I got inspired by a recent promo for iCarly :D
It made me want to write Seddie so bad that I had my writer's block lifted.
So, now I'm going to continue writing for this story as well as my other one.

Oh, and thank you Kpfan72491 for saying something about the promo or I never would have known about it.
Needless to say I feel like my stomach fell out of body because I'm super excited.
I agree with everyone else that if Nickelodeon is playing with us (seddiers) again then there will be a lot of explaining to do.
I will not be toyed with again! :D

Now, onward to my fabulous V.I.P reviewers and the next chapter will include those that favorite the story and/or author (me). If you did that then you need to tell me in a review, PM, or on twitter.

V.I.P Reviewers: MyRedPhoenix, Kpfan72491, johnh8616, drawingtoaclose, xzettax, samandfreddie38, alwayssmiling11, theofficialseddiefan, Hoperocks98, moonyandpadfoot07, Pixaria

-XOX-
Chapter 4: Change Me?
Song of the Chapter: The Moneymaker by Rilo Kiley
**I Don't Suggest Watching the Video, It's Disgusting. Just Listen To The Song.

This was not the way to her house.
They passed by a graveyard, a downtown part of Seattle, and several town homes.
Yeah, this was definitely not the way to her house.

She wasn't going to lie, she was a little afraid of Tony.
He wasn't listening to anything she said, he ran 10 stop lights and was going way past the speed limit.
Where was a cop when you needed one?

"Tony, where are we going?" She questioned, a little more timid than before.

"To your house," He said, amusement flooding his voice.

"You never asked me where I lived" Sam pointed out to him. They were out in a small part of Seattle where there were no streetlights or any form of life.
Just grass and cattle.

"Because I know where you live!" He shouted.

"No you don't! If you did we wouldn't be out here!" Sam shouted back.
She didn't feel safe in this truck and hasn't from the beginning.
Finally, they came to an empty barn in the middle of nowhere.
That was where he pulled in and parked his car, only to look at her.

"Here you are, now get out of my car." He told her as they looked at the barn.

"What are you talking about? This isn't my house." She said, looking at him with wide eyes.
They were a good 30 minutes outside of Seattle.

"Last time I checked, cows lived in a barn" He said to her and all she could do was stand there with her mouth wide open.
He reached in front of her and opened her car door for her.

"Now get out of my car, I can feel you weighing it down" He said to her with a smirk as he watched her get out of his truck.
By the time Sam had turned around to shut the door, he had slammed it shut and reversed the car so quick that she almost developed whiplash.

She was too stunned to even think about crying.
Her real thoughts were figuring out ways to get home.
She was in the middle of nowhere and the only sounds were the wind hitting the trees and the engine in Tony's truck as he sped down the highway.

The sky was a dark color and thunder was starting to sound in the distance.
So now she was stuck in the middle of nowhere in a thunderstorm.

She looked down the road and saw nothing but trees that were being blown by the strong winds starting up.
She could attempt to walk down the road and possibly catch a car but how long would it be before it would start raining?

She didn't know what possessed her to go ahead and start walking but she started down the road to what she thought was the right way to her home.

-XOX-

Freddie had lost track of Tony's truck as he rounded a corner and ran several lights.
Freddie was scared for Sam seeing as she was in the truck with him.

All he did was roll down his windows and follow the screeching of tires as he wove his way through Seattle.
It didn't make sense that he ended up driving in the country side of Seattle which was a good 30 minutes outside of Sam and Freddie's home.

He was a little confused as to where Tony would have taken Sam out here in the middle of absolute nowhere.
It started raining and Freddie was worried that he would never find out where they went.
He had a gut feeling that something wasn't right and usually when he had a bad feeling about something, Sam was usually involved.

The rain was pouring and he was coming up on someone walking down the road.
She had on the same thing Sam had on before she left school...and he realized it was Sam.

He pulled over to try and get her to get in his car.
When she looked up her eyes got really wide and she started running to the car once she recognized whose car it was.

"How did you know where I was?" she panted as she sat on the leather seats of his car.
Leather seats and water definitely don't mix and she kept sliding around in the seat.
She gripped her forearms to brace herself from the cold and she started shivering.

