A/N: Well... this is the final chapter. I hope you enjoy it, and for those who do, I'll be making another GinHitsu story soon. :3 Please review and let me know what you think.

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Illuminated Illusions

Part 3

Hitsugaya can't tell which one of them is more desperate, more eager, more careless, but as Ichimaru lifts him on the table, pushing everything that has had the misfortune to stand there out of the way and on the floor, he decides that it hardly matters. The man's hands are tugging every piece of garment off of him with urgency that the genius has hardly seen or felt before, and it takes him a second to realize that he's doing exactly the same, pulling, opening, shoving away everything he can find that is keeping him away from his lover. It feels as if he's almost fighting something, rather than simply undressing the man before him… It feels as though an invisible force has mounted savagely between them, extending like a perpetual barrier, the only purpose of which is to tear them apart. It grows, and it grows, and it grows, while he claws and kicks, and punches crumbs of it down, just to be closer to his half… This metaphor of a hinder, the thin fabrics of cotton and silk, they represent everything that stands and will always stand there to isolate them in the pair of marginally different globes that are their worlds. They are black and white, he and Gin, day and night, good and evil, evil and good. They have so little keeping them together, but at the same time, too much. Too much love, desire, longing… What they are having now, Hitsugaya realizes - and the thought kills him just a little more on the inside - it's just a crack. It's like a scratch on a child's hand, a wound that has begun to heal the moment it has appeared, and they only have the time till it stops bleeding. Only that, and not a trice more.

He manages to discard everything from Gin's upper body within a minute, but his lover doesn't bother doing the same, he just opens Toushiro's robes, exposing the boy's milky shoulders and chest before moving on to yank on the captain's shoes and pants. The kisses they are sharing are crude, and deep, and rather painful at times, but neither seems to care, too far gone by now. (...)

Missing scene is in my LJ journal. Links are in my profile page and Author Notes.

(...)They shake and groan, uttering the name of the other as their muscles contract, squeezing them even tighter together. It's a strange sight, rather hard to comprehend, but they care not. For a second or two, the outside world is the last thing on their minds…

And then… the bubble bursts.

"Whateva' ya want… Anythin'… I'll do it, jus' name it, Toushiro, I will." Ichimaru whispers against the boy's neck and Hitsugaya smiles bitterly through the tears that are once more prickly at his eyes. He knows Gin is asking for a reason, a reason to stay, a reason to get caught, suffer, die… It's just a little push he needs and for a moment the genius is tempted to give it, if it means spending a few more hours together, a handful of more minutes, wrapped in the safe cocoon of the man's arms…

But he can't. He won't. He can't do that to Ichimaru, to himself. It's a decision, both selfless and selfish in its essence, one that can only be born in a love that wasn't meant to be.

"Stay tonight." The genius mumbles back and he feels the fox nod against his neck. "That's all I ask."

And when Toushiro wakes up the next morning in his bed, the sheets feel cold beside him, freezing cold. And he knows then, that Gin couldn't keep him promise.

Hitsugaya forgives him.

The end.

Link to the missing scene (can also be found in my profile page): queenofcitrus(then you write a dot and 'livejournal') (then a dot) (then 'com/2212')(then a dot)(then 'html')

A/N: It's a bit of an open ending, but I think that's the way it should be. Please review, make me happy. *Bambi eyes*