It's ok to love someone but I don't love him…I'm 'in love' with him!

Tori Pov.

The lights dimmed and the spotlight was on me. It was my birthday and it was time to blow out the candles and make a wish. I made my wish and blew out the candles. Everyone was eating their cake and the ice cream that was recently served, while I was opening my presents. I opened Cat's present. It was a custom design cupcake maker. It came with tons and tons of sprinkles. 'Figures, she is Cat.' But I still love the present. Andre's present was the DVD I wanted when I went to the movie store with him. Trina got me the cutest outfit. Sinjin got me some kind of weird rare tree root. Robbie got me my very on 'puppet'. Jade told me I didn't deserve anything. Lastly Beck, he got me a card. I wasn't expecting that but I read it anyway (it's the thought that counts). The card read, "Tori I'm sorry, but I can't give you my present today, not while Jade's around. I'll come over tomorrow at 8:00 pm. I hope you don't mind. If you have plans tomorrow at that time call me and we will reschedule…..Happy Birthday Tori. :)". I smiled at the thought of him coming to my house to spend time with me. I looked over at Beck who had his arm draped around Jade's shoulder, and was wiping ice cream off his jeans with his free hand. He looked up and smiled as he saw I had read his card. I quickly blushed and looked down at my feet. He saw this and turned away with a big grin on his face. I wondered if he loved me as much as I loved him. 'Jesus Tori, shutup. Stop doing this to yourself your breaking yourself. Every time you look at him you get weak. He will never love you.'…..He will never love you…. never love you…. Never… never…he will never love you…. N-n-never…He will never love y-! My thoughts were cut off when a girl named Katie, who was in my English class, approached me and asked if I was ok. She could see the tears forming in my eyes, all from doubt. She passed me a napkin and I politely thanked her and before I knew it I was hugging her and filling her polo shirt with wet tears. She became an instant new BFF just like that. After about 5 minutes I smiled dryly and gave her my thanks and my number and headed to the bathroom to fix my makeup.

It was 7:56 and I was impatiently waiting for my secret lover. 7:57 I was practically dead. 7:58 I was beyond dead! 7:59 WTF I was dead for so long I was starting to smell. 8:00 where is he? 8:05 where the hell is he? 8:30 Damit he stood me up! 8:45 if you weren't going to show you could of just said so. 8:47 "I'm so so so sorry Tori my car I wouldn't start and I had to fix it", said Beck. Relief splurged over me. "It's ok Beck. I was just starting to worry that's all." He gave an apologetic smile and asked if I wanted my present. I said yes and slightly squealed I wanted to see what was so important that Jade couldn't see him give it to her, and I wanted to know why. Nobody was home and I invited him to come up to my room. He glanced around before saying "nice room." I gave him my thanks and we sat on my bed. He then took a small box out of his jean pocket. Before he gave it to me he said that he didn't want Jade to know that he gave it to me because as far as she knows he didn't get me a present and that's how Jade wants it to stay. Plus it was very expensive and Jade would have a fit about that. I gave him an understanding small nod and said, "You didn't have to get me anything really expensive." He said, "I didn't mind and you do much for me so I'm cool with it." I smiled showing my pearly teeth and he opened the box revealing a diamond bracelet with the letters 'TORI' encrusted in it. I gasped in amazement. "Oh Beck. I-I can't possibly accept this. This must have cost you a fortune and I wouldn't want to be a burden." Beck said, "Tori take it, please. I love-your like a sister to me and I would want you to have it, please take it. I can't return it anyway." Tears of happiness were already down my checks. I jumped onto his lap and hugged him and kissed him on his check. Next thing I know I found myself getting lost in his brown chocolate orbs. We stayed this way for about 3 seconds. It was the best 3 seconds of my life. Then he broke the silence and said, "Well I better get going." As he walked out my bedroom door my eyes stayed locked on the door he had closed only recently. I jumped to my feet just as he was about to walk out the door. "Beck, Beck", I yelled. He looked back at me and said "yeah?" "Would you like to stay and watch a movie with me?" I asked. "Andre got me a new DVD for my birthday and I haven't watched it yet", I stated. He was more than delighted to stay. "Of course!" he answered.