Okay, so it's 3:30 am and I just finished writing this. I have no idea where it came from, I don't even know if it's a oneshot or not, I guess it's up to the response it gets.

Excuse any mistakes, I wrote this in sleep deprivation. This is highly smutty, so if you don't like that, too bad.

The funny thing is, this was intended as being a Rosalie/Bella fic, I have no idea how it ended the way it did. So maybe if I'm inspired to continue I might be able to bring that into the storyline. I'll shut up now. Bla bla bla, I don't own Twilight, annnd GO.

Being a newborn wasn't easy. The first week had passed without ease, let me tell you. I'd been living at the Cullens, much to Rosalie's demise who only made her opinion more obvious by very un-subtle means. Everyone else was supportive, namely Edward. But I'd been spending most of my time away from him, because if you didn't know, uncontrollable sexual urges were paramount to newborns and after almost completely destroying him on my first day I decided a healthy distance would be best for the both of us.

Although I think I may have overestimated my ability to control said urges.

"Bella, maybe you should stay in my room tonight, not Edwards." A wind chime voice sung.

I had been sitting alone watching TV absentmindedly, anything to get my mind off sex and blood, I'd already hunted twice and it was only midday, not to mention attempted by any means to release the sexual tension, but you can't exactly expect privacy in a house full of vampires.

"Why?" I asked, not turning my head to look her in the eye. We both knew what this was about.

"Well.. I've been seeing things.. more than I'd like to know.. more often than I'd like." If I could blush I would have been, that was one benefit of being a vampire.

"Oh.." Was my intelligent response. I felt her come closer, a metre away.. then sat next to me. I urged myself to keep my eyes focused on the television.

"I think Edwards a bit scared." Alice giggled quietly, as if he could hear.

I couldn't suppress a snort, images of him just happening to need to be somewhere every time we bumped into each other and his little voice breaking when he tried to explain himself were all too pitiful. It almost made me feel bad. Was I that scary as a newborn?

"A bit? He's probably halfway to china after how I've been acting. But it's not my fault, we all agreed on the change.. I just never expected.. this."

"You can never imagine what it's going to be like. Trust me, we've all been through it." I nodded knowingly. Sometimes a friend like Alice was just what I needed. She seemed to understand me more than even Edward. For that I was thankful, because sometimes, excuse the irony, he was just too intense and overbearing. Alice was my balance.

"It's probably a good idea." I admitted, finally meeting her tender gaze. I took a moment to admire her golden eyes, I always loved her eyes. Something about them just spoke to me, so soft yet so intense, showing every emotion she felt. Beauty like hers seemed rare, even for a vampire.

In that moment, Rosalie appeared in the room, wearing a hateful scowl proving that beauty was not only physical. Although I suppose it helped. She knew it too, bearing most of her skin covered merely by a tank top and extremely tight bike pants. Her body matched that of an elite athlete, so toned and strong, it made me wonder- no. No, no, NO. Damn newborn sex drive.

I'd obviously made a fool of myself, (yes it happened no less often even in my vampire form) because she'd stopped before picking up a pretentious magazine only to crease her eyebrows and glare at me in disgust. I tore my eyes away at once out of pure fear. She fucking scared me, I had no doubt she could take me on in a fight even with my increased strength.

I heard her scoff as she returned upstairs to her room.

I averted my eyes to see Alice starring at me with a curious expression, only for the slightest moment until she spoke.

"Well I'm going to hunt, do you want to come?" I wondered if she was the mind-reader of the family.

"Yes." I almost yelled. She giggled melodically at my strange behaviour as I followed her into the woods, one thing prodding in my mind that I couldn't ignore.

I took a shower that night before Edward got home (Alice had informed me) so that I could occupy myself while he hid away for the night. I felt partially humiliated by the fact it was to this excruciating extent, but I actually feared for what I might do. Instead, for the first time that day, which was a long time to wait for a newborn I unleashed my sexual urges. With my new found speed and stamina I discovered a whole new world of masturbation. For the past few days it had been my addiction, I couldn't stop. I knew everyone was aware of it, but I didn't care. I slid one finger inside of myself, then another. I started slowly, to tease myself as I already came close to my climax. It felt like months, even years since my last orgasm, but in fact it was less than a day. A soft moan elicited from my lips as I penetrated myself with more force. I could feel myself convulse and tighten, if possible, I increased the speed. The room around me became a blur, my mind focused only on the incredible pleasure, I could hear, smell and feel my juices, so wet. So close.

