Chapter 59 :

The dream:

"Liv, baby, wake up." Alex said slightly shaking Liv who had fallen asleep.

"What?What's going on?" Liv mumbled opening her eyes.

"You fell asleep in the cab back from the airport, we're almost home." Alex smiled marveling at her wife's waking face.

"Oh God I think I just had the worst nightmare ever." Liv replied siting up trying to wake herself up.

"Here we are ladies, it will be 63 please."

"Here you go, please keep the change." Alex replied handing him a few bills.

"Thank you, let me get your luggage."

So Liv and Alex entered their house, going straight to their bedroom to drop their suit cases.

"We don't have to do this now you know." Alex whispered snaking her arms around Liv' s waists as she was starting to unpack.

"You're right can we talk?" Liv asked turning around sitting on the edge of their bed.

"About that nightmare that you had?" Alex asked wrapping her arms around Liv's neck.

"Yes, I dreamed that we had an argument, we were here in our bedroom unpacking and I called you Mrs Benson and you corrected me saying Cabot Benson. After that I went ballistic on you because you wouldn't take my name, you wanted it behind yours…"

"Oh Liv, come to bed." Alex replied crawling in bed dragging Liv with her.

"I don't know what crossed my mind, you were telling me that because you were going to run your family foundation you needed to keep your name and you attempted to leave the room and I grabbed you, I saw the fear in your eyes, I'm so sorry."

"Just breathe, first of all it was only a dream, don't worry I'm planning on taking your name. I actually have a meeting with my lawyer next week to start the procedure. I love you and I and I want to officially be a Benson."

"Really, how about the foundation?"

"Well I guess it's going to be unsettling for donators to deal with me if I don't keep my name, you know the head of the Cabot foundation being a Benson, so how about Benson-Cabot?"

"I would love that. You know I would never physically hurt you right?"

"Of course I do, i wouldn't have married you otherwise."

"You know, I just feel out of control since I got shot. I feel like I'm not myself anymore and I don't know how to come back from this."

"I know exactly how it feels , I know what it's like to be shot and seeing your like flashing in front of your eyes , but you're not alone Liv. I'm here, I'm your wife and you can always count on me."

"I'm not the woman you fell in love with, I don' t even know if I want to go back to work."

"I'm not the woman you fell in love either, I have changed and so did you but what we feel for each other that will never change. As for work, you don't need to go back if you don't want to."

"Would you still love me if I wasn't a cop?"

"Of course I would Liv, I don't love you for the badge and gun, even if it's extremely sexy. I love you because you're the strongest, most compassionate, most devoted woman I ever met in my life. When I'm next to you I feel safe and that has nothing to do with your gun, it's you Liv, you make me feel safe and loved. "

"What would I do If I'm not a cop?"

"I don't know, maybe you can teach at the academy, or you could work with me at the Foundation, you know I'm planning on redirection the donations to help victims of abuse, and I would definitely need you to do that."

"Really?"

"Of course, you know our foundation has always been supporting arts, medical research, and education, so trust me when I say that convincing the board to extend our donations to victims of sexual abuse won't be easy. I'm going to need your help to convince them."

"You're right, I have been on the filed I know what kind of structures and help victims need that the public system doesn't provide. I would be happy to help you, we make such a great team."

"You're right, well don't feel like you need to go back to any kind of work, you could stay home and raise our kids, be a stay home mom."

"Alexandra Benson, are you suggesting that we should start a family?We've only been married for 17 days.."

"I know, but I think we wasted enough time don't you?"

"I think we could have been together earlier, that's for sure, but you know I'm not…you know myself, don't you want to wait until I'm recover?"

"Liv, I love you, I know it's going to take time for you to go back on your feet and I think that having a child might help you . You know feeling responsible for our child, taking care of it, might help you see the good things instead of focusing on the bad things. It might boost your self confidence."

"I think you're right, but I don't rush into this, we both need to be ready for it."

"I am, it's all I ever wanted, being your wife and carrying your child."

"I think I like that idea, feeling a little Benson growing inside you, I mean a little cabot, god knows we wouldn't want him or her to have my genes…"

"Liv…"

"I know, I'm the leaving proof that genes aren't everything. I really want a baby that looks like you hopefully he or she will inherit the donor's character."

"Liv!"

"I'm sorry. So what do you say should we try to have a baby?"

"I think we should enjoy being married for at least a year first but yes we could consider it."

"Alright then, we'll wait for a year, you're right , I don't want to have to share you yet, we just got married."

The newly weds spent the night in bed cuddling, talking about their future. Liv knew she couldn't leave SVU like that, that she needed to consider carefully, but the more she considered it the les it scared her. Working with Alex at her foundation would be a way to help victims. Often she felt frustrated after catching criminals not knowing what happened to their victims after the trial. Working with Alex she would be able to take care and help victims after the system had given them the justice they needed.

I know guys, that was lame...But I figured that If I keep on bringing the drama this story will never end and besides this dream was enough for Liv to realize she needed to put her life together.

I felt a lack of interest for last chapter so if you want me to continue please review!