Disclaimer- Everything to do with Koisuru Boukun belongs to Takanaga Hinako, that genius.

(A/N) Okay, so this is my first yaoi fanfiction and my first in general for this fandom so I would love some critisism on characterization (I don't think I made senpai quite irritable enough). I had no idea what was running through my head when I made this other than 'Finally finished the series thus far and it's only... 2 o' clock. Well, guess it's time to make a fanfiction.' I just had to as Koisuru Boukun is really the only yaoi manga I love and Takanaga's characters aren't the cookie cutter aloof seme and adorably effeminate uke. Yeah, I'm not a fangirl in that sense. So um... enjoy?

Deep breaths.

Morinaga obeyed the one statement that somehow broke through all of his other scattered thoughts and inhaled slowly to no avail. He still trembled violently as he had been for the past couple hours… days… weeks? Time wasn't exactly tangible to him anymore. As far as he could tell, they were all the same now that his mind was shaken with a borderline hysteria he had never experienced before.

"Senpai…" he whispered with a smile gracing his features, almost as fragile as the snowflakes outside, "you're killing me."

Morinaga folded his arms on the frosted windowsill and nestled his chin in between the thick fleece sweater where they intersected. With weary eyes, he directed his tactful gaze to the wintry landscape beyond the glass. He had to admit that he wasn't used to this kind of weather, growing up in Nerima where it barely snowed. It was a pleasant difference though, especially considering that it hadn't snowed the last time he senpai was away.

The timing was as convenient as he could have hoped for. Souichi and he had finally gotten some time off from university for the holidays and senpai wasn't exactly acting festive, though Morinaga hadn't expected him to in the first place. Because his family was quite scattered what with Tomoe in the states, Kanako and her grandmother in Japan and his father god knows where, they planned on staying home given Morinaga wasn't about to visit his family. He was content to spend his time with Souichi, he actually wouldn't have it any other way, but almost as soon as they'd taken their time off, Tomoe called.

The only reaction Mori remembered seeing from senpai wasn't the usual overprotective brotherly wrath that always followed news concerning Tomoe and his relationship with Kurokawa. He'd certainly braced himself for the overreaction his lover often took out on him but Souichi just sighed in defeat and informed him of the day senpai had supposedly been dreading: Tomoe's wedding. Kurokawa and he moved it from late spring to winter to make sure both sides of the family could attend. So just like that, without even the obligatory protest minus a 'dammit'or two, they boarded the plane to San Francisco.

At the ceremony, Morinaga could really only describe himself as jealous of Kurokawa. Not only was he marrying his lover but… well he'd fallen in love with the less violent of the Tatsumi brothers. Still, he knew Souichi wasn't as cold as he let on. He'd proven it after the wedding when his brother approached him, unable to get rid of the huge grin on his face.

"I didn't think you would come," he said.

"Of course I came. Why wouldn't I?" he responded, sounding a bit insulted if you asked Morinaga.

"You've always held a grudge against homos, especially Kurokawa."

And then, to his surprise, he just frowned and said, "Well… as long as you're happy."

Still, no matter how much senpai might have wanted to accept the marriage, he couldn't really tolerate Kurokawa with ease so they stayed another night until Souichi started complaining. Even though Morinaga found Souichi's whining to be unbearably cute, he figured pleasing him would be even more rewarding so when he asked him where he wanted to stay until the end of their vacation, he replied with 'somewhere cooler'. Looking back on it now, Morinaga may have made a bit too drastic of a climate change from warm and humid to frigid but they both seemed to be happy with the location. Senpai had even said before: 'It's a country you can live in easily'. And, well Morinaga had obvious reasons for enjoying this place besides the weather and that was senpai's happiness. It was practically decided beforehand that they would visit Canada again.

That night here… it was special so it was only natural to make more memories here right?

A knock on the door interrupted the question and alerted him, accompanied by a familiar "Oi, Morinaga?"

"Ah, senpai!" he sprang up to the voice and fumbled with the item in his hand before he clumsily shoved it in his back pocket and reached for the door with shaky fingers.

