A/N: One of the few requests by Castiel's Little Angel1985. Some small spoilers for season six finale.
Chapter Summery: Soulless Sam has made an impression on Bonnie, as she says to Elena. But, a surprise is about to change her life.
All These Things I've Done- The Killers.
Bonnie/Sam
When there's nowhere else to run.
Is there room for one more son?
One more son?
If you can hold on.
If you can hold on, hold on.
Bonnie's fist knocks on Elena's door, the dark haired witch looks tired and worn out. It's been years and Bonnie knows it. She had left after Jenna's death, disconnecting herself for the soul reason of helping Sam Winchester.
She broke up with Jeremy, even if deep inside her she still loved him.
She gave up on Damon and Stefan, even after Damon told her that Stefan left with Klaus.
Even years later, she ignored the wedding invitation to Elena and Damon's wedding.
Now, her car's parked outside the Gilbert/Salvatore house, a trunk full of weapons and rock salt. It's a few seconds before the door opens, Elena Gilbert's eyes widen when she sees her.
" Bonnie?"
" Hi, Elena." She says, thinking that her voice is as soulless as he is...
" I need a place to crash."
I wanna stand up, I wanna let go.
You know, you know - no you don't, you don't.
I wanna shine on in the hearts of men.
I want a meaning from the back of my broken hand.
It's a few minutes before Elena lets her in. It's even longer before Damon stops glaring at the back of her head when her back is turned.
She's sitting on the couch with Elena one night when she confesses.
" There's something wrong, Elena." She says, placing her hands in her lap. " I've done all I can for him, and it's not helped at all."
Elena looks confused, " Sam?" She asks, placing a hand on her knee. Bonnie nods her head.
" Sam. Sam Winchester." She says, " the man that was brought back from Hell."
Elena nods understanding. Bonnie leans back slightly.
" I've killed people, Elena. Innocent people. If they were in the way of the thing we were hunting, they weren't spared."
" I thought the idea of hunting was to save people from the monsters." Elena stated. Bonnie just nods her head.
" It used to mean that." She said, looking over at her. " Now it's a duty to collect the monsters, not save the people."
" Collect? Who's collecting them?" Elena asked. She's never seen her friend like this, she's even worse then when her Grams died.
" I can't tell you, I've said too much already." Bonnie mutters.
" Do you...do you still love him?" Elena asks.
" The old Sam." Bonnie says, " I still love the old Sam. The one with the soul."
Another head aches, another heart breaks.
I am so much older than I can take.
And my affection, well it comes and goes.
I need direction to perfection, no no no no.
Bonnie listens to Elena tell her about what happened over the years she was missing. Bonnie chokes up when she hears about Stefan's death. Damon and a few others had killed Klaus soon after. Bonnie curses herself, she could have saved Stefan.
But, even still, under the roof of a vampire, hunting takes up her time. Hundreds of missed calls, hundreds of messages from Sam and the occasional one from Samuel Campbell. The one from Dean confused her most, but she still didn't answer.
She didn't want contact with them at all.
Bonnie fell back into her somewhat old self. She started to make jibes at Damon when he bothered her, and she had a few girl nights with Elena. She even dated a few times, though the relationships didn't last long. She started to feel happy, but there was a growing emptiness inside her. And a growing panic.
She was waiting for the next shoe to drop.
Help me out. And when there's nowhere else to run.
Yeah, you know you got to help me out.
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the backburner.
You know you got to help me out, yeah.
Is there room for one more son?
These changes ain't changing me.
The cold-hearted boy I used to be.
" Bonnie, where are you? We have a hunt and you're not helping, wherever you are. Call me."
Delete.
" Seriously, Bonnie. This is pretty immature of you. We're on a hunt just outside of Ohio, if you want to help out."
Delete.
" Bonnie, this is Samuel. Sam's gone missing-"
Delete.
" Bonnie, it's Dean. Call me, now. It's Sam...I'll explain later, just call me."
Bonnie paused, her thumb hovering over the 'delete' button. She frowned, wondering if she should give him a call. She paused, considering deleting the last message on her phone. Elena and Damon were laughing about something in the other room and Bonnie keyed in one of Dean's cell numbers. She stood and walked down the hall as it rang twice before a gruff voice answered.
" Bonnie, what the hell?"
Bonnie rubbed the back of her neck, " Yeah, nice to hear from you too, Dean." She answered with a shake of her head. " You called about Sam a few days ago, care to explain?"
" Huh. It takes you days to call me back? I thought you cared about Sam, Bonnie."
" Not this Sam." Bonnie stated, growing annoyed. " If you're going to tell me he's soulless, I beat you to the punch. I already know that."
" He was..."
" Wait." Bonnie pushed herself off the wall she was leaning on, " what do you mean 'was'? Dean, what did you do?" She asked, her voice raising slightly.
" Let's just say Death owed me a favour." Bonnie could almost hear the smirk in his voice. " But, we got some bigger fish to fry at the moment and could use the help. You want to tell me where you are?"
Bonnie paused, glancing back into the house. Elena was just walking out, a curious look on her face when she saw Bonnie on the phone. Bonnie turned to look away, she didn't belong here. Maybe a few years ago she did, but not now.
She sighed, " Mystic Falls, Virginia."
Yeah, you know you got to help me out. I got soul, but I'm not a soldier. (x10)
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the backburner.
You know you got to help me out, yeah.
You're gonna bring yourself down.
Yeah, you're gonna bring yourself down.
Yeah, you're gonna bring yourself down.
It took quite a bit of convincing that Sam really was Sam. But, she thanked Elena and Damon for letting her stay. Bonnie knew that she didn't fit in that life, and know that she was a hunter, she couldn't go back.
She didn't necessarily like the life she was given, but she stuck through with it. She became familiar with Dean, Cas, even Balthazar. She was still a bit sceptical of Sam, but he seemed to be his old self. He didn't remember much of her, but she stuck around because she said she would.
Even if it was bringing her down.
Yeah, you know you got to help me out. Over and out, last call for sin.
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the backburner.
You know you got to help me out, yeah.
You're gonna bring yourself down, yeah.
You're gonna bring yourself down.
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the backburner.
You're gonna bring yourself down, yeah.
You're gonna bring yourself down.
While everyone's lost, the battle is won.
With all these things that I've done.
All these things that I've done.
(Time, truth and hearts.)
If you can hold on...
If you can hold on...
And when every battle is won, they were thrown into another battle. She's in fear, more friends are thrown into another situation. Yet, she's sticking around.
Because they need her. And she's tired of running.
" Maybe there's a spell in one my grandmother's spell books that could fix him?" Bonnie asked, almost faltering under the glare of the newly proclaimed God.
And so, she continues to hold on.
Sam grabs her hand, and somehow she knows they'll get through this.