A/N: Well here we go, I actually wrote a fic for my favourite yet unpopular pairing. I hope everyone enjoys! :D

Warning: This fic is written with the main pairing of Raditz/Goku and will contain graphic yaoi, violence, incest, angst, and M-preg

Continue reading at your own risk

Hell isn't all fire and brimstone. Raditz learned that the hard way as his body was slowly ripped apart piece by piece, leaving only his mind for the hell creatures to throw him back into another painful memory.

He was young, barely five years old when his teacher finally explained to him that the reason he had never seen his mother was because she had died in childbirth, losing her life as she tried to bring another into the world. He remembered wondering if that was the reason his father was always away. That he hated him for taking away his mate. Raditz had failed to return home after school that day. His father would find him the hours later, weeping over his mother's grave site. The grave site that Bardock had never shown him.

The memory faded to ten years later. Raditz was sitting in the ships infirmary, Bardock's second mate was in the room in front of him, birthing what would be his brother. Though he managed to keep himself still his mind still ran through his thoughts at a feverish pace. Would this woman die as his Mother did? Would the child feel the same haunting guilt as he did? It was hours before the sound of a crying reached his ears. It made his entire body tense. Then after a long wait the woman walked out of the room with the newborn in her arm. She handed it to Raditz and left, her group was due for their next mission and she refused to miss it.

He sat there for a long time holding his sibling, at a loss of what to do next. Then the little boy yawned and looked up at him with large, curious eyes. Raditz thought the kid was going to cry. But then he didn't, instead the little boy rubbed his eyes and tucked himself close to the older Saiyans chest before gurgling in contentment. To say Raditz was awed an understatement, he was in complete shock. The child then wrapped his thin tail around his wrist and Raditz swore to himself that he would never let anything happen to his little brother.

"Oh but you did, isn't that right?" One of the hell creatures laughed, making Raditz cringe at its shrieking voice.

For a full week Raditz spent every moment of his free time with the child he named Kakarot Until he was forced to join his team on another mission to renovate another planet. During his mission he was told that Kakarot had been sent to a far away planet, an hour after he was contacted, planet Vegeta was destroyed. When Raditz got back to his ship, he erased all records of Kakarot from Frieza's database. His father was among one of the casualties and the existence of his brother would remain his secret for years- until… he returned to earth.

"You're skipping something." The hell creature chided before laughing maniacally.

"No!" Raditz felt himself yell, only to be met with more laughter ringing in his ears.

He refused to see that memory, even as he felt the crushing pain on his abdomen and knew that not only would he be seeing it, he was going to be forced to relive it as the demons had forced many times before.

But then, it was all gone. The pain, the hell creatures; he even felt soft, plush grass under him where he lay on the ground. Slowly, Raditz lifted himself from the ground. Then he saw him, his brother, just standing a few mere meters away from him. His whole body tensed, readying himself for the fight that would surely occur.

"Hey Raditz, calm down."

Calm… down? He couldn't be serious.

"Where the hell am I!"

"Earth... I just wished you back."

Wished him back? He had known that his Saiyan comrades had refused to revive him, the hell creatures were eager to share that he had been abandoned. His death on earth had been a waste. So why would his brother bring him back? He voiced the question out loud.

"I... You deserved a second chance." Raditz snorted. "We gave Vegeta a second chance and he ended up okay."

"I couldn't care less about the royal brat!" he spat back, causing Kakarot to pause.

"But I thought you-"

"You thought what? I was his loyal servant just because he was dubbed a 'Prince' on our dead planet? Fat chance! Nappa may have held on to those ideals but I was the only one to recognize what a waste such titles were."

"I just thought you guys were close." It was Raditz's turn to pause.

"Apparently not enough to keep me alive."

Both were silent, staring at each other. Waiting for the other to make the next move. It was then that Raditz noticed the dark circles under his brother's eyes, the frail thinness of his body, and the swishing appendage that swayed behind him.

"You... grew your tail back."

Kakarot looked back to admire the smooth motion of his tail moving back and forth.

"Well you were really angry last time when I didn't have it so I wished it back before I wished you back."

"Exactly how many times can you make a wish?"

"Well you get three wishes every time you summon Shenron, then you gotta wait a year to gather the dragon balls, but since I only made two wishes this time it'll only take three months for the dragon balls to appear again."

Raditz sighed and rubbed his temples as a headache began to sink in. The air was cold while their surroundings were shrouded in fog. It didn't surprise him when he heard the rumble of thunder in the distance or that rain soon followed.

"We should probably get back home." Kakarot said absentmindedly before floating into the air.

"Home?"

"Yeah, my house is just over those hills there." Kakarot pointed off into the distance before taking off.

