"We'll Figure it Out"

PAIRING: Matt Saracen & Julie Taylor

TV SHOW: Friday Night Lights! (BEST TV show on air right now!)

DESCRIPTION: What was going on through this couple's heads at their very last scene in episode 5x09: "Gut Check". Julie is going through the darkest time of her life and feeling absolutely hopeless; but just like always, Matt Saracen gives her four words that take away her worry.

SPOILER: JUST finished watching the LATEST episode; so if you haven't seen "Gut Check" yet and don't want to be spoiled, then I suggest you not read this.

NOTE: The more I look into this couple and analyze (I swear, I'm ALWAYS trying to tap into EVERY character and wanting to know WHY they do the things they do) the more I love them. Yes, Julie made a horrible mistake and she NEEDS to grow up and face it, but its difficult to when she is all by herself in that city. It's not easy; take it from someone who after a year of moving from home was going through some identity issues and wanted to go back to mom and daddy. It took 2 years to overcome it...by myself. I get where Julie is coming from and I very much love Malie because I believe they are perfect for one another and are each other's "safety net." Anyways, enough mumbo jumbo! :P

DISCLAIMER: I do nooooot own anything of "Friday Night Lights." All those rights are reserved to the author Buzz, Mr. Katims, ABC, Direct TV, and a whole bunch of other people. I, sadly, do not contribute ANYTHING to this amazing show…just an OBSESSION!

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(JULIE'S PERSPECTIVE)

"Alright," Matt said as he picked up Julie's remaining items from the concrete. "So…you charged your cell phone?" He turned to look at her.

Julie fiddled around with her keys and the moment his face turned towards hers, she avoided eye contact focused her attention elsewhere. "Yeah."

He closed the door. "If you need gas, there's a gas station just…"

She began to shuffle her feet around. She noticed her body kept being pulled towards Matt's and in the last few days, she would have gladly given in, but his words from yesterday-about him not wanting to be her safety net-kept replaying back in her head and she restrained herself from getting too close to him.

I don't want to be your safety net, his exact words to her. They had hurt because during their entire relationship while he was going through his overbearing responsibilities with his grandmother, attempting to fill the shoes of legendary Jason Street, dealing with his emotions with his estranged mother, and trying to come to terms with his father's death she had been there. Besides Matt's best friend Landry, Julie had been the only one that was aware of the weight that was on Matt's shoulders. She heard his pain, saw the agony, witnessed the challenges a teenager should never encounter.

Matt never complained and only cried to her several times about the hardships in his life. He would talk about his troubles and Julie gladly listened. Mainly because she knew it helped him cope. And she didn't want him facing everything alone. She wanted to be there for him because he was honestly-next to her father-the best man she knew. Every fiber in him was good. There was not a single side of Matt that Julie did not come to love. And with every story he told her, with every word that came out of his mouth, Julie got to know a different side of Matt Saracen that no one else in the world knew about. The smaller reason why she gladly listened to Matt was because she believed that if ever there was a time she would come to need someone, Matt would be there for her without hesitation.

She had made a horrible mistake and she had gone back to Dillion because she had lost her way and needed guidance. However, within a week of being there, her parents-who she had always been her biggest support system-turned her away. She wasn't ready to face her real life and needed more time to digest everything, so she turned towards the third person most important in her life: Matt.

She knew it would come to a point with Matt where he would push her towards going back to school and facing her skeletons; however, she never believed he would tell her he didn't want to be there for her.

After everything they had gone through-even if they weren't together as a romantic couple-Julie believed Matt's friendship would always be there. Guess she had been proven wrong. She didn't know why she was so surprised. Everything in her life was becoming upside down anyways.

Julie took some steps away from Matt. She couldn't be so close to him. It hurt too much.

She noticed Matt taking some steps towards her. "Right around the corner over there."

His voice and accent weren't helping any. She didn't know what she wanted to do more at that moment: drive off as fast as possible or pull Matt into a kiss.

She restrained. "Yeah, I'm fine. I just kinda wanna get out before there's too much traffic." She gave him a slight smile. Even though she was frustrated and mad and disappointed, she didn't want him to think she hated him.

He slight pained look came across his face as he gave a nod. "Right."

There was a moment of silence.

She hated awkward moments. Especially with Matt. Moments between them were rarely awkward. "So, um, thanks for the hospitality."

He had taken some steps towards her again and she reached over to hug him. What she really wanted to do was kiss him, but she didn't think it'd be a good idea.

The hug was of course awkward.

