I laid on the bed of my luxury prison, and contemplated everything that has happen over the last few months. 1st off the attack on my school devastated the moroi and damphir world! We lost so many good people that dreaded night…and with that being said that brings me to number 2. Dimitri Belikov! He was my mentor, my friend, and the love of my life, and now he is one of the undead, a strigoi. Strigoi are ruthless, heartless vampires that show no mercy and kill when they are taking blood from there victims. They have no sense of who they once were, no morals, and they crave blood and power, they will stop at nothing to get what they want.

Dimitri and I had an unspoken promise between us that if either one of us was ever awakened, we would help to free there souls. And that is what I intended to do when I came to Russia, free the man I love from a life a manipulation, hate and murder. With that being said I am brought to number 3. The first lesson you learn during training is don't hesitate, strigoi will look a lot like there old self body shape hair and everything else one thing that changes is the small red ring on the pupil of the eyes.

When I finally caught up with Dimitri I hesitated (he would be so disappointed in me) but I did, and now I am his prisoner so to speak and my world has been turned upside down! I have 2 days to make the biggest decision of my life!

Turns out I wasn't the only one affected by our reunion. Because now Dimitri doesn't want to let me go…. Forever. Dimitri has offered me everything I have ever wanted, he wants to awaken me and us be together forever without all the limitations the moroi world cast upon us.

Back at St. Vladimirs we couldn't be together, it was wrong on so many different levels. Before the attack though we had finally given in to our desires, and I have given my virginity to Dimitri, it was the single most amazing moment in my life! We had it all figured out when I graduated we were gonna finally be together without holding back or hiding from everyone! Only 2 people knew about my relationship with Dimtri my best friend and sister my bondmate Princess Vasilissa Dragomir, better know as Lissa, and Adrian Ivashkov. They are both spirit users and have totally cool powers. (but we will get back to that in a minute).

This wasn't even an option I had considered coming here, in my head it was kill or be killed. If I by some miracle I manage to be the one not killed, I had planned on going back to Montana and trying to move on with my life. Adrian has been in love with me for as long as I remember at first I thought he just wanted to get into a cute damphirs pants, but as time went on I realized, he had true feelings for me. By pouting my lips and flashing him my man-eater smile I convinced Adrian to fund my lil trip to Russia… (Being Queen Bitches nephew has lots of perks) but with the condition that I give him a real chance as a boyfriend when I returned, with all honesty I agreed. Adrian was a good man and a good friend he was annoying at times but I guess you could say it was all part of his charm.

Remember when I told you being a spirit user had perks I meant it. Years ago I was killed in an accident that killed lissas entire family without relizing it she used spirit and healed my body and brought me back from the dead! This created a bond between us that allows me to hear her thoughts and feelings and even see thru her eyes, this only works one way I can hear her but she cant hear me. I"ve been in my prison now for a little over a week and I have had a lot of time on my hands, so I've been keeping up with Lissa.

Turns out she has a new friend Avery Lazar, the Headmasters daughter, she pretty carefree and people seem to flock to her almost like they are under a spell. Lissa has not been her self, when she is usually level-headed and a little on the nerdy book-worm side, lately she has been outta control drinking, parties night after night, and worst of all kissing another man other than her boyfriend Christian.

Needless to say he broke up with her and she spends even more time with Avery now and is spiraling even more out-of-control. Avery also has her eyes on Adrian, and to add to my surprise he accually seems interested, he was suppose to wait for me but apparently a short skirt, and a smile was all it took for Adrian to forget about me! Or at least this is what I thought. All the signs point that way, so hey can you really blame me for thinking that! What did I have left to go back to? Do I wanna go back to a life of being lissa shadow. Never having a life? Never having an opinion or voice? A life of constantly throwing myself in the face of danger to save someone else? THEY COME FIRST…. this has been drilled into my head since I could walk I have grown up thinking that this is the way my life was suppose to be, I never considered that my life could be another way, that I could live my life they way I want to live my life for me instead of another. Adrian and Lissa seemed to have moved on with there life so why shouldn't I?

Since I have met him, I always dreamed of a life with Dimitri, but being a souless, blood sucking undead vampire wasn't included in those dreams . I have pondered all the facts for the past few days trying to make sense of it all, and decide if my love for Dimitri outweighs all the negative that comes with me being awakened…. I have finally decided what path I want to take, I truly hope this is what is best for me, Now I just have to sit here on the massive bed, waiting for Dimitri to arrive so I can deliver the biggest decision I have ever had to make!….