3 days. It's been 3 days since the sacrifice. One day since Damon died. The shocking part, how much it affected me. I knew Damon and I had gotten close over the course of planning for the sacrifice, but I never thought it would hurt me this bad. My day always consisted of our banter and fighting and I miss it. I miss having someone who would match my remarks with snarkier remarks. As I lay in my bed, a crow suddenly appeared in my window. My heart jumped thinking it was the dark haired, blue eyed vampire I had come to like, but it was not but it had a note attached to it foot.

Dear Judgey,

As much as it pains me to say goodbye to you all, it must happen. Since this is the last time you will know my true thoughts of you. I need to understand that our fighting, our bickering, and our lovely banter are lovely. But there is more to us than biting words and sly comments.

Over this year I developed a crush on you. Not one of Stefan's brooding from afar crushes, but kind of a liking. I like you Bonnie Bennett. More than I ever thought I would. Those moments we would share planning against Klaus or increasing your power meant something to me. But not as much as the night after you faked your death to save all of us, not even knowing if you would come back for sure. You selflessness has always been something I loved about you. Along with you kindness, courage, power, and sexiness. Before baby Gilbert came when I took you back to the house, I felt a pang of regret leaving you there. A part of me wanted to stay until you awoke finding me not Gilbert there. I wanted to be the one you leaned on when you finally talked to Elena. I wanted to be the one who stayed with you during you "death". Most importantly, I found myself just wanting to be with you. Somewhere along the way the sacrifice became less about protecting Elena and more about protecting those you loved.

You may not know it, but I watched you as you grieved your grandmother. After finding out Katherine was not in the tomb, I needed to be with someone hurt like me. I needed to see someone else in pain to know that I am not the only one letting myself be consumed by the hurt this world can cause. On more than one occasion I visited you, watching you, placing good dreams in your head instead of the nightmares you would have of that night. After seeing how much pain you were in, I vowed to never put you in that position again. So I protected everyone you loved, met, saw, said hi to (even Baby Gilbert).

So in my dying days Judgey, I profess my feelings towards you and hope my last thought give you comfort when I pass to whatever life is after this. I hope your happy with Gilbert and that he helps you though your hard time in the future like I wish I could.

Signed You Homicidal Vampire,

Damon Salvatore

That night I cried myself to sleep more than I thought possible.