Disclaimer~ Don't own anything :(

Prologue

Dear Nick,

I know I'm not supposed to be writing about you, or even mentioning your name on paper but I needed to make a list because so much has happened since you "died" and I want to remember everything. I'm doing this so when we meet again I'm going to tell you week by week what you've missed, because writing it down is so much easier then telling you in person the pain I'm going through right now.

Week One.

You're dead.

Everyone has completely lost it. I was at work when I found out, I already knew what time the crash was going to happen but when someone came running into set screaming you were dead, it hurt. So much so that I started actually crying, I thought I'd have to act like the devastated best friend but I didn't need to because with so many people sobbing and screaming you're name, it felt like the truth. That you were indeed dead.

You're mom and Selena aren't speaking, neither of them have spoken since you died all they do is cry. Everyone is feeling so sorry for Selena because she was your girlfriend, if only they knew the truth. I haven't spoken to any of your family but Joe did come by to see how I was, I pretended that I wasn't home because I'm not ready to deal with them yet. I'm preparing myself for the coming weeks, practicing crying on cue and feinting if things get really bad. This whole thing is started to play with my mind and it hasn't even been one week Nick. I miss you.

Week Two.

Your parents are planning your funeral.

Demi and Joe came round, I had to let them in seeing as the threatened to knock down the door if I didn't. They're a mess Nick and I was the one who had to become their rock. I hugged Joe while he sobbed onto me something I've seen him do in my life, and Demi has completely lost it. I need you Nick. I need you so much right now, I hate lying to them. I hate feeling like I'm the one causing their pain.

I saw Frankie. He was devastated Nick, I feel so guilty.

I went and saw Kevin and Danielle, yet again I became their tissue. I had both of them crying onto my shoulder for what seemed like hours as I stared at the wall muttering encouraging words. It was hell Nick, seeing them so distraught. Nick I need you, I need you so much.

Week Three.

The date for you're funeral has been set. It's next week. I don't want to go Nick, but I have too.

I had dinner with my family, it was good to be with them because they avoided you completely. No one cried and for the first time in three weeks, I actually smiled. In-between the smiles I saw them look at me with worried eyes, they know I'm hurting inside. They just don't know I'm dying…

Demi came over. She yelled at me for not crying enough. I cried, she cried.

There was a pink post-it note on my window. It was from you. All it said was I love you gorgeous, I miss you stay strong. Nick if only you knew how much that meant to me. I stuck it on the mirror, so you'll always be here. I went to bed that night wondering how far you were away from me, and when I'd get to see your gorgeous face again.

Week Four.

Tomorrow is your funeral.

You left another post-it note, this one was yellow. I love you Miles, you'll see me soon I promise. I had to force myself into believing those words were true as I stuck it on the mirror beside the last one. It made me smile to think that you were so close, yet so far away from me.

You were right. A man turned up this morning. He said I could see you soon and that he would deliver your address to me as soon as he got the all clear.

And now I finally know that no matter what happens, we can't be separated even if you are in witness protection.

A/N- You know what's annoying? Getting a cold in summer. Although I've had two days off school (which is great) and I decided to post a new story because I REALLY don't want to study. Okay I know reading this will make everyone confused, but next chapter it will make so much more sense! I know there is a few witness protection stories already out there but I don't think there are any Niley if so let me know! Anyway I hope you read this :D I promise it's going to be very drama filled and extremely Niley!