moonbeam?

What?

why are you so mad at me? i didnt even do anything wrong

Nothing whatsoever, huh?

youre acting all... odd. and angry

Am I now?

talk to me? please? youre upset and i dont know what to do

wait, are you still pissed off about bernadette?

What about her should I be pissed off about? The part where she so blatantly flirted

with you in front of our friends? The part where she ever so loudly, so I could hear, I

expect, told you that you were wasting your time with a 'goody two shoes, prude' like

me (clearly, thankfully, she is unaware of the extent of our physical activities). Or the

part where she proceeded to kiss you and it didn't seem to me that you were too quick

to shove her aside?

What about any of that should I be pissed off about? Please, enlighten me.

im sorry! i couldnt just SHOVE her. shes a girl. besides, its not like i kissed her

back or anything.

I'm sure you understood I didn't mean for you to *actually* shove her. And honestly,

from where I was sitting, it didn't look like you weren't kissing her back. You didn't

exactly tell her off either. She'll probably keep at it. I can see her from here; she's

making those googly eyes at you like Prongs does to Lily. It's making me want to vomit.

moonbaby, youre being silly. even if she DOES keep at it, its not like im going

to go bewith her. but honestly, are you actually surprised? loads of birds

want me... not just bernadette.

That's not surprising one bit. I'm not completely oblivious, thank you. Though you

seem to be, considering you're too busy preening over the fact that tons of girls want

you that you're ignoring the fact that probably over half of them, including Bernadette,

are disgusted that you're with me, who is *not* a girl. So enjoy that attention all you'd

like, but it's sad that practically none of them like you for *who* you are and are

trying to turn you into someone they want you to be.

i do not PREEN, thank you.

how do you know that they dont like me for me? sure they notice my looks

first but if i talked to them im sure theyd be just as into me as you are

Sirius, I don't just like you - I like every thing about you, including the fact that you

still like girls. If they can't accept the fact that you might just like boys as well as

them, then they can't accept every bit of you and like you for who you truly are. Of

course they could lie and say they don't mind, and eventually I'm sure you could just

lie and say you don't like boys anymore, but why lie to yourself?

Unless it's not a lie, which wouldn't be that unbelievable since you wouldn't even tell

Bernadette to back off and then defend our relationship. If this isn't something you

want anymore you may as well just tell me, because I don't want to be dragged along

if I'm not wanted.

im not lying to anyone! if i were going to lie, id have done it when prongs

cornered me in potions!

she knows im with you! i shouldnt HAVE to tell her im with you, the whole

bloody school thinks that me and you are shagging.

im beginning to think that you dont trust me.

That is ridiculous. God knows I trust you more than anyone.

I'm just hurt because sure she *knows* that you and I are together, but that's clearly

not stopping her from trying and the least you could do was tell her to stop, especially

when she's made rude comments about our relationship in front of both of us. It's

disconcerting and how am I *not* supposed to think that you might possibly be having

second thoughts about all this?

then stop overreacting, love. im not going to leave you for some bint. and

even if i WAS, it wouldnt be for bernadette williamson. i mean shes bloody fit

and a good kisser, but shes not YOU moonbear. because youre perfect.

shes jealous of you. thats why she's making the comments and trying to snog me and

sending me notes and whatnot.

I highly doubt the reason she's doing all this is because she's *jealous* of me.

The thought's absolutely ridiculous.

shes jealous that youre with me.

I can't believe you actually think that.

well she is!

I really don't want to discuss this anymore with you right now.

what did i say wrong?

A lot of things.

And don't even bother asking me to partner up with you for this class

assignment, Pete already asked me.

moony! moonflower, tell me what i did! why do you always have to

pull this sort of shit?

but me and you ALWAYS partner together! who am i supposed to work

with now?

It's not like I don't try! You just never seem to understand. It's frustrating!

Why don't you ask Bernadette? If she was even a little bit more immature I'm

sure she'd be shouting your name across the room this very moment,

begging you to work with her.

well we can't ALL be bloody fucking genius' like you, prefect.

and what if i DID ask her? what would you do? give me the silent treatment?

yell at me for encouraging her? id be in the wrong to taking YOUR suggestion

seriously

can you at least tell me what i did wrong?

Would you like me to make you a list? Since that clearly could be something

us 'bloody fucking geniuses' do.

i would actually.

1. You've insulted me.

2. Did you really think I really wanted you to work with Bernadette? No.

It's called 'sarcasm'.

3. Refusing to defend our relationship by staying silent while your ex insults it

doesn't really reassure me any. And no, she's not saying all those horrible

things about how gross our relationship is because she's jealous of me.

She won't back off until you tell her to, even though she 'knows you and I are

together'.

4. How could I not get angry when seeing you two practically making out in

front of everyone, especially when you don't do anything to stop it right away?

I'm not blind.

5. You are being ridiculously oblivious right now.

i cant help being oblivious. im not SMART like that.

does it help that im sorry? very very sorry?

You're smarter than you give yourself credit for, you know.

It'd help if I knew you are truly sorry, and not just apologizing because you

think it'll make me happy and we won't be fighting anymore. And I'm not just

going to ignore the problem and hope it goes away on its own.

not about emotions and shit

well, what do you want me to do? because i AM sorry that youre

upset... even though i dont know what I've done wrong. i get that

youre mad about bernadette, but i dont see how thats MY fault.

I'm not blaming you entirely. It is kind of mainly her fault for practically

throwing herself at you even though she knows you and I are together,

but, at the same time, I'm mad at you too. I feel like I've explained why like

100 times. Seriously.

i know youre mad at me for 'not resisting'. but honestly i was shocked

and didnt think to. im sorry moonbear! please dont be angry with

me anymore

I don't want to be. I really don't. I just...can't help it.

how can i make it up to you?

What? You really don't...can we just talk about it later?

no moony, i need to know. i love you and i hate seeing you upset.

especially when its all my fault

Pads...I love you too. And I'm sure I'm kind of slightly over reacting over

the entire thing, so I'm sorry, but at the same time I'm really upset

about all this so maybe you could just...give me some space for a

couple of hours?

fine. i'll just stay out if your way then