Hey guys so here is chapter number nineteen!

Okay I know, I am a horrible person for making you all wait for this chapter but I'm really am trying to update this story more often but my stupid computer had a smart idea to get a virus and then all my work got deleted so I had to rewrite this chapter. Sorry

Anyway back to the story, in this chapter you guys will end up seeing what happens to Annie after the games and what's going on in her head.

Disclaimer: I don't own the Hunger Games or I'm in here by Sia.

READ THE AUTHOR'S NOTE AT THE END. ITS VERY IMPORTANT.

I'm in here.
Can anybody see me?
Can anybody help?

Alone. I wake up in an empty white room all alone. There is no one beside me holding my hand, kissing my forehead or making me feel like everything was going to be okay. There was no one in this cold empty room but my pain and I.

I'm in here,
A prisoner of history.
Can anybody help?

I should be dead. Why was I not dead? I want to be dead. I have hurt and killed so many people, that I deserve to be dead. I have lost count of how many people that crossed my path in the games and died in my hands. I'm not sure if it was four or five that I killed. I'm not even sure if it was more than five. I just know that I'm the reason so many people aren't going home.

Can you hear my call? Are you coming to get me now?

Tears rolls down my face as the sounds of their screams and yells echoes in my head. I try to block out all the screaming and yelling but the more I try the more it attack me and get louder. I put my hands over my ears just to see if the screaming and yelling will stop but it doesn't. I start to toss and turn in the little white bed I am in like crazy till the noise just stops.

I've been waiting for you to come rescue me
I need you to hold all of the sadness I cannot…
Live with inside of me

I slowly let my hands drop from my ears and sit up on the bed. I listen very closely and hear nothing. All the screaming and yelling was just gone like that.

"It's nothing, I'm just hearing things."I repeat over and over again as more tears run down my face.

"No Annie Belle, it's the conscience of a killer." A voice that I have tried not to think about says.

I'm in here, I'm trying to tell you something,
Can anybody help?

My heart is pumping so fast in my chest and my breath is caught in my throat because I knew that what I was hearing was not possible. The person that had just spoken those words couldn't be in this room with me. That person could never say anything to me again. That person can never do anything ever again because he was dead.

I sit up on my bed slowly and open my eyes to the impossible. In the front of me stood the person that I love more than anything but let down. The person that had done everything in his power to protect me and I had done nothing to save him in his time of need. The person in front of me was dead because he put his trust in me. The person in front of me was dead because of me.

I'm in here, I'm calling out but you can't hear.
Can anybody help?

"Mason?" My voice cracks as I look at Mason with shock.

"Who else would it be, sweet little Annie?" The tone Mason says this in makes me cringe a bit. It was bitter and worst of all it was filled with so much hate.

"It's just…that I saw..you-" I stutter and I don't even finish what I was about to say as more tears fill my eyes.

"Die Annie Belle, is it hard for you to say that word." Mason says harshly.

Can't you hear my call?
Are you coming to get me now?

I wipe off the tears on my face as I hold back the tears that are about to fall. I look at Mason again and really look at him for the first time. Mason, who had such a pure and loving look in his eyes, now had a dark and hateful look. That beautiful light that he always had around him that just made you want to be near him was now gone and all that remain is such a dark light that makes me want to move as far away from him as I can.

I have never been afraid of Mason before but as he stands in front of me with so much rage and hate rolling off him I can't help it. I am afraid of Mason for the first time in my life. The boy in front of me isn't the boy that I was just in the arena with. This boy was much darker and so full of hate. A hate that I knew could only belong for one person, me.

I've been waiting for,
You to come rescue me,
I need you to hold,
All of the sadness I cannot,
Living inside of me.

Even when I'm afraid of him all I want to do is move closer to him and wrap my arms around him. I slowly get up from the bed and move slowly over to where Mason stands. I stop walking once I was only a few feet away and tears filled my eyes again but this time from happiness. I can't help it as a smile forms on my lips.

"What are you smiling about Annie?" Mason says bitterly.

I can't help it as my smile gets bigger because even if he hates me and he scares me to death in the way he is acting, he is here alive. Emma hadn't killed him as I thought she did. Maybe it was just all just a terrible dream. Maybe everything about the games and Mason was just all a dream. Yes, that's what it had to be just a dream.

Mason was fine and was just playing with me right now. He wasn't mad at me and he sure doesn't hate me. He couldn't, I mean this was Mason I was talking about. The man that was like a brother to me and was one of the only people I trust in this world. He was ALIVE; I could care less about anything else.

"You're alive." I say as my hand moves to touch his cheek.

"Alive, you think am alive?" Mason says so harshly my hand drops before touching his cheek to me side.

"Of course I think you're alive. You're standing right in front of me." I say.

Mason laugh fills the room and for a second I saw in his eyes amusement.

"Oh Annie, what a real fool you are? Or is it that as you lay down beside my headless body you lose your memory." Mason says.

"MASON STOP JOKING AROUND. WHAT IS THE MATTER WITH YOU? YOU ARE ALIVE AND IT WAS ALL JUST A DREAM." I shout.

