Title: iCan't do this without You

Author: Mrpointyhorns aka Blemery

Rating: PG

Status: In Progress

Part: 1

Pairings: Freddie/Lucas, later Sam/Pete and Carly/Griffin

Warnings: Slash

Spoilers: iMake Sam Girler, iGo Nuclear, iDate a Bad Boy, iReunite with Missy(possibly)

Summary: A long one shot where Freddie and Lucas struggle come to terms with their almost feelings!

Beta: None.

Disclaimer: This story is based on characters and situations created and owned by someone else. No money is being made and no copyright or trademark infringement is intended.

A/N: Okay, I'm sorry. I lied! I said that the last story iHave a Secret would be 5 chapters. But, after reading over the story I felt like the story ended during the fourth chapter where Carly and Freddie make up resolving the conflict. This moves on to another conflict and I couldn't see combine it with the original story. I was going to completely cut it, but I think it makes a good long one shot! I have another story in the works that will be longer!

When Lucas came, over dress up in slacks and a button down green shirt, Freddie was impressed. He had said before that he didn't care what Lucas looked like or what he wore, but seeing Lucas dressed up like that, for him, it really did make a difference. Freddie's mom made Lucas come inside so that they could take photos.

"We're not going to prom." Freddie pointed out.

"I know, but it is your first date with him, Freddie. I'm going to do this for prom too you know," Marissa said. She made them stand shoulder to shoulder, then with their arms around each other, then facing each other, then in front of the window, then kissing, and then sitting on the couch, then Freddie sitting and Lucas standing.

"Mom we're going to be late for the movie," Freddie finally said. He wanted to have the pictures too, but really he couldn't see how more pictures with them in different positions were going to be better. Plus, if he didn't go on the date then the pictures wouldn't represent him going on a date. That would defeat the whole purpose.

"Okay. Alright. You boys go and have fun. Are you sure you don't need me to drive?" Marissa asked.

"No, I can drive," Lucas reminded she smiled realizing her mistake. "When we come back you can take more pictures if you want."

"You're too sweet, but I'm not going to wait up. But I set my alarm for 2 am and if you boys are not in bed I will use my GPS to locate you," Marissa warned.

"Mom!" Freddie yelped. He took Lucas's hand. "Let's go."

"What is she talking about?" Lucas asked.

"Nothing it's nothing," Freddie promised. He led Lucas out of the apartment and then down the stairs out of the building. Then he looked at Lucas. "Well since you wanted to surprise me…"

Lucas smiled. He held on to Freddie's hand and led him in the direction he wanted to go. It was only two blocks south and one east so it wasn't that far, and it gave them a chance to talk. Only they were very quiet. It was Freddie's first real date and even though he had been dating Lucas for a while it was kind of different. He didn't know what to say on a date opposed to what to say when he was just hanging out with Lucas. Were they supposed to just talk about certain things like marriage or future plans? He already knew a bunch of things about Lucas so he it wasn't like he could ask Lucas what he liked to do, what his favorite color was. He knew these things already. But he wasn't sure if he could just start talking like they normally would talk if they weren't on a date. Lucas was quiet too, but Freddie wasn't sure if he was nervous or just concentrating on where they were going.

They stopped at a Van's Bistro Freddie had been there before, since it wasn't far from his house. It had really delicious burgers. He didn't go often because his mother didn't really trust meat that she didn't prepare herself, but Freddie had gone a few times with other people. Sam really liked the restaurant, but she preferred to get her meat for free like from Carly's refrigerator. Freddie smiled when Lucas opened the door. He put a hand on the small of Freddie's back to help him into the restaurant. Not that Freddie really needed help, but the gesture was appreciated for the thought. Lucas spoke with the host. He was a young man who looked around seventeen. He looked at them somewhat bored.

"Hi, table for two it's under Lucas." Lucas took Freddie's hand when Freddie stopped beside them; they had stopped holding hands when Lucas opened the door for him. Freddie smiled happy that Lucas was so eager to hold his hand. It was such a small gesture, but it was the first time that Freddie had someone who wanted to do that. Carly had never been interested in holding his hand or anything else. He understood that she couldn't help that she didn't return his feelings for her, but her not doing it made him appreciate Lucas more for doing it.

