asked. She could see his jaw clench and unclench from the stress he was obviously under. She had done this to him? She made him this miserable?

"I'm sorry." Leah whispered, barely audible thanks to the wind picking up.

Jacob shook his head and turned around leaving her standing alone.

"Jacob wait!" She said reaching out for him. But every time she attempted to take a step forward, her legs were like concrete and refused to move to her will.

The wind seemed to be worst now as it picked her hair up and blew it across her face, along with the sand. She hadn't noticed until now that they were standing on La Push beach. The sand was making it harder and harder for her to see his retreating back.

Again she tried to call out to him, to move away from the spot she was in. Instead the wind had picked up even more and it now seemed as if a sand storm had moved in.

"Jacob, come back, please, come back!"

The wind howled.

"Jacob!"

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"Leah!"

"Jacob!" Leah screamed as she sat up quickly in her bed covered in sweat. Her breath ragged, it took her a moment to realize where she was and that she had only been dreaming of her encounter with Jacob and Alec.

Leah turned and looked to the person who had called her name. Her brother Seth stood in the doorway looking at her as if she recently grew two heads.

"No, I'm Seth."

"No shit Sherlock." Leah replied rolling her eyes at her brother's sarcasm. She fell back in the bed and immediately sat back up and looked behind her. The sheets were completely soaked from her sweating. They would need to be washed. Getting up and pulling the sheet with her she dropped them on the floor and then turned back to her brother.

"Was there something you wanted?" she asked with one eyebrow raised with impatience.

Seth held his arms up in surrender, "Never mind ol' bossy one."

"Seriously Seth, what is it?"

"Nothing, I was just worried about you is all, I could tell you were having a nightmare again…Wanna talk about it?"

Leah sat on the edge of her bed and picked at the hem of her tank top, "Not really."

"Okay." Seth said and turned back towards the hallway.

"Well..."

Seth turned back and looked at his sister waiting for an answer. Torn between the love for his sibling and the love of Assassins Creed three gave him a look as if he were constipated.

Seth tried to hurry her along by waiving his arms together, "...well...?"

Leah looked back up at her little brother and he could see the tears welling up in her eyes. That stopped him in his tracks. One thing was for sure, his sister, Leah Clearwater never cried in front of him. Even when they were at their father's funeral, she didn't shed a tear as he wept like a baby. He heard her later on crying her eyes out in her room with the door shut. But as soon as he opened the door she was drying her face and was once again the strong big sister he's always known. In a way her strength gave him strength, to move on from the death of their father, to breakaway from Sam's pack, and to grow into a man who understood crying was not weakness, only a necessity from time to time.

Forgetting about the game he walked over and sat on the edge of the bed with her. He placed his hands on hers that rested in her lap and let her rest her head against his shoulder while silent tears ran down her cheeks onto his grey t-shirt.

"Have you told him?" Seth asked quietly.

She shook her head on his shoulder in answer. She didn't need to ask what he was talking about, there was no use pretending around her brother. He always knew her best. It seemed when things were really hard. Her little brother acted more like a big brother. She was grateful for the turn around at times like these.

"Leah" Seth said her name softly to get her attention.

She raised her eyes up to his face as he pushed her hair gently behind one ear. He sighed as if thinking over his words and finally tilted his head offering her a reassuring smile.

"Go."

"Seth I can't-"

Seth grabbed her face in his hands before she could look away or finish her sentence.

"You can."

Leah looked away first and looked down at her hands. She tried to tell herself that going to Jacob and telling him how she felt was the wrong idea. They were horrible together. Neither one of them could get past the jealousy or hurt that they've felt at each other's hands. How can she trust him? He has an Imprint. Or at least he HAD and imprint. What was she to make of that relationship? Her dream only confused her more and yet it helped. She understood she couldn't live without him in her life. When he wasn't here she was in turmoil, as if she was caught up in a great storm she couldn't move away from. Only when Jacob or Alec was with her did she feel a sense of calmness. But with Jacob, there was an attraction and heat that she couldn't share with Alec.

"Maybe I can." she whispered, mostly to herself rather than to Seth.

"That's the Leah I know" Seth said with a grin and a shoulder bump.

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It seemed telling Jacob was easier said than done. Leah would have to find him first. She checked the Black house and garage first. When there was nobody home she moved onto Quil's house and still there was no Jacob. Quil had mentioned Embry's place, but to avoid walking over there for nothing she gave him a call first only to hear what she expected. No Jacob. Had he gone back to the Cullen's?

That thought nearly brought her to her knees. Was there no light at the end of the tunnel? When was she going to get a break for the drama?

Walking back up to her own house, she barely made it to the front steps before Seth slammed the screen door open. Leah paused at the step, waiting for Seth to explain his action. But his face, set in the same way hers and their mothers would do when they had bad news to share. Running into the house she looked everywhere on the first floor. She wasn't sure what to expect. Maybe a bloody Jacob, a crying Jacob who came over to admit he was going back to Renesseme. What she didn't expect was the elders including Jacob's dad and Sam all in her living room looking grim.

"What happened?" Leah demanded.

She hadn't noticed Alec standing in the far corner of the living room where the sun can't touch until his hand moved forward handing out a sheet of paper towards Leah. She took a step forward and gently took the paper from him. Her eyes searched everyone's in the room, silently telling them to explain to her what was going on, but everyone but Alec refused to meet her gaze.

Slowly looking down she lifted the paper to realize it was a note of some sort. As she began reading the blood drained from her face leaving her with the coldness she hasn't felt since her days and nights in the basement of the half bloods.

My dearest Leah,

Our time spent together wasn't nearly enough for me. I long to understand the allure you hold over my dear brother, for it must be something powerful to have him betray his family for. I feel this is the only way to gain your attention, for if I knocked on your door I would be turned away. To avoid that hassle I took the pleasure of acquiring a certain Alpha you are charged to protect as Beta of his pack. Now understand I don't wish to cause anyone any harm, I only request a moment of your time, alone. In exchange for the time you sacrifice, your dearly loved Alpha will be set free. Also be aware if I sense my backstabbing brother or any of your furry pack-mates I will be forced to sever the head from your alpha and this deal for a safe exchange will be null and void. I will await your presence at the same home you spent that lovely vacation in our basement for a time. Until then...

Your truly,

Nahule

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~I know it has been ages since I updated this story, just so much has happened that I could never find the time. I apologize to all the readers and I'm eternally grateful to those who stand by me and continue to read this fanfic. I knew where I wanted to go with this story, but when I came back and re-read my previous chapters I was appalled at all the mistakes. I hope to go forward with this story on a better leg and hope you (the readers) are happy with the way it goes.

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