"Yeah." Matt's voice gave a hint of pain. Julie didn't know what to make of it. He wanted her gone so she wouldn't dump all of this on him, right? Then why did he sound as bad as she felt?

She couldn't look him in the eye. She felt tears beginning to form and her throat was growing a knot. She had to get the hell out of there.

Julie opened her door and got into the car. As she got the car out of the parking spot, she dared not look up to see Matt. She was leaving. And looking at him would make it worse. God, she felt as if someone was stabbing her repeatedly across her heart.

He was looking at her, she could feel his eyes. She could always feel his eyes. But she couldn't dare. She continued to drive off. Drive away from Matt. And she knew that with the words said yesterday and with the lack of words said to each other today, once she drove off today, it would be the last of Matt she would see or hear from. She could never trust him with her feelings again. Ever.

With as much strength she could muster, she drove.

Alone. No one there with her.

Then, she faintly heard her name. At first, she brushed it off, thinking it was just her imagination. But a second later, she heard it again. Was that Matt? she asked herself as she looked in the review mirror.

Matt was now running towards her. She hit her breaks the moment he reached her car.

Her heart began to race. What was he doing?

"Jules-hey. Stop," he said once he got to her door.

She looked up at him. God, please, Matt. She didn't know what it was she was expecting from him or what she was begging him for, but she prayed he had something to tell her that would help her get through this.

"Just-" Matt took the door handle and opened her door. Then, he reached for her door and guided her out of the car.

Her heart would not stop racing. Please, Matt. Again, she didn't know what she was pleading for as she stared into those gorgeous baby blues. The river she easily would fall into and drown time and time again.

His soft hands caressed her face on either end and he gently pulled her towards him. His face embraced hers. "It's all gonna be ok, alright?" he whispered lovingly.

His words and touch broke through her. The wall she had up some minutes ago came tumbling down.

"We'll figure this out," he promised to her and pulled her into an embrace.

We. That's what she had been wanting from Matt.

Even though Julie had fought it-twice already-there was no sense in avoiding it anymore. The moment she had left Dillion to head back to school and she had called up Derek, an epiphany had come to her. Matt was everything she ever could or ever want to be with. The first time she had broken up with him in the beginning of her sophomore year, she had been too scared; too frightened. She was only 15 years old and she had not been ready to for those feelings and that commitment with him. And the second time she broke up with him again almost a year ago, Julie was afraid of losing her self identity. But during college, without Matt, she didn't have one. Although she had her own separate life and independence, Matt was a big part of it. They were meant to be.

And she had believed Matt had always known this and believed that once in Chicago Matt and her would easily fall into place. However, the other night she had doubted it, but now her faith in her and Matt were taking shape again.

With Matt's support, she would go back to school, face her exams, and plan to move here to Chicago to be with him.

God, she loved him. More than she had come to know in the last four years of knowing him. She had fought it for so long, but she didn't want to anymore.

They heard a honk and Matt pulled away. She saw the anguish in his face and knew he was feeling the same as her. They had to separate.

"I love you," Julie said with all her heart and soul.

"I love you." God, she missed hearing those words coming from him. She hadn't realized until now.

She reached up and they kissed.

He pulled back slowly and looked at her with a heartbreaking look.

Julie had seen that look before. It had been the same one her father had on during the last half of her freshman year when he would leave for TMU and would leave her and her mom behind. And until now, she knew exactly how hard it had been for her mother when she had to separate from her father during that difficult time.

But, she needed to face her demons. Be an adult and deal with the fall.

She climbed back into her car and Matt closed the door. She started again to drive off, only this time with more confidence. Matt was with her. He had her. Just as she had him.

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AN: So, I always wanna get in the minds of my favorite characters and FNL has some of the BEST characters I have ever watched. They are so real and true and authentic. The writers and actors (who improv a LOOOOOT on the show) are amazing. It's easy to slip into the minds of them (at least it was for me).

I love this couple. I wasn't a fan of Julie's in the beginning of this season and in the first few episodes in season 2, but stepping back and talking about her with other fans of the show, I can wrap my head around her more. She's a teenager (not that it's an excuse) and she makes mistakes. Throughout the rest of the series, she has been consistent and has had a great head on her shoulders. There's no reason to prosecute her for a big mistake she made at 18 years old.

I love her and Matt together and looking back since season 1, I think they are the most stable relationship (of the young ones) on the show and the only one that will last. The other young couples, I don't see surviving past high school/college.

ANYWAY-boy, I can TALK!-Next chapter will be Matt's Perspective during that last scene.

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