The host glanced at the list of reservations and then at the map of the restaurant tables. He looked up and then down at their hands. He looked a little startled. Surprised. Maybe just because he hadn't noticed before and the hand holding thing had changed the situation and that surprised him, but maybe not. He cleared his throat. "Uh…I…this way." He said. He crossed off the name and the table before leading them into the restaurant. They at a booth that was kind of private near that back of the restaurant. The restaurant was semi crowded it was Saturday but because they were seeing a movie later, they were at the restaurant a little before rush. The restaurant was only about half full.

Freddie was a little surprised when Lucas sat on the booth beside him instead of across from him, but he didn't fight it he just moved over. The host was shifting around on his feet and pushed the menus at them quickly. "Uh…I…we…have you been here before?"

"I have." Freddie looked at Lucas.

"Nah, but you can explain to me right?" Lucas asked.

"Sure." Freddie nodded looking back at the host. "We're good."

"Okay, but just so you know the soup is minestrone and the house burger is the four cheeses and bacon. There is also a bacon avocado that is around for only the month." The host spoke fast and he was shifting and looking around. "I'll get your waiter."

Freddie watched him run away. "Gee…"

"Don't worry about him. I don't think he cared." Lucas turned to look at Freddie.

"What? How was that him not caring?" Freddie asked.

"I thought he was more concerned about someone who he thought might care. That's why he was looking around. Maybe someone he works with." Lucas shrugged his shoulders. "He didn't seem to care."

"Oh." Freddie shrugged either way it was still awkward. "SO what are you going to get to drink?"

"A lemonade." Lucas looked at Freddie like he was being sort of weird; asking about dinner was one thing asking about drinks was another.

"You really like lemonade don't you?" Freddie asked.

"Yes. I like how it's never the same. You can go to any place and it will always be different. Sometimes sweeter sometimes more sourer. It's just so delicious."

"Better than rootbeer?" Freddie asked.

"Well I was going to get that at the theater." Lucas admitted. "Why do they have specialty rootbeer here?"

"No I think its just coke's." Freddie replied.

"Have you ever tried Virgil's? It is so smooth, but it has an excellent bite just at the end. Did you know that rootbeer is made out of actual roots and its brewed just like real beer and it naturally doesn't have caffeine in it and the sugar comes from the root not from sugar cane or anything?" Lucas asked.

"Dude you know a lot about rootbeer." Freddie laughed. He leaned over and hugged Lucas because of his silliness was making him relax more and be more normal with Lucas.

"Well I was going do a Fяed video about rootbeer and how awesome it is. But it started to get a little too educational so I decided to let the information stew until I can make it funny and a little educational," Lucas said.

"Cool! You can make fun of all those television shows where it's about kids going on a field trip to a factor. Like Fяed going to a rootbeer brewery."

"I don't know any." Lucas pointed out. "But it would be cool to go to one."

"Totally cool." Freddie agreed.

"How you guys doing?" Freddie blinked looking up. The waiter was standing in front of them. He had a red shirt on with the Van's logo so it was clear that he worked there.

"We're good." Lucas said.

"Great can I get you something to drink?" The waiter asked.

"Yes, I would like a lemonade and Freddie…?"

"A cherry coke please." Freddie said.

"Extra cherries." Lucas looked at the waiter. "You can bring extra right?"

"Sure." The waiter shrugged his shoulders. "I'll be right back with those."

"I love cherries." Lucas grinned.

"You're adorable." Freddie smiled back. He looked down at the menu. Since he had been there before he already knew which burgers he liked he just had to pick one. He would probably get the Jack Daniels burger. He loved the sauce it was so good as long as he made sure not to get any onions.

"Well I know what I'm going to get," Lucas said putting his menu aside. "Are you done?"

Freddie nodded. "I'm getting the Jack Daniels burger."

"I'm getting the jalapeño buffalo burger."

"That's really spicy Lucas." Freddie pointed out. Lucas nodded that he knew and Freddie backed off. "So…"

Lucas looked at him leaning forward and made a gesture for Freddie to continue. When he didn't he sat back up and tilted his head to the side. "What's up baby boy?"

