I was just listening to some music, and it just inspired me to write this.

I warn you... very sad :'(

Anyhoo... read away :D

Painfully Unrequited

"Can't you take a hint? Leave me alone! I do not like you!"

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"Go away, you arrogant bastard!"

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"I hate you!"

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"Is your goal in life to irritate me so much that I actually do something I'll regret?"

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"Don't speak to me again."

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"I'd rather die than kiss you!"

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Every single insult – a painful blow to my chest... my heart. Does she realise how much she's killing me inside when she says these things? It feels as if she's stabbing me repeatedly in the heart, yet I still can't help loving her...

She's the most beautiful girl I've ever met. Her gorgeous, fiery red hair looks so soft... I'd love to run my fingers through it, caress her, tell her how much a care about her. Her stunning emerald green eyes are so bright and alive that I just can't stop looking into them. That smile of hers puts a smile on my face; whenever she's happy, I'm happy – I can't help smiling when I see her grin or laugh.

She's uniquely talented – always getting the top marks in every class. Intelligent. From what I've heard, she's unbelievably kind – I wouldn't know, because she detestes me.

Those rosy pink lips look so kissable...

Her body is a masterpiece. She has the most stunning physique – curvy in the right places, slim in the right places...

She's like no-one I've ever seen. Once you look at her, you can't wipe her from your mind. I love her... I need her.

And then she throws insults at me over and over again. I laugh it off, pretend it's all fine.

I'm dying inside. She doesn't see it; I won't let her see what it does to me. Peter and Remus don't see it either... they laugh along with me.

Sirius notices the difference in my laugh... he notices that it's fake. He knows. He knows it hurts me inside, and he pities me.

She won't ever feel the same way. She's said it herself;

"I'd give up trying if I were you, Potter. There's no use. I won't ever feel the same way – although, it's hilarious watching you trying to flirt."

She's the only girl I want. She completes my life.

People ask me, 'How do you see yourself in ten years time?', 'How would you like your future to turn out?'

Truthfully, the only future I can see myself in, is with her. Lily.

I am one hundred percent sure that she is my soulmate, but I can't convince her.

Maybe I should give up...

It would mean a lot less hassle to Lily, and after all, I don't want to hassle the poor girl.

Sirius tells me over and over again that I should never give up. He tells me that if I truly love her, I should fight for her.

But what use is it? Every time I try, she pushes me away.

I love her, but the truth is, the feelings will never be returned.

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