"Bella." The voice caused me to jump and almost injure my insides. Immediately I found my composure.

"Yes?" I answered, my voice a few octaves higher than usual.

"Oh, sorry. I was wondering where you were, you've been in there for ages." Alice replied.

I was going to make her pay for this.

"Oh.. my bad." Another smart response. I should really write these down.

"Edwards been asking for you." I froze. Good timing buddy. Really, spot on.

"Okay, I'll be out in a minute." I contemplated finishing what I'd started, but it would be too obvious now. Fucking Alice and fucking Edward. Fuck. Did they want me to become even more aggressive?

I turned the water off and got changed into a jumper and track pants, I certainly didn't need to feel sexy at a time like this.

I entered the living room and the awkward stares I received were self explanatory. Humiliating much? I could have died on the spot. Alice hung her head in shame. Then I met Edwards gaze, who wore an extremely uncomfortable expression.

Thankfully Jasper, Rosalie and Emmett had enough consideration to pretend to be occupied, but their grins were all too obvious. Save Jasper who looked equally as uncomfortable as Edward. Poor boy, he had to endure my outrageous emotions, including unmistakable arousal which I was obviously reeking of.

"I- uh" Edward stuttered. I knew he was awkward about things like sex, but really? He was 104 years old for gods sake.

"Perhaps we should talk upstairs, alone." He said, aware of the tension in the room.

Well my friend, unless you want to be raped then I'd probably advise you not to suggest that. I looked to Alice for support.

Maybe that's not the best Idea. Alice thought.

Edward snapped his head towards the smaller vampire, he looked deranged. It must have been my scent.

Why don't you go hunt? She persuaded, then looked to Jasper for help.

Suddenly Edward calmed, then in a flash was gone. It couldn't have been that tempting. Sometimes he acted as if I was still a human.

"Thanks."

"No problem." Alice beamed.

A loud snort came from Rosalie's direction.

"I do recall a time when you yourself were a newborn Rosalie, remember that time you and Emmett-" But she was cut off my a hostile growl and Rosalie rising to her feet. Shit was bound to go down. There was one rule of survival in the Cullen residence, don't piss Rosalie off.

"Ooh, not so funny now is it?" Alice teased. Now it was my turn to laugh.

Bad idea. Now those piercing eyes were shooting daggers in me. I straightened my face as quickly as possible and instinctively stood still.

"Well at least Emmett can handle me, unlike your little bitch Edward." The room was dead silent. All humour was lost and now both of us were fuming. My protective side kicked in now as I released a growl and my lip curled bearing my teeth.

Rosalie rolled her eyes and took a brave step in my direction, I stood my ground. She may be an intimidating bitch but I had a bad side too and if she wanted to see it, she was certainly going to.

"Oh, bring it." I challenged.

"Stop it!" Alice demanded, but neither of us listened.

Rosalie was now so close, centimetres away so that she just barely stood taller than me, daring me to make my move. I could sense her anger but was interrupted by an alluring scent of cherry and vanilla that distracted my thought process by a sudden elation, my mind felt tipsy with the overwhelming charm, was she intentionally doing it? Did she have some power I was unaware of?.
"Don't push me Swan." Her words were loud and clear, laced with threat. But this time I wasn't scared. I was more intrigued by the rasp of her usually velvet voice.

Before I could find myself questioning more about the situation, she had stalked off to her room and slammed the door for good measure. Emmett followed her like a puppy.

"Wow.." Alice whispered adorably. She looked genuinely awe struck.

"It's just Rosalie." I reminded myself more than her.

"What's the worst she could do? Throw me against the wall and-" Awkward pause. Think Bella. Think. "Pound me to death?" Bad choice. Bad choice. Don't notice, oh please Alice, don't notice.

"Hah, yeah." She commented absently. I really hoped that meant she didn't notice.

"Maybe we should go to my room now, where it's safe." I chuckled. She was cute.

"Good idea."

"Pleaaase?" Alice begged
"No Alice! It's stupid." Her eyes twinkled with a sadness I couldn't ignore, she knew I couldn't resist that look.

"Oh if you think that's going to work, think again." I sat back against the bed and attempted to look away.

She perched herself on her knees at the end of the bed and continued to pout. My eyes shifted back and forth from her, trying to resist.