Freddie blinked. He didn't know what he had wanted to say. He didn't know what to say. The early issues about saying something date like were rearing their head, but after the lemonade/rootbeer thing he wasn't sure if it was all that big of deal. "Do you want to get married?"

"Not tonight." Lucas replied. He tilted his head more and started to blink even more. "Do you want to get married?"

"Well not tonight either, but yes in the future I want to get married and I want to have kids or adopt them, whatever, I want to raise kids." Freddie looked at Lucas. "I want like five, but I want to try it with two first and see if I can handle it."

"Don't babies come one at a time? And why are we talking about this? Dude we're not even out of high school." Lucas asked.

"It's a date don't people talk about this at dates?" Freddie asked.

"I don't think so. I think this is the kind of thing that makes most guys run away, but again we're still in High School so I wasn't really assuming you were talking about today, or next week or in a month or anytime soon," Lucas said. "I don't even know if you were talking about it like you thought that maybe we would get married."

"Oh sorry." Freddie frowned feeling so stupid. He looked away. There were silences for a few moments, but then the drinks were being placed in front of them. Freddie looked up when he heard the sound of the cups being set down.

"Okay one lemonade and one cherry coke with extra cherries. Now what can I get you to eat?" The waiter asked.

"He wants a Jack Daniels burger and I will have a jalapeño buffalo burger." Lucas ordered for both of them. "They come with fries right?"

"Yup, string, steak, curly or chips."

"String." Lucas looked at Freddie. Freddie nodded. "String for him too."

"Okay. Awesome thanks guys," The waiter said walking away.

Freddie turned to his drink pushing the cherries around with his straw. He liked to save the cherries for last so he pushed most over them to the bottom. "Okay Freddie what gives?"

Freddie looked at Lucas threw the corner of his eye. He looked concerned, worried. It made Freddie feel even more awkward and guilty! "I'm sorry Luke. I guess I'm really not good at this dating thing."

"You're just trying to hard dude. Come on it's just me!" Lucas leaned close bumping shoulders with him. "I know I picked you up for our date even though I didn't have to, but this really isn't a first date. We already know each other. If anything our first date was all our online chatting, or when I came over so we could make up on iCarly.

"Okay." Freddie nodded. He didn't feel better though. If this wasn't the first date then he was really out of his league. He didn't know what to do on a first one how was he supposed to know what to do on whatever number this was one?

Lucas nudged Freddie again. Then he put his arm around Freddie's shoulder and shook him a gently. "Come on Freddie don't think about it so much okay. Just relax. Relax." Lucas wiggled them around silly on the booth and Freddie had to smile at how stupid they must look. He pushed Lucas away. "At least I got a smile. Do you feel better?"

"Yeah kinda. So basically you're saying we can just be normal with each other?" Freddie asked.

"Sure we're just normal with each other, only in public." Lucas put his arm around Freddie again but he didn't shake him or jiggle them. He just kept his arm around Freddie. "Just like normal see?"

"Yeah." Freddie nodded. "So…have you been working on your robot?"

"Like you wouldn't believe, but I'm not telling you anything you spy." Lucas reached for his lemonade taking a sip of it. "You're going down."

"Aw you can't do that to me can you?" Freddie pouted.

"Yes I can. I will do it and I will be happy about it and I'll wiggle my ass in front of your face and laugh and say niener niener niener!"

"You…you're…you're so mature." Freddie glared.

"I'll still be a winner so who cares." Lucas laughed.

"Okay I'll give you that." Freddie laughed too. He leaned forward kissing the corner of Lucas's mouth. "Now will you let tell me?"

"What do you think I am easy?" Lucas asked.

"I had to try." Freddie shrugged. "Do you want tongue?"

"Yeah I want tongue, but I'm still not going to tell you." Lucas leaned closer.

Freddie stopped him. "You get tongue only if you tell, or if the movies sucks or after the date."

"My will power is strong Freddie! I can kiss you way more without tongue than you can kiss me without it." Lucas warned.

"How would that even work? If you kissed me with tongue I'd be kissing you with tongue so we'd both give in at the same time." Freddie pointed out.

"You don't know I could like to watch movies that suck." Lucas shrugged taking another drink of lemonade.

