A/N: So this is it and I had this written a while ago and I think I have been holding myself back from posting it because I don't want it to be over. I love this story so much and I love everyone of you who has reviewed and inspired me to write.
A huge thank you to one of my favourite people in the whole world, Shelly. I dedicate this story to you because you have helped me through so much in the short time that I've known you and I know that this wouldn't be finished if it wasn't for you. Please don't ever stop being you. X
Chapter 86
Kurt stared at his reflection in the mirror, a nervous smile on his face as he tugged the material of his shirt down. "You look fine Kurt." His dad said as he walked into his son's room. "You look ready for school."
"I know, I'm just..."
"Nervous?" Burt offered sitting on the edge of his son's bed. Once Kurt was finished adjusting his white shirt and waistcoat he came and sat down beside him. "You know if you don't feel ready for this..."
"I'm ready dad." Kurt said confidently. "It's just been a while, I'm feeling a bit..."
"I know." he rubbed his back softly. "I'm so proud of you Kurt." Burt said wrapping his arm around him and hugging him. "You know that right?"
"I know." Kurt smiled.
"It's your first day back today, don't push yourself too much, if you need to take five minutes then take five minutes." Burt said, he had spoken to Kurt about this last night, Kurt had told him over and over that it would be okay. He would have Blaine so he knew that he would be okay. Kurt smiled when he heard the bell rang. That would be Blaine.
"Thanks dad, for everything." Kurt wrapped his arms around his dad and cuddled him, he kissed his cheek then grabbed his bag and skipped down the stairs, more excited about seeing his boyfriend than going to school.
"Hey," Blaine grinned once Kurt opened the door. Kurt smiled back and wrapped his arms around his boyfriend, pressing his lips against his cheek.
"Ready for your first day?" Kurt asked.
"You sound like my Mom." Blaine chuckled holding him tight, he loved holding Kurt.
"And my dad." Kurt smiled, he shouted goodbye and closed the door. "He's been asking if I'm ready and everything, I know he just worries but I don't like to be babied."
"I know you don't." Blaine rolling his eyes. "My Mom was the same though, I think if I stayed any longer then she would have offered to drive me to school."
"That would have made a great first impression." Kurt teased, Blaine chuckled and led his boyfriend to the car.
"We have glee tonight after school, you're joining it right?" Kurt asked, they had spoken about the clubs they would join and Blaine had agreed to join glee, but Kurt just wanted to make sure. Last year watching all the couples in glee had been hell for him, watching them sing love songs together, watching them sing songs about breaking up. Kurt wanted to do that, well maybe not the breaking up part.
"Yes," Blaine grinned kissing his cheek as he started to drive. "I've already decided what song I'm going to audition with."
"You have?" Kurt gasped.
"I have." Blaine winked, and that was all he was going to say on the matter.
Kurt didn't think he would be this tired after his first day back at school. He figured it was because the past couple of months he hadn't been doing much physically during the day, but it was refreshing to feel like this. For the first time in a long time he was feeling like he had actually done something worthwhile during the day. In most of the classes he had known most of what the teachers were saying, but he didn't complain, he just got on with the work talking to a few of the friends who were still in school and had not moved on. Sadly it was most of Kurt's good friends who had left, Finn wasn't there and neither was Mercedes. Even though he had Blaine it would have been nice to have them around, though he knew he would see them all the time – especially Finn who was still at home, helping Burt with the garage until he knew what he wanted to do with his life. Kurt had a feeling that Finn was hanging around because of him, and a part of him was glad, he didn't think that he would have been able to get through the past couple of months if it wasn't for his brother.
"You look exhausted." Blaine said as he met Kurt outside the choir room. Sadly they weren't in as many classes together as they would have liked. They had two classes today together and they had gone by too soon for both of their likings.
"I'm just not used to the long days." Kurt answered rubbing his eyes.
"We can go now if you want, take you home?" Blaine offered, he was worried about Kurt. He knew Burt wouldn't want Blaine to know Kurt was struggling and not do anything about it.
"No." Kurt shook his head. "I really want to go to glee." Kurt said softly. "I'll sit down, just listen today, but please. I really want to go." Kurt wanted to say that he wanted to listen to Blaine sing but he knew that Blaine would say he could hear him sing any other time.
