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The Soul's Midnight

Chapter One:

Damn Hitachiins

Date: Thursday, December 24, 2010

Time: 3:00 a.m. or; the soul's midnight.

Is there anyone who will hear me out?

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Anyone who will believe that what I say is true?

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I didn't do it.

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That's what I told them.

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It wasn't my fault.

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But I guess you don't know what I'm talking about.

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We should start at the beginning…

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So we begin…

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So I begin…

Date: Tuesday, January 5, 2008

Time: 3:20 p.m. a few minutes after school gets out.

It wasn't like I didn't know what they did. I knew fully well that they hurt every single girl who ever wrote them a love letter. Heck, I had even watched them do it before. I had seen, for myself, just how very cruel they could be. But I thought…Maybe I could be different? I thought perhaps since I also had a twin and I understood them they'd…Somehow know I was different. That was why I had decided to write the letter. I could identify with them. I knew how it felt…To not have anyone know who you are…To always be mistaken for the other twin. I suppose you're thinking, 'What the heck is she talking about?' I guess I should explain.

I'm Danielle Fujioka. I know what you're thinking. Danielle? American name. Fujioka? Japanese name. Well, you see, I was adopted. And my sister, of course, was too. We were living in America. But…I had this opportunity to go to Ouran. It was…Well a scholarship type thing. And since I had relatives (Well…Not really…They were Fujiokas…) that lived near Ouran my adoptive mom said that I could go. And even though I knew that I would miss my twin with all of my heart I decided to go. You might want to know a little more about my twin right? Her name is Delia Fujioka. We both have interesting long blond hair that is light blond on the top and dark blond on the bottom. Our eyes are exactly the same too. Blueish-gray and silver when we're mad. We're both the same height; about 5 feet tall. And we were in the seventh grade. I had to admit…I was ready to give up on Ouran. I missed my twin, my sister, my best friend too much, and…I really missed my own bed. The only reason I stayed…Was because of…Him. He was the only thing that was keeping me from leaving.

Now don't get me wrong. I'm not one of those stupid rabid fangirls who, upon seeing an attractive guy claim to quote, "Totally like fall in love with him." End quote. No. It was very different. I was sure…That I could tell them apart. You see, I was not stupid. I knew that if I just wrote a letter to them and I couldn't tell them apart that they would never accept me into their world. (How was I so sure of this…Hmmn…Well, if there was a boy who wanted to come into Delia's and my world…I'd at least want them to be able to tell me and my twin apart…I mean it's just basic courtesy…) So in the beginning I watched. If we were in science class, I'd observe how they would act. I'd listen to what they'd say and how they went about things. And watching them paid off. I learned that even though they acted as if they were one it was just that; an act. They wanted people to be able to tell them apart…And then they didn't want people to be able to tell them apart. I realized that they were so much like my twin and me, that I…Started to like him even more. Wait. You might want to know which twin I liked huh? Right.

Hikaru Hitachiin.

I don't know what it was that drew me to him but…I mean Kaoru is great too. They're both cute, but Hikaru…He just…I guess I just identified with him the most. There's always a way to tell twins apart. It might only be something so subtle and so small that any fangirl who was infatuated with the boys' looks could skip over it…But anyone who, like me, cared enough to notice and want to know the individual, could find it. And I did. At first I found that their voices were different. Kaoru's voice being more baby-ish, shy and subdued, while Hikaru's was bold, daring and slightly lower than his brothers was. So I could tell them apart by their voices. So what. That didn't matter. Therefore, I kept quiet, in the background. I needed to know how to tell them apart in different ways. I needed to be able to tell them apart even when they were not talking. Soon I realized that Hikaru was the leader. His actions were always slightly more mischievous than his younger brothers. I realized that Kaoru had a deeper understanding of people than Hikaru did. I now knew how to tell them apart.

This brings us back to where I was now; standing alone and waiting for Hikaru to show up. I knew the tricks that they played; how they messed with girls' heads…But I was sure he'd know I was different.

I was sure my letter to him was different from any other he had received.

Hikaru,

I'm sure you get letters from silly rabid fangirls confessing their love to you every other day. In fact…I'm positive. Because I've seen it for myself. Many times. I'm writing this, not to confess my undying love to you, mind you, but to tell you…That I care. That I have cared. For a very long while. That I…Understand. Please meet me by the rose bushes on the east side of campus at 3:25 today.

-Nearly Unnoticed

I know the name I signed looked like something you'd write to Dear Abby, but I didn't want to put my real name. He wasn't exactly nice to me in school but he wasn't exactly hostile either. He was…Neutral to me. I was just very nervous about what he would do…

"Hey. Was this from you?" I heard a monotone sound from behind me. I froze and then turned around as fast as I could. Hikaru Hitachiin. It was him. He was here. This was it.

The time of truth.

I swallowed my nervousness and straightened my spine. I nodded. A slight smirk graced his features. If he said the words that I had heard him say so many times before…My heart was beating against my ribcage.

"I'm sorry, but I'm Kaoru. You must have gotten our desks mixed up…" I was so shocked that I froze. He couldn't have. He was supposed to be different… "You see, Hikaru already has a crush on someone else. But I think you're cute and I've had a crush on you. So I was wondering…If you could like me instead?" He asked with a fake smile.