"I like some movies that suck; it depends on how it sucks. Was it meant to be suckish? Was it a B film, did I know it was going to suck to begin with? Would the plot suck less if the actors were better? Would the actors suck less if the plot was better? I take all of that into consideration." Freddie explained.

"Oh I totally know what you mean. I was going to come up with a rating system for suckish movies, but then I realized I would have to watch the good suckish movies and the bad ones so I decided not to." Lucas pulled his straw out of his lemonade. "Can I have a cherry?"

"Sure." Freddie pushed his soda over to Lucas. He watched as Lucas used the straw. He grabbed a cherry from the bottom by sucking and pulling the straw up. Freddie stared. He didn't know if that was really possible the force of Lucas's sucking had to be really great because the cherry was so far away and pretty large. He usually just stabbed the cherries with the straws. Freddie watched Lucas pull the cherry from the straw. He brought it to his lips and sucked the soda off of it then he bit down almost in slow motion. Freddie gulped. Okay maybe Lucas did have more will power than he did. Lucas ate the other half of the cherry and then he put the stem in his mouth. Freddie continued to watch as Lucas maneuvered his lips around for a bit and then pulled out the tied cherry stem. "I wish I was a cherry."

Lucas looked up at him smiling. He leaned closer putting his hands on Freddie's cheeks he kissed him gently. Freddie made a soft sound in the back of his throat, but before anything else could happen their burgers were placed in front of them.

Freddie pulled away looking up at the waiter. Lucas pulled away too and glared at little at the waiter for interrupting them. The waiter didn't say anything and turned around walking away. Freddie made a, "Hmm." But didn't say anything.

Lucas looked at Freddie. "Ketchup?"

"Sure." Freddie asked. His burger had sauce on it but he liked ketchup with his fries. He let Lucas know when to stop. He picked up his burger and took a large bite as Lucas put ketchup on his bun and fries. Freddie chewed his food normally until he thought he chewed something crunchy. He slowed as he tried to figure out what it was. He didn't like onions so that wasn't it. He chewed and chew, but didn't figure it out until he swallowed. His eyes widened and he pulled his burger away opening the bun. Inside was a clump of curly dark hair. He gagged and pushed the burger away. He grabbed his soda and drank in down quickly and then he grabbed Lucas's lemonade and drank that as well.

"That's really sick." Lucas said when Freddie finally looked at him. Lucas was inspecting Freddie's burger carefully.

"Yeah I think so!" Freddie snapped. Lucas frowned. "Sorry. I know it's not your fault."

Lucas nodded his understanding. "I hope they're from someone's head."

"Of course they are. Where else would they be from?" Freddie asked still a little blunt. As soon as he snapped out at Lucas again he realized there were lots of other places, like arms, legs, pits, pubes, Freddie felt sick immediately. "I think I'm going to be sick."

"Are you just saying that…?" Lucas asked but he stood up. Freddie jumped up and hurried to the bathroom. He didn't get sick but he did wash out his mouth and used soap. Then he washed his hands and his face before going back to the table. Lucas hadn't followed him and he was grateful to that. He was embarrassed already and he didn't want Lucas to see him being all neurotic. When Freddie returned to the table Lucas was talking to a man in a tie and a sports coat. Freddie didn't hear what he said, but the man didn't seem happy. Freddie didn't get closer until the man left the table. Freddie then returned. Lucas had his phone and handed it to him. "Come on we're going."

"But…" Freddie frowned. He didn't want to go. It was their date. Maybe their only one for a while and he didn't want it to be ruined just because of some stupid joke.

"Don't worry. He's getting us something to go." Lucas said. He stepped closer to Freddie hugging him. Freddie relaxed a little. He hadn't realized that he was shaking until his hands stopped when he wrapped his arms around Lucas's waist. He rested his head on Lucas's shoulder. "Hey it's okay. It's not your fault okay."

"Okay." Freddie nodded feeling better, but he was still embarrassed.

Lucas kissed Freddie on the ear as he pulled away. He took Freddie's hand and they went to the front of the restaurant. Lucas stood next to him as they waited for their to-go meals. Lucas kept hold of his hand. He squeezed it several times and eventually Freddie relaxed.