"I didn't..." Freddie said as he searched his car for a towel or a blanket...he only found his brown leather jacket which wasn't going to dry her.
However, it was the only means of warmth besides the heat in his car.

"Then how did you..."

"I followed Tony out here...something didn't sit right with me about him." He cut Sam off, handing the jacket to her but not before he stopped to look her in the face.
Her eyes were red and puffy, making the blue stand out in them.
Her cheeks were pale and he knew those weren't raindrops on her cheeks.

He placed the jacket around her shoulders while he watched her curl up in his car seat with the seatbelt wrapped securely around her waist.
The ride with Tony must have been worse than he thought.

He didn't ask any questions but just drove to Sam's house

-XOX-

Sam had to get out of the car before Freddie saw her cry.
She was sure that he had already seen her eyes but she had avoided looking his way the whole time they were in the car.

Freddie would try to get her to talk to him but she wouldn't move.
She didn't want to bust out crying and then have to depend on him for support.
She wanted to appear strong and keep up her strong attitude.
There was no need to damage her pride.

When he pulled into her driveway she didn't know whether to move or stay seated in the car.
She wanted to talk to him, to tell him everything Tony said to her.
But for some reason, she couldn't.

She turned to him and tried to avoid his gaze.
Sam knew that if she were to look at him that she would surely cry.

"Thank you for coming to get me...I should have listened when you said don't get in the car with him. For once you were right..." She said when she quickly opened the door to the car, giving him a slight smile while trying to avoid his eyes.

She hugged his jacket against her body as she rushed into the house before another strike of lightning found her.
Freddie just sat there confused.

He always knew when something was up with her but he could never make Sam tell him anything.
It either resulted in pain or resentment for ever pushing her to explain anything to him.

He just watched her with his jacket as she ran up the steps to her home.
She didn't give him a second thought before rushing into that house.
So, he left his agonizing questions at the back of his head and turned out into the street.

-XOX-

Sam couldn't do anything but stand in her empty house.
No sign of her mother and it was just her and the mirror...again.

This time she saw things she hadn't seen before.
She took everything that Tony and Anna had said into mind.
Sam felt brainwashed about her own body.

She didn't see herself...she saw an animal.
An ugly animal.
Her blonde hair was matted to her head, her makeup was running down her face along with the tears that followed, and her clothes were soaked from head to toe.
She wasn't herself.
Something felt different.

Before she knew what was happening she was trying to come up with conclusions.
Trying to figure out ways that she could get rid of these thoughts.
Well, surely, trying to get rid of the thoughts would be to change what was causing the thoughts, right?

All she needed to do was change...everything.
She had tried this once before but that was to get a guy...now she was trying to change herself to get rid of the thoughts and words that plagued her mind about her body and face.

Who could she get to help her?
Carly had tried this once before and Sam knew she would refuse the second time around.
Who is someone so pretty, so popular, and so proper that Sam could get help from?

The person that came to mind was someone she knew she couldn't trust.
It was someone that she had had problems with all her life.
Now...she was asking for help?

She rushed over to grab the house phone and began punching in numbers.
She knew her number from all the prank calls that she had made back in middle school.

"Hello?" She answered and Sam stalled.
Was this a good idea?

"Hello?" She asked again, clearly irritated.

"Anna? This is Sam Puckett...I need your help."
After Sam had said that there was a long pause over the phone.
It was as if she was pondering her response.

"...I'm listening"

-XOX-

Okay guys, I'm sorry about the EXTREMELY long wait but I'm back in the game now.
I'm going to try and keep up but final exams are coming up in a few weeks.
The next wait won't be too long since I know exactly where I'm going with this story.
Don't hate me
because I love you guys!

Also, I know Sam is OOC but she's telling you that she feels unlike herself.
She's meant to be OOC in this story.
I also don't know why you guys thought I was going to make something as terrible as getting raped happen to Sam.
That is never and will never be my intent.

However, we've all been in her shoes right?
At one point in time you've felt not good enough or an outcast from the crowd, right?
I know I have and my middle and high school years were pretty bad and depressing.
It's just a little relatable and offers many doors for Seddie

Love you guys!
Keep looking for updates because there will be happening.

Sincerely,
Katy Elaine