When I heard those words…I felt many different things.

I felt sad.

I felt shocked.

I felt surprised.

I felt angry.

I felt stupid.

But mostly….I felt betrayed.

I felt like…I felt like I should have known. Like I should have known that I couldn't trust them.

I didn't know I was crying until I felt something wet slide down my cheek.

"Well? What do you think…?" I heard Hikaru ask. As I slowly raised my eyes to his I heard him trail off. As soon as he saw my face, his eyes widened. "You're…A-Are…You…?" He swallowed in surprise. My mind wasn't processing what he was saying. "W-Why are you crying…?" He asked. I suppose he wasn't use to girls crying until he and his brother ganged up on them. I took a step away from him. He stared at me with confusion on his face. I wasn't capable of thinking clearly at that point. There were so many different emotions swirling around at the surface…Hikaru took a step towards me.

"Why?" I didn't realize that I was the one speaking until I repeated my question, "Why…?" My voice was small and broken. Maybe…Maybe he had a good reason for doing it again…To me. Maybe…I desperately needed something to believe in. I didn't want to make a scene…I was not a dramatic person.

Hikaru stared at me, "I don't know what you're talking about." He replied curtly. My eyes hardened. I might be hurt…But I couldn't stand it when people did this to me.

"Don't lie to me." I said a chill seeping into my voice.

"I'm sorry, but I still have no idea what you're talking about." He stared me in the eye. My own eyes narrowed.

"How can you stand there and lie to my face?" I asked in a low voice. He was about to respond when I raised my hand signaling for him not to answer. "You know what? Never mind. Don't answer that." Then without looking away from his eyes I called, "Hey Kaoru! Come out and play!" Hikaru's eyes widened in surprise as I brushed the few lingering tears away. I refused to show them any more weaknesses. Hikaru's twin didn't come out. I sighed. "Kaoru! I know you're there! Come out come out wherever you are!" I called in a mocking sing-songy voice. A few moments later Hikaru's younger twin stepped out from behind a bush. He stood there looking from me to his twin uneasily. "It's okay. I don't bite…Much." I gave him my best Cheshire cat grin as I made a 'come here' motion with my index finger. Cautiously, the younger twin walked to his brother's side and stood there shuffling his feet. He seemed confused.

"I'll explain what happened for your sake. Your brother tried to make me believe that he was you, and then he asked me, while still pretending to be you I might add, if I would rather like you instead." I gave him a disgusted look and then tacked on so that he wasn't offended, "Don't get me wrong. I don't have anything against you Kaoru. It's just…The thought of…Well really what your brother suggested. That twins are interchangeable and cannot be told apart. Or that they do not have any kind of individual worth. It…Disgusts me." I shook my head.

Kaoru was wide-eyed as he stared at me listening to what I was saying, "How…How can you tell us apart?" He asked in his baby-ish voice. I smiled coolly at him.

"I'm observant. And every twin can be told apart. You just have to…Care enough to notice the little things." I added in a softer voice. I closed my eyes for a moment. Then my eyes hardened.

"You seriously screwed up." I told Hikaru as I stared him in the eye. He looked like he was in shock. The Hitachiin's were shocked and I was…Well I felt drained. Completely drained. "But I guess some good did come out of this." I smiled in dark humor.

"And what is that?" Kaoru asked hesitantly.

"Well, now I know that no one can be trusted. And I finally get to go home." I grinned. "You two were my last straw." I chuckled darkly.

"What do you mean, 'No one can be trusted?'" Kaoru asked. I wonder why Hikaru wasn't saying anything.

"Isn't it obvious? Apparently no one can be accepted into our world. Not even our own kind." I replied sadly. Except Haruhi and my mother. They were always the exceptions. I had thought that all mother's could tell their twins apart so I didn't really listen to her…I thought no one could tell us apart except mom…Until I met Haruhi for the first time. Haruhi was the one, after all, who taught me that my twin and I were separate beings.

"Who's, 'Our?'" Hikaru asked. I raised an eyebrow at him.

"So now you speak?" I asked sarcastically. I rolled my eyes at him, "I have a twin dumbass." I glared at him. "We're identical. We share everything from clothes to food. She's my best friend and, apparently, the only one I can trust." I shook my head as I prepared to walk away.

"Wait…You're a twin?" Kaoru called as I turned my back on them.

"Yes. Why do you think I even bothered with you two?" I sighed in frustration. "My cousin…She wanted me to make friends...She wanted my world to be bigger. Naturally, I didn't want to make friends with the girls; they're all…Crazy. Then I saw you. And I thought…For a moment that maybe…Maybe I could invite someone into our world…But now I realize that I can't. Because, if someone like us doesn't understand…Who else would?" I rubbed my forehead in exasperation. I heaved a sigh as I straightened my spine. "But none of that matters now." I nodded to the Hitachiin's. "Good Bye." I muttered and then I walked away.

I walked away from the Hitachiin brothers.

They didn't try to stop me.

I was pissed beyond belief…But I was also sadder than I had ever been.

I think…That was the day I stopped believing in love.

A/n: Okay. Yes. I know exactly what you're all thinking, "Why EmiShae why? YOU'RE NOT EVEN DONE WITH YOUR OTHER HOST CLUB FANFIC!" I'm horrible. R&R!

~ XOXO EmiShae