"So what are we going to do now?" Freddie asked.

"We're going to get our food and head over to the theater. We can eat it there before we get tickets and then we'll go in a watch the movie. Are you okay with that?" Lucas asked.

Freddie didn't want to ruin the night and suggest going home after what happened. Even though it would be nice to crawl into a hole and die because of embarrassment. "That's sounds great just as long as I get to see how you tied up that cherry stem."

"Oh I can show you," Lucas leaned in. Freddie tilted his head up slightly, but no kiss came. Freddie turned his head to the side looking at Lucas curiously, but he didn't say anything before Lucas responded. "You're trying to trick me aren't you?"

"Lucas." Freddie whined. He took a small step away from Lucas.

"Hey, babe come on. I don't care about losing."

"Really?" Freddie asked. He wasn't really upset. He knew they were just playing with each other. It was nice and light because of what just happened over dinner.

"Yes really." Lucas grinned. He leaned closer and kissed Freddie for half of a second.

"Boys, your take away." The manager cleared his throat. He held out the dinner. "I really am sorry. I don't think they were trying to be malicious just funny, but it will be taken care of."

"Well it wasn't funny, but thank you." Lucas took the food and the manager turned to leave. "Ready, Freddie?"

"Yup." Freddie hopped up and took Lucas's free hand. They left the restaurant and Lucas brought them over to his car. He held Freddie's door open for him and gave Freddie the take away so that he could hold it on his lap. Lucas drove them to the movie theater, and they stayed in the parking lot to eat their new meals, both checked for any hair before they started to chow down. Neither of them said too much while they were eating. Freddie didn't mind, it wasn't awkward at all. Even if they didn't say much he constantly found that he and Lucas would stop eating, sometimes in mid bite to stare at each other. Freddie thought it was pretty strange when Sam stared with her mouth slightly open when she was eating it was just gross however when Lucas did it Freddie thought it was adorable. Was that love? Freddie wasn't sure, but he knew he didn't want the feeling to go away.

After they finished eating they Freddie waited in line with Lucas. They decided to go see Arthur since it was supposed to be funny. "Do you want popcorn or a drink?"

"I'm kind of full from dinner." Freddie admitted. "But I could share a rootbeer."

"Alright, rootbeer it is." Lucas brought them a large it was almost bigger than Freddie's head. "How do they expect someone to drink one of these without having to go to the bathroom in the middle of the movie?"

"I don't think they really care as long as you don't pee in their seats." Freddie shrugged. "I'm usually okay if I don't start drinking the drink until after the previews start."

"Right but I usually drink most of my drink before the movie even starts." Lucas agreed.

Freddie shrugged. "Maybe they hope that you'll have to see the movie again if you leave during the middle?"

"Very clever." Lucas agreed. He led them into the theater. It was one of those big theaters with the stadium seating, which made it almost impossible for someone's head to block the screen. So Lucas led them up almost all the way to the top but not close enough so they could hear the projector whirling during quieter scenes. The theater was kind of full already so they had to sit a little left of center.

Lucas put the cup down in the holder between them. He took Freddie's hand once he was sitting down and comfortable. "Do you know how awesome this is?"

"Going on a date?" Freddie asked.

"Yeah, that being four hours away from you is not easy dude," Lucas admitted.

Freddie nodded. He didn't really want to think about that. The last couple of days had been really nice. It was great having Lucas around, and he didn't want to think that it was soon going to be over. He just wanted to enjoy the time they had.

Lucas probably noticed Freddie's silent response so he changed the subject. He made some comments about the ads and trivia that came up on the scene. Freddie joined in they joked at the bad music video and they talked a little bit about the movie that they were going to see. Freddie hadn't seen the original but Lucas had and he said it was really funny. He was hoping this movie would be just as funny.

Then the lights went down and the previews played followed by the movie. They didn't really talk during the movie although they were both laughing and occasionally one would ask if the other thought something was funny or explain quickly why they laughed when the other person didn't. So it was really surprising that part way into the movie one of the movie ushers shined a flashlight in their eyes.

"We've been getting some complaints about you boys." The usher said he was a few years older than they were and he was dressed up in a red vest and black pants. He had a badge on his uniform that said Josh.