I'm crying out, I'm breaking down,
I am fearing it all,
Stuck inside these walls,
Tell me there is hope for me
Is anybody out there listening?

"What's the matter with me? The real question is what's the matter with you? You're the one here talking to dead person." Mason says.

"NO, YOU'RE NOT DEAD. YOU CAN'T BE DEAD." I yell as I fall on my knees and hit the floor with tears coming down my face faster than before.

"Oh, Annie Belle." Mason says as bends down right in front of me.

"How….could this…have happen?" I stutter.

"Well Annie Belle this happen because of you. There is no one to blame but you. Emma had the ax in her hands but you're the one with blood on your hands. It's all your fault I'm dead. Now I'll never see my family again. I'll never get to finish high school. I'll never get to get married or have kids or grow old. And you're the reason why."Mason says with nothing but hate.

"Mason, I never wanted this to-" Mason cuts me off and says "How are you going to do it Annie? How are you going to look people in the eyes after what you have done? How are you going to go back home to your family and be able to stay in the same room with them? And how on earth are you going to think Finnick will ever want to love you after this? Let me let you on a little secret Annie, you will never have to face any of those problem because they all already hate you and want nothing to do with you."

I'm breathing so heavily and crying so hard that I can't even talk because it was all true. Every single word that came out of his mouth was true. Nobody will or can ever love me again because I am a monster with a black heart. I have no family. I have no home. I have no one and it's my fault. I deserve this and more.

"Oh don't worry Annie; I made you a promise when we were little. Do you remember what I told you? I said I would never leave you and don't worry Annie I don't plan on leaving you ever. I will be with you everywhere to remind you what you did and what you really are." Mason says.

Can't you hear my call?
Are you coming to get me now?

Mason gets up from the floor and walked over to the door. As he has his hands on the door he turns back and looks at me as I sob even harder then I already was.

"I'll see you soon, Annie Belle." Mason says before opening the door and walking out the door. After I hear the door close, I lose it. I let out a scream before letting out even more tears. I can barely breathe as the tears keep running down my face.

Mason has ever right to hate me. Hell, I hate myself. I let him die when he had a whole life ahead of him. He could have done so many great things in his life but now because of me, he never will. This is all my fault, I am the monster in this story. No one else is to blame for Mason's death but me.

I look wildly around the room looking for Mason but then I realize that he left. I get up the floor as fast as I can and run to the door. I need to find him and beg him for forgiveness. I need to know if he would forgive me. I open the door and run out the room.

I've been waiting for,
You to come rescue me

My vision is so blurry I keep bumping into people but I don't stop running. I yell Mason's name over and over again praying he might hear me and come back. I run around the hallways in circles and even run into a wall but I don't find him.

As I turn into another hallway I realize that a doctor and nurse were running after me. Both doctor and nurse were yelling for me to stop and as they get closer to me I sprint down the hallway, yelling even louder for Mason.

I need you to hold,
All of the sadness I cannot,
Living inside of me.

I look back to see if I lost the doctor and nurse when I slam into someone. I feel myself fall to the floor when two strong arms wrap around my waist. I try to break free from the person's arms to run again but the person only tightens their hold on me. I let out a scream of frustration when the person brings me closer to their chest and holds me in their arms.

I hit, yell, scream, and kick any place of the person's body that I could but the person only hold me tighter. I yelled out Mason's name over and over again hoping he would come but the only person that came is the doctor and the nurse. The doctor and the nurse told the person to hand me over to them but the person just held me in there arms, not even listing to them.

I'm still yelling for Mason to come when I felt something being stab into my arm. I let out a small yell before throwing another fit. As I throw my fit I'm not just yelling out Mason's name but other things that I don't even know are leaving my mouth till after I say it.

After a while I start to lose most of my energy and very slowly I started to lose my balance but the person who held me never lets me fall. My vision slowly starts to get worst and after a while I can't even keep my eyes open. Everything started to turn dark when I feel someone's lips on my ear. I can hear the person's lips moving but the only words I catch are "You're safe; I wouldn't let anything happen to you ever."

I could tell that voice anywhere because no one could ever talk to me in that way other then the man that holds my heart. The men that I am falling head over heel for and could make my heart skip a beat. And just as darkness over fills me I whisper his name.

Finnick

I'm in here, can anybody see me?
Can anybody help?

AN:

Okay let's get something straight, Mason is not a GHOST. The whole thing with Mason being in her room was in her head. It was just her mind playing tricks on her because she was feeling so guilty of letting Mason die. So Mason isn't alive but he will still be in the story but not the good old Mason but a dark and even scarier one that Annie has made up in her head. This Mason in Annie's head will be the reason for a lot of things that happen to Annie.

I wrote this chapter very different then all my other chapters and enjoyed it a lot. I might do more chapters like this later on.

Spoilers:

Next chapter you guys will see more why Annie Belle is seeing Mason and there will be more Finnick and Annie scenes which might lead to Annie finding out what Finnick really does in the capitol.