Hope you enjoy a dark path to insanity.
"Hey Roxas, do you need any help carrying that?"
"No, I got it."
He almost falls over.
Selfish.
"Roxas, can you help me on this math problem?"
"I don't think I can, I don't know it too well."
Liar.
He knows it perfectly.
Sobbing.
He doesn't deserve help.
"You're an ungrateful, selfish, spoiled brat!" his father yelled at one time or another.
Selfish.
Spoiled.
Ungrateful.
Undeserving.
Sobs die in the silence.
Though they are not gone.
Selfish.
Smiles plastered on at school.
Laughing.
Joking.
All an act.
"Hey Roxas, do you need help on English?"
"No thanks, I think I got it."
Making people worry.
Selfish.
Doesn't get it.
Frustrated.
Can't ask for help.
That would bother someone.
Selfish.
"I need help on this, Roxas."
"Sorry, I don't think I get it."
What if he's wrong?
Feeding someone wrong answers.
Selfish.
Feelings stuffed in a bottle.
Letting them out is selfish.
Keep it closed.
Who would he tell anyway?
People would worry about him.
Better if he not worry them.
Selfish.
He can do fine on his own.
He doesn't deserve his friends anyway.
And the bottle cracks.
Selfish.
Hasn't cried himself to sleep since he can remember.
Selfish.
No need to be sad at school.
People would worry.
Selfish.
No need for that.
He doesn't deserve people to worry for him.
Selfish.
He can deal about it on his own.
Making other people worry for no reason.
That's Selfish.
Staying in this life is painful.
Getting out of it is painful to those left.
Selfish.
Dry the tears,
Undeserving.
Put on another fake smile.
Spoiled.
Anything else would be...
Selfish.
Don't ask, I thought of it, and it moved me. I hope it did for you too as well.
The process of the story is kind of confusing, near the beginning, he thinks of himself as selfish, and does little things to try to make himself "less selfish".
But as the story progresses, Roxas kind of goes insane, tearing himself out from the inside. He hates himself for being selfish, but can't save himself. Even the little things tear at him, destroying himself till he's kind of a shell. Every other thought about how horrible he is, and how selfish he is, and how he deserves nothing.
Just a little dark trip to insanity for you guys.
(I hope that little explanation didn't confuse you guys more! I'm bad with words...)
(Weird how I write stories though, huh?)
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