AN: We never found out the real reason why Okita had joined the Shinsengumi... this is just an expansion of a plausible reason...

This is an entire fic made up of only Souji's dialouge... this fic spands from the time he joined the Shinsengumi right up until Tetsu and he spoke about it...

Okita's Decision

Mr. Hijikata …. If I told anyone… I'd be laughed at…

I'm sure I will.

Why would they….? My reason isn't something terrible.

Much worse has happened to many others.

I don't think so…. Mr. Hijikata…

It's not that bad.

I couldn't stop him. I wasn't…

I'm not strong enough…

Yes. It is the only way I can become stronger.

I don't care if I do change. I don't care what it takes.

I won't ever let this happen to me…. Ever again.

I won't.

It is my choice, after all, isn't it? …. Hijikata-san?

Don't you think I have the right to make the choice?

…. A ... child cannot decide?

You think he thought that?

Do you think he cared that I was a child?

… No he didn't.

And neither will I.

Children are innocent…. I… I'm not ….not anymore…

I haven't changed my mind. Please teach me… Sensei.

I will never regret my choice…..

But Hijikata-san…

I'm no longer sure what I'm doing this for…

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