"Mori-" Souichi's voice was cut short as the door swung open to reveal an abnormally jumpy kouhai.

"Oh you're back," Morinaga's features were painfully saintly as he scratched the back of his head.

"What are you up to?" Souichi drew back with an eyebrow quirked in suspicion and a slightly tighter grip on the groceries he held to his chest, willing to use them as a makeshift shield if need be.

"Me?" he pointed to himself nervously, the hesitance in his voice not exactly helping to prove his innocence, "Nothing?"

"You agreed to not try anything on this trip," he cut his eyes at him and inched a step ahead, reassuring Mori of his trust, until he simply shut the door behind him and pasted his back to the wall it in order to slither his way to the kitchen.

"I-I know that senpai! I just-"

"Don't plan anything perverted Morinaga," his tone was thick with warning as he placed some of the groceries in the fridge with an occasional glance over the shoulder.

Morinaga opted to ignore senpai's defensive onslaught and get on with his point, "Um… you're not busy tonight, are you?"

Souichi carried on with the groceries silently in stark contrast to the underlying nervous wreckage that was Morinaga as he toiled over the words he could only pray came out right. Twiddling his fingers, he proceeded; "Well I was kinda wondering if tonight… we could…" he trailed off.

"Yes?" he goaded.

"If we could stay in tonight?" he finished with a simper that made Souichi a little more cautious of any underlying intentions. When it came to Morinaga, it was always something innocent at first whether it is a movie, dinner, a night in, or even on one occasion, a trip to the library that always turned kinky. Morinaga would push and he would protest but like a lost puppy, he'd keep coming back. No matter how harsh Souichi got, his faithful colleague would recover and whisper sweet nothings in his ear until he finally decided to submit. Still, he didn't hate his kouhai; in fact, he'd begun to enjoy his company to an extent.

"Why?" he dragged the word out with skepticism.

"Why not?" Morinaga gave a nervous giggle as he furrowed his eyebrows together in what seemed like anxiety that was unsettling him in turn.

"Well… as long as you don't do anything perverted," Souichi purposely left a lingering accent on the last word to really convey the message, "then it's fine."

Morinaga heaved a deep sigh of what seemed to be an odd mixture of relief and regret though there was still a smile on his face.

"If that's all, I'll be back around 5 okay?" he was twisting a warm hat over his long hair when he looked back to the man.

"Where are you going?" the brunette inquired.

"I'm going to check on the progress of the culture in petri dish E," he informed.

Morinaga rolled his eyes and whined, "We're on vacation, senpai!"

"Work still needs to be done," he chided as he opened the door and stepped halfway out, "I'll see you in an hour so don't get worked up over nothing."

"Wait senpai!" Mori called out, earning a curious look from Souichi as he halted hs actions.

"I love you."

"I-" the kouhai stumbled over the rest of the statement. Should I say it? But what if I put him in a foul mood?

"Yes?" he questioned.

"Ah…" Morinaga looked down to his feet and abandoned the idea for now, "never mind. I'll see you."

"Okay then?" Souichi shut the door behind him, the evidence of his confusion hanging in the puzzled words.

Morinaga stared at the door longingly for what could have been minutes before heaving a deep sigh and tumbling to the kitchen tile in a pile of himself and fleece, "Really senpai," his whisper was barely there as he reached into the lining of his back pocket and removed the small velvet cube he really couldn't believe senpai hadn't noticed. Then again, groping and staring at back pockets was a task assigned to Morinaga more often than not. Still, he was glad he didn't discover the little treasure. Mori opened the miniature box with a flip of the finger to reveal the small, engraved silver ring resting among the sea of surrounding silk. Raking a hand through his hair, his fingers settled among the sepia locks and he rested his forehead in his palm before allowing a worried smile to erupt on his face at the sight of it.

"…You're killing me."

Yes I looked it up. Same-sex marraige is very much legal in Canada.

Anywho, I didn't really have the intention of going beyond a one-shot for this story but now I'm thinking I might continue it for another chapter or two. Review and let me know if I should or not :)