"You have?" Freddie looked confused.

Lucas was just annoyed. "We're trying to watch the movie?"

"So is everyone else, but we've had some complaints. This is a family theater," Josh said he looked a little uncomfortable but had authority in his voice.

Freddie looked at Lucas and Lucas looked at him. They weren't really sure what to say about that. What did that even mean? Lucas looked back at Josh first. "We laughing too loud were we?"

"No, but we had some complaints about your other behavior. Sharing a drink, touching." Josh was trying to be quiet because of the rest of the people around them, but it was no use everyone was looking at them. Freddie glanced around at the people closest to them. He didn't remember seeing anyone get up to tattle on them and no one around them looked guilty. Actually, most of them looked curious, some of them seemed annoyed because of the interruption and others seemed to be just as confused at Lucas and Freddie were.

"We only bought one drink." Lucas pointed to the cup. "Why wouldn't we share?"

"Well…if you don't want to cooperate. Then you can just come with me and we'll go down to the manager's office and we'll call your parents to come pick you up. We'll let them know about all of this."

"You know normally my mom might be a little concerned about me sharing drinks, but she knows that we kiss so sharing drinks really isn't a big deal."

Josh glared. "Alright that's it let's go." He reached down and grabbed Freddie by the sleeve of his shirt.

"Hey! Don't touch him." Lucas jumped up to his feet. Josh was bigger than Lucas, but Lucas stole Freddie's arm and sleeve back anyway. "If you want us to leave then we're going."

"Lucas." Freddie didn't want to leave. He wanted to finish the movie, but he didn't think that was going to be very likely so reluctantly he stood up and followed Lucas out of the theater. He noticed that the other people in the theater didn't seem happy about it like Freddie thought they should be if they had really complained about them. In fact a few people stopped Josh on his way down and asked for a refund because they'd just missed a good portion of the movie because of the distribution no one said anything about Freddie or Lucas.

Lucas led them out of the theater and back to his car before Josh could catch up to him. "Damn it." Lucas swore kicking the back tire of his car. "What a fucking asshole."

"Hey, hey," Freddie moved closer. He was a little cautious because Sam was always violent to him when she was emotional. He wrapped his arms around Lucas hugging him so that Lucas's shoulder was against Freddie's chest. "Hey calm down Luke. It's okay."

"It's not okay Freddie! He just kicked us out for holding hands and sharing a drink. You know things that people do on a date. We weren't even in a kid's movie and it's 10 at night! So I don't know what families are out right now. It's not okay!"

"Maybe it's not." Freddie was still kind of confused. He knew that Josh had kicked them out because they were guys, but since he didn't see anyone that complained about them and they weren't being vulgar he didn't understand what happened.

"Fuck him." Lucas swore. Freddie looked up. Lucas was clearly more upset than Freddie was. Freddie could see the humiliation and anger in his eyes. Lucas wanted this to be an awesome date but so far that hadn't happened. Freddie moved closer to Lucas putting his arms around him hesitantly, in case Lucas wasn't in the mood to be consoled. "Freddie, I'm so sorry."

"Hey don't apologize. You didn't do anything wrong." Freddie pressed his lips to Lucas's temple. "Even if our date was kind of messed up, I still think it was great just hanging out with you. Having you here with me."

"Yeah but you would have liked it more if we hadn't been kicked out right?"

"Of course, but it isn't the first time I've been kicked out of a place." Lucas looked at him skeptically. "Sam?"

"Oh." Lucas smiled a little.

"Hey I saw that smile. I caught you!" Freddie teased pointing a finger at Lucas's smile. This just caused Lucas to smile more. "That's better. Come on let's go back to my place and play video games."

"Hey what about my goodnight kiss?" Lucas asked.

"We can do that when my mom goes to sleep." Freddie smiled widely. Lucas nodded he hugged Freddie briefly and then they broke away getting in the car and going home.

A/N: I hope you guys liked chapter one of the new story! I think this story might be a little darker. How did you guys like the new episode? I really didn't like it at all. It's not that I don't like Seddie I just felt like it was probably the worst possible way to get them together, ever. I didn't get a happy feeling.