"Okay, but if you start to feel sick or your head hurts we'll go okay, no arguing?" Blaine took Kurt's hand and held it tight. It was their first public display of affection at school and Kurt felt like singing and dancing despite the tiredness he was feeling. He was finally walking around the school holding his boyfriend's hand. Kurt looked up at Blaine who looked back at him a little nervous. He wanted to know if this was okay, they hadn't really talked about how they would act at school, both not really wanting to admit that deep down they were scared. But holding hands now didn't feel scary, it felt right.
"Welcome back Kurt." Mr Schuester grinned as Kurt walked in. He walked over to his student and hugged him softly. "You look tired, are you feeling okay?"
"I'm fine. Honest." Kurt smiled. He was flattered that everyone cared, but he was getting annoyed at everyone saying how tired he was looking and stepping on egg shells around him. He knew they meant well but he just wished they would stop.
"Okay, well if you need anything..."
"I'll tell you." Kurt smiled. He took Blaine's hand and led him over to the red chairs and sat at the front. There weren't many students in glee club right now, not a lot had joined for the new year yet. Brittany, Sam, Joe and Rory were there smiling at him. Mr Schuester spoke for a few minutes about getting ready for sectionals and like in most of his classes Kurt had heard it all before, but this time he didn't care. Blaine was with him and he was listening to every word for the first time, he was happy and smiling and he was still holding onto Kurt's hand as though it was his life line. When he had finished his speech, he asked who wanted to go first and Kurt was surprised when Blaine put his hand up straight away. Kurt smiled as Blaine let go of his hand and walked towards the desk.
Blaine stood in front of everyone and rubbed his sweating hands on his jeans, he was scared but not in a bad way. He knew the group wouldn't judge him or laugh at him, and Kurt was smiling so beautifully at him. "Hi." Blaine said quietly. "I'm Blaine and well...this song is for Kurt. He's...He's my everything and I want to say thank you." Blaine whispered the last bit, looking straight at Kurt, he didn't care about anyone else in the room. All he saw was Kurt. Blaine walked over to the piano and sat down, rubbing the keys slowly before he started to play.
"If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea,
I'll sail the world to find you
If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see,
I'll be the light to guide you...
Find out what we're made of
When we are called to help our friends in need
You can count on me like 123
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 432
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah..."
Blaine thought of all of the times that he had been there for Kurt, he had seen him laugh, cry, be happy, be sad, be angry. But Blaine and Kurt had always been there for each other since they first met and Blaine knew that no matter what he would always be there for Kurt, just like Kurt would always be there for him. Kurt would never turn his back on him.
"If you toss and turn and you just can't fall asleep
I'll sing a song
Beside you
And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me
Every day I will
Remind you
Find out what we're made of,
when we are called to help our friends in need..."
Blaine smiled at Kurt who was wiping his eyes. Had no one ever sung a song to Kurt like this? Had no one truly shown him that they'd always be there for him? Blaine wished Kurt had someone in his life like that before, but a part of him was glad that he was Kurt's first in every way.
"You'll always have my shoulder when you cry,
I'll never let you cry
Never say goodbye
You can count on me like 123
And I'll be there
Cause I know when I need you
I can count on you like 432
You'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do oh yeah..."
Before Blaine even got up from the piano stool he had his arms full of a crying Kurt. "Kurt...Are you...you didn't like it?" Blaine asked worried. He didn't want Kurt to be sad, he wanted him to be happy.
"I loved it." Kurt whispered against his neck. "That was beautiful Blaine. I mean it. I loved it. Every word."
"I'm glad." Blaine smiled rubbing his back softly.
"I'll always be there." Kurt said softly pulling back only so he could look into his boyfriend's eyes. "No matter what if you need me I'll be there."
"Never say goodbye." Blaine smiled back, thinking to the words of the song.
"I love you Blaine. You know that right?" Kurt smiled wiping his eyes.
"I know, and I love you with all of my heart." Blaine smiled, and not caring that the room had other people in he leaned forward and closed the gap between them and kissed Kurt softly. Kurt smiled against his lips, kissing him back just as soft and lovingly. With Blaine's arms around him he knew he would never be as alone as he felt before, and as clichéd as it was, Blaine made Kurt feel whole again and he wouldn't change how they met for the world.