"Oh fine! Just stop with the pouting!" She beamed and with childlike giddiness skipped over to her drawer and got a brush. Honestly, what was her fascination with brushing my hair? I tried to convince myself that I didn't like it because I knew it would only satisfy her, but if only she knew my head was indeed one of my weak spots.

I sat forward so that she could sit behind me, her legs crossed and just touching my lower back. She began to stroke my hair with her fingers first, she always did this, it soothed me. Her fingers were so soft and tender. They were familiar to me and knew just how to make me feel relaxed. Even in the height of my sexual frustration.

"Hey Al?" I spoke before I thought.

"Yeah?" She replied.

"Could you um, massage my head?" What? It had been a long week, cut me some slack.

"Okay, but you need to relax first, you're really tight." Shut up thoughts. Shut. Up!

Suddenly she parted her legs and moved back slowly so that my head was resting on her chest. If I had a heart rate, it would have been out of the roof. Maybe this wasn't the best idea. Especially since it hadn't even begun yet.

Her expert fingers kneaded away the tension with the perfect amount of pressure, I felt my body melt into hers. She started near my neck, in circular motions, then slowly made her way up towards my temples. After a minute or two I felt an odd vibration and my eyes shot open in surprise.

"It's okay." She whispered, then giggled. "You're just purring."

"What the hell? Like a cat?" How random. Although I should have known, Edward had done it once or twice before now that I thought about it, but only in extreme circumstances.

"Shh. Just relax." She cooed. And like that I felt the wave of pleasure seep through my skull again as she kneaded away my confusion. This time I allowed the purring, I couldn't exactly stop it. It felt so good. I could have stayed like that forever, but suddenly she stopped, and I stopped purring.

"Wha-"

"Uh- sorry. I um, nothing. My fingers are sore." Did vampires ever get sore or tired? Especially from five minutes of head massaging. I felt like I'd done something wrong, something had made her uneasy.

I felt an unusual warmth between our bodies as I fell back into reality, my back almost burned and all at once I became aware of an undeniable scent in the air that turned my animal instincts on overdrive. I sat up and sure enough the scent was Alice. I'd never smelt it before, it was like a sweet musk, I took it in with a deep breath and felt a wave of stimulation excite my senses. I wasn't me anymore, and there was no control.
I found myself within the next millisecond on top of Alice with my nose burred in her neck, engulfing her scent, but it wasn't enough. She lay there frozen in fear, but I didn't notice, I was too determined by the overwhelming desire for her, she finally moved, attempting to push me off but I didn't like that, not at all.

She was mine now, I needed her. I grabbed her wrists and pinned them above her head, her eyes screamed mercy but I wouldn't have it. God she smelled so fucking good.

I no longer purred, but growled with hunger and want.

"Bella.." She whimpered. But this wasn't Bella, Bella was long gone.

I dipped my head into the crook of her neck again and before I knew it, my lips, tongue and teeth began to ravage her skin in a frenzy. It was her fault I was like this, I could have released this arousal hours before, but no. I said she would pay.

My hips involounatrily began to grind against her smooth body. Her resistance stopped as her head flung back in pleasure.

"Mmmm, good girl." I purred into her ear, there was something so satisfying about dominance. It only fuelled my desperation.

I would have my way. The throbbing between my legs was completely maddening, I could smell how wet I was, and undoubtedly she could too.

"Fuck.." She whispered as the friction between us increased. If she kept that up I was most definitely going to loose my shit. I felt pure fucking ecstasy from her writhing and moaning, I needed more, I was completely turned on by this point, my only thoughts were of lust and want. She looked so damn good beneath me, I would make her beg for me.

I released her wrists only so that I could put my hands to good use, and incase she used it as her moment to escape, I let no time for her to even think it. Immediately my hand cupped the outside of her shorts and made sure my fingers pressed against her most sensitive spot. Her eyes bulged and her back arched as she quivered and choked on air. The site was so sexy, to see her in pure pleasure, but I wanted to fuck her, until she shook and screamed my name, cumming all over my fingers. The thoughts wouldn't leave my mind, somewhere deep down I knew this was wrong, but my instincts had to have her. Nothing else mattered.

I slid her panties to the side without a second thought and brushed my fingers over her drenched cunt.

"You're so wet." My voice had an uncharacteristic rasp to it. Nothing but lust could have done that.

