Hi ! it's been a while since I wrote about Alexander and Hephaistion. More than 4 years. It's also been a while since I wrote a fiction in english. English is not my mother tongue and if someone wants to contact me to beta my fic, I'll be very happy ^^

For some unknown reasons, here I am, ready again to write about our dear couple. I guess I missed them and needed to come back to them.

This fic will be about the " without me you are nothing " that Alexander said to Hephaistion. Yes I know you read tons of fanfics about it already. I hope you will still give mine a chance and read mine.

As always , I picture Hephaistion as a very strong and wise person. In this fiction, Hephaistion will not let Alexander having his way with what he said to him and he is ready to " fight " his lover in his own way to teach him a lesson. A lesson That , Alexander will never forget, at least it's what Hephaistion hopes . Will their love survive what Hephaistion is planning to do? Will Alexander is ready to face the reality?

Disclaimer : Alexander and Hephaistion belong to History. I will borrow some character's names from an Anime called Arslan ( but only the names and a bit of the way they behave and their looks but , this is not a cross over fic ). Alexander movie belongs to Oliver Stone.

Prologue

Hephaistion's pov.

I should have seen it coming. After what happened with Cleitus, I should have seen it coming. But I didn't. Maybe because I turned a blind eye. I never liked Cleitus and I was too obssess myself with my owns dreams and goals to actually see that Alexander was loosing himself.

My awakening had been very rude and shocking. " Without me , you are nothing " He said to me , in front of everybody. He didn't know why I was fighting with Crateros. He didn't even try to know about it. It hurt me, but I knew Alexander always had a short temper and didn't always think before speaking. I knew that but this time , it had been different. I've seen it in his eyes, the way he looked at me, the way he shouted it, his tone. Yes this time, he believed in what he had said to me. I had no doubts . Once I recovered from the shock of this revelation, I felt so angry. Angry in a way I never had been before. I went straight into my tent and ravage all the stuff that were on my way. I scared my pages away. I destroyed a chair or two. When I was done, I was breathless. I sat on the floor. My mind was temporary blank. I neeeded that. I needed to calm down. I welcomed the silent.

I didn't move until I was sure I was able to control myself. I needed to speak with Alexander about what he had done . " without me , you are nothing " I said at loud. I guessed Alexander was right. In a way without him , I was nothing. I loved him, I dédicated my life to him and I worked so very hard for him. Yes , indeed my life had been all about Alexander. But, in Alexander mouth's It hadn't been that meaning at all. The words had felt dirty and insulting.

I didn't care that he was the almighty king , Alexander the great. I wanted him to know how much he had been wrong to speak theses words to me . Who was this king anyway? Who was Alexander now? I barely recognized him at all. He was a perfect stranger now. I let Alexander become someone he should had never became. I felt guilty for my blindness.

"Without me you are nothing " I repeated the words. I clenched my fist. I stood up and watched the mess I did in my own room. I decided I needed to do something about what he said to me. I was going to confront him and if I had been right about what Alexander thought of me. Then , the war between us would start. A terrible war that I was ready to engage. A war to save my honnor, to save Alexander from his behavior and madness but a war which was able to destroy Alexander 'empire and all my dreams with it. A war that could also be the end of Alexander 's love for me and put a death sentence on me . I knew the risks and I was prepared to loose everything.

At the moment, a memories came to me . A sunny day at Pella. When we were young and alone , near a river.

" Why do you love me Alexander ?" I asked curious.

Alexander turned his head toward an eagle who happened to cross the sky at the same moment.

"Look , Hephaistion, that eagle. He has larges and powerfuls wings, he can go anywhere he wants But for unknown reason he always stays around. He sees everything from where he is . When he is targetting his prey he never misses. He is impressive and beautiful. He is just a bird but he looks divine in the way he is dominating the sky and the winds . Why he is so close to us and yet remains a mystery to us? Does he know how much he facisnates me? Is he aware of his power? Will he stays around forever? How can I keep him nearby Hephaistion? "

I smiled. I knew that he was comparing the eagle to me and I was so touched by his words .

He looked at me with so much love. " What do you think Hephaistion? "

"I think, you are too poetic Alexander " then I jumped in the river.

The memories left me with a smile. " I had been trapped in your cage too long, let's see if I 'm still able to dominate the sky and the winds? " I said to myself.