This is the first Fanfic i have ever written, please be kind, reviews would be appreciated, as im new to this it hasn't been beta read and its rated T

Ziva woke to the sun on her face, she groaned slightly as she put weight on her right hand. It had been a month since she was rescued from the terrorist camp in Somalia. Saleem had tortured her every day, he beat her, put cigarettes out on her, whipped her, and broke her hand, due to the horrible conditions she was kept in she wasn't treated and her hand didn't heal properly, hence the soreness. Ziva never spoke to anyone about what had happened in Somalia, she had a feeling Gibbs knew some of the things that had happened, but she was sure he didn't know the full story, nor had he seen her injuries.

She refused to believe one component of her torture in Somalia, this was the rape that she suffered on a weekly basis at the hands of that bastard, she was drugged frequently so she had minimal control over what he did to her. She got into the shower, got dressed and made herself presentable, she then got in her red mini cooper and drove to the Navy Yard. Upon her arrival she noticed Abby in the parking lot opposite her, she called out and went over to her, the Happy-go-lucky Goth was always happy to see a member of Team Gibbs. She walked into the building with Abby before saying goodbye as Abby headed to her lab, she then continued to the bullpen where she knew McGee would be waiting. Tony would almost certainly be late, and Gibbs would probably be out on a coffee run before they started the days work.

Ziva sat at her desk and logged into her computer, McGee was engrossed in something on his computer so she simply said "Good Morning" and went on to check her e-mails. She sighed as she saw the name 'Eli David' in her inbox. Her father had sent her on the suicide mission to Somalia and caused her to be captured and tortured by Saleem, she did not want anything to do with him. She clicked the e-mail and violently pressed the delete button, she didn't notice Gibbs standing behind her as she did so.

Gibbs was angered by the fact that Eli kept trying to contact his probationary agent, he greeted Ziva and sat at his desk, slowly he found the button for e-mail and wrote a brief letter to Eli saying that he would appreciate it if he stopped contacting Ziva. Sensing his concentration, Ziva asked what he was doing, he replied that he was writing an e-mail, Ziva was very surprised by this and peered onto his screen to see who it was to. She sighed when she saw the message "Gibbs, you can not sent that to him, he will be angry and he may come to Washington to see why i do not want to see him". Gibbs could tell Ziva was upset by this so he got up and ushered her into the 'conference room'. He flipped the switch and began speaking, "Ziva, i know you have been through more than one could imagine this last 8 months but you must understand, i care about you. Tony, McGee, Ducky we all care about you, and that's not even mentioning Abby", Ziva was close to breaking down when all this was said but she was determined not to, then she would just end up saying something she'd regret. Gibbs stared at her expectantly and she knew she must give an answer, "Gibbs i know you care, but you - you must understand, I-I I find it hard to talk about my feelings and I-I'm Scared Gibbs, scared that he will come and see me and force me back there, I do not want that, NCIS is my family now and while what i went through was painful i do not want to be a...burden". She was crying by this time, Gibbs was shocked at how much she had let out, "Ziva, you listen to me you will never..Never be a burden to me or the team, you need to talk, and try and get past this, I want to set up some counselli-" he was interrupted at this point "NO!, I refuse to be some psycho patient of any counsellor, if i need to talk i will come to you, or even Tony and talk, but when I am ready, OK?" Gibbs was amazed at how much she had opened up to him, he looked at her tear stained face and wrapped her into his big arms and held her close, this started her off crying again, "I've got you now Ziver, shhh, you're alright".

Tony was angry by this point he had been standing in the lobby at the elevator for far too long, he started kicking the door, he was about to yell and hit it again when he realised Gibbs must be in a 'meeting' with someone. He sighed and took the stairs, when he reached the bullpen the elevator doors opened, Ziva smoothed her shirt and walked into the bullpen followed by Gibbs. "Hello, Tony" Ziva said as she walked in, he replied and got a small glimpse of her tear stained face, "You OK, Zi? You look upset". "I am fine tony, just what you call Grass-fever", Tony chuckled "Hay", "what?" Ziva asked, "Hay, its Hay-fever, Ziva" Tony laughed, "Oh" she replied slightly embarrassed. Gibbs walked over to Tony and head slapped him " DiNozzo, you're late and then you're sitting her gasbagging and not getting any work done!", "sorry boss, I", "Tony!", "yeah boss?", "Rule 6, now get on with it!". "Ok boss!"

Ziva looked up from her paperwork, and sighed, 7.30, where had the day gone, she stretched her neck and finished her last bit of paperwork, "Tony, I am going now, are you leaving soon?" She asked as he was the only one left at the office, Tony signed off on his last form and got up, turned the light out and grabbed his things. On the way to the parking lot he asked Ziva about what happened that morning "Ziva, i know you had been crying in the elevator this morning" she looked sad, "what's up?" he asked her. "Nothing i am fine" she replied, he grabbed her arm, "Zi, i know you are not fine, tell me what's up". He expected to get a nasty reply back but he was stunned at her response, "Gibbs wanted to talk to me about Somalia, so i did, we chatted and he offered me a counsellor, of course i am not going to take his offer, i told him i would talk to him or you about it when i was ready." Tony was shocked, she never opened up to him, why had she done so now, she had definitely changed since Somalia and he was keen to know why, but he didn't want to push. "well i'm here for you if you need, anytime all you have to do is call me, day or night and I'll listen", She smiled, tears welled up in her eyes, why was she so emotional today, gosh "Thankyou Tony, she replied, i will, see you tomorrow, yes." "Yeah," he replied, "see you tomorrow Zi" and gave her a quick hug, her heart skipped a beat as she was drawn into his chest. She hugged him back and got into her car. As she pulled out of the Navy yard she started thinking, she would have to talk to someone sometime, otherwise the events in Somalia would eat away at her until she crumbled, she made a decision to talk to Gibbs tomorrow about what happened there.