Alice responded by clawing at my back, not too hard, but enough to drive me further into insanity. I teased her folds, smirking as I watched her eyes darken with desire. I pressed my lips against her chest and made a trail down her stomach until I was just below her belly button. I nipped playfully at her waistband, causing it to snap. She let out a sharp moan as I took the moment to brush a finger against her clit.

"Please.." Oh that's right, you fucking beg, whore.

"Please what?" I teased, trailing kisses down further until my head was in between her thighs.

"Fuck!" She moaned as I began to rub press down on her clit with more force.

"Answer me." It was a demand. I made sure of that.

I took my hand away when I heard no reply, and just as expected she responded.

"Fuck me.." Oh God.

"Sorry what?"

"Please!" She was desperate now, right where I wanted her.

"I can't hear you."

Obviously I was wrong.

To say the next thing she did shocked me was an understatement. Alice sat up, grabbed me by the shoulders and somehow managed to top me and was now an inch from my face with black, hungry eyes glaring at me like I'd never seen before. I could have came on the spot.

"I said-" She leaned into my ear. "Fuck. Me." My eyes rolled into the back of my head and this time I was the one to moan. Innocent little Alice wasn't so innocent after all.

I couldn't disagree with her impatience, I had to have her. Right now.

I flipped her over to command dominance and ripped her pants off, threw them across the room and slid two fingers inside of her. She growled and dug her nails into my back as I began to fuck her. I was merciless as I inserted a third finger, intent on making her scream my name. Her moans filled my ears like sweet music, I felt my own climax begin to build, I was completely blind with arousal, she became louder each time I penetrated her, she was so wet, I needed to taste her. Just as she was about to cum, I pulled my fingers out.

"Please!" She begged. "So close.."

"Beg me!" I demanded, bringing my mouth down upon her soaking cunt.

I let my tongue lightly caress her folds, circling her clit, but never touching it.

"Oh my-" She began to convulse.

"Uh uh. Not yet."

"Please, I can't-" I dove my tongue inside of her, tasting her sweet cum. I couldn't get enough, it made my head spin.

"You taste so fucking good."

"Fuck, Bella." she pulled at my hair.
"Mmm, fucking beg for me. Moan my name you slut." I flicked my tongue over her clit, then completely assaulted it, licking and nipping, drunk from her taste and scent.

"I'm going to cum.." She trailed off. "Oh my fucking God, Bella, keep going!" Oh and fuck did I keep going.

I couldn't take it anymore, I was going to cum with her, it was seconds now. Her hands gripped my hair harder, pulling for dear life as a wave of ecstasy consumed us both. All I could hear were incoherent moans and curses that I'd never imagine to come from her sweet mouth as my orgasm only grew stronger. Her cum drenched my mouth as I continued to lick and bite her clit even though I knew she couldn't take anymore. She twitched and convulsed like crazy, I heard her call my name and that did it, it never seemed to end, the pleasure was so excruciating now that I almost begged for it to stop, it was unlike anything I'd ever felt.

"Let me taste my cum." She pulled me up and just like that, forced our lips together with an aggression that caused an aftershock of my subsiding orgasm.

The feeling of her lips was almost enough to send me into another orgasm, she kissed with such passion that when her tongue entered my mouth I returned it with my own, challenging her in a game of authority. They fought together for what seemed minutes until finally both of our orgasms had ended.

Lost of all of my energy, I fell beside her and closed my eyes, still tasting her sweet tongue in my mouth.

Neither of us spoke for a very long time. I feared what would happen when she returned to her right mind. I wondered if she'd regretted it as much as I did. When I found Bella again, I was horrified. I had just fucked my best friend, what the hell had I done? I felt so ashamed. She was going to hate me.

I didn't even want to know what she was thinking.

"Yeah, you probably should have slept with Edward." She finally spoke.

And I couldn't tell whether she was serious or not. But that was among other things I didn't want to think about.

"I don't know what that was.."

"Newborn sex drive. It's not your fault Bella, I'm the one who let it happen. Blame me if anything."

"Why did you let me?" There was another long silence.

"Alice?"

"I don't know, okay." She sat up, and now I could see her beautiful feature contorted with sadness. I couldn't let her be like that.

Her eyes twinkled with confusion and regret, and it was all my fault.

"I'm sorry." I said quietly, I felt defeated, it was over. Things would never be the same.

"Just go- please, I need some time." And for the first time, I felt what it was like to have my heart broken.