Raditz heaved another sigh before ascending to his brother's side. The rain was getting worse and the damp was weighing down his thick hair. That and the fact that he was still on wearing his Saiyan armour made for a very cold flight. A flight that had been relatively uneventful, Raditz did take notice that his brother's flight seemed rather uneven, as if he didn't have the energy for it.

They landed in front of the house and Raditz took a moment to look around. The house looked strange to him, but otherwise in good condition, he could even see the signs of a garden peeking out from behind the building. Kakarot lead him inside, the door opening to a modest sized kitchen, automatically the lights flickered on. Instantly his eyes focused on the refrigerator.

"Do you have any food in this house?"

"Uh… not really, sorry should've thought of that." Kakarot laughed while scratching the bridge of his nose.

Raditz glared before walking out the door, his brother following close behind.

"W-where are you going?" He asked in a slight panic.

"I'm getting dinner; you can heat up the stove to cook it!"

And before Kakarot could reply, Raditz flew off. He easily tracked down a large moose, killing it with a quick snap of its neck. It took him a little longer to carry the creature home but less time to butcher it and make it suitable to cook in the earthling kitchen. He took the kill inside and dropped the raw meet on the table.

"That didn't take you long!" Kakarot quipped joyfully while bounding over to his side.

"Of course not! Now how long will it take you to cook this?"

"Well I think it'll take awhile since there's a lot of it so... maybe an hour?"

"While you do that, is there a shower I can use?"

"Yep, down the hall and it's the last door on your left."

"Thanks."

The bathroom was small without being cramped, sea foam green tiles covered the floor, white tiles covered the wall, two lights with sky blue glass hung beside the medicine cabinet that was over the sink, and a indigo green shower curtain hung from the curtain rings over a large tub, the shower head hung from the wall at the far end of the tub. Raditz drew the curtain back and ran the water to the correct temperature before pulling the tab so that the water would flow through the shower head. Then he stripped himself of his armour, faintly wondering why he had been resurrected in the garment.

Once under the steaming water he slumped down into a shivering cluster, his knees tucked to his chest, letting the water beat down on his head and back. Why bother resurrecting me? He had asked himself the question many times; so many times that it had begun to become a repetitive line of mental white noise. He saw no gain for his brother in resurrecting him. When Raditz had arrived on earth he had brought Kakarot nothing but grief. He had even kidnapped his brother's half-Saiyan child when his demands weren't met. Wasn't the earthen Saiyan afraid for his child's safety? Or for the humans he seemed to care so much a about. Raditz bit his lip. He hadn't seen his nephew in the house, he wondered if Kakarot had placed his family elsewhere as a precautionary measure. He wouldn't blame him if he had. Though it still left the question of why Kakarot had resurrected him, and he wasn't buying the 'second chance' bullshit.

Absently he began to wash his hair, working his fingers through some of the many tangles. He often wondered if he should cut it down to size but could never bring himself to do it. In the few pictures he had seen of his mother her hair was always worn long like his and he wanted to hold on to that resemblance. It took him a long time to wash it; after all it was a lot of hair. He then scrubbed his body before relaxing back into the water, letting the waters warmth to relieve every muscle of its tension. Reluctantly he turned off the water and grabbed a towel to dry off. By the time he managed to dry all of his hair the towel was soaked. He then heard a knock on the door.

"What do you need?"

"If you open the door I can give you a change of clothes."

Raditz wrapped the towel neatly around his waist before opening the door. Kakarot held up a bundle of clothing to him.

"They're my clothes so if they don't fit I can try and get you a different pair."

"They'll probably be fine."

"Okay, while you get dressed I'll finish up dinner and then we can eat!" He then skittered back to the kitchen.

The grey jogging pants were short on his legs but the white t-shirt fit fine. He went to the dining room where Kakarot had set the table with the Moose as the centre piece. Raditz was also pleased to see that along with the moose Kakarot had prepared mashed potatoes, an assortment of garden vegetables and two large pitchers of iced tea.

"This looks incredible Kakarot, good to see that the bump on your head didn't destroy your appetite!"

"Eh hehehe, thanks, I think."

They then sat down to eat in the usually Saiyan fashion, rapidly and with little to no pause in between chomps. Within minutes the table was cleared and both satisfied. Raditz volunteered to clean to show his gratitude for the meal, and it was really the least he could do.

"Well how about you wash the dishes and I'll dry them?"

"That works to."

Both were quiet as they completed their task. The rumble of thunder could still be heard in the distance. Raditz stared out the kitchen window, watching the grey clouds roll by. It almost seemed ironic to him that he died on a day with perfect weather, yet when he was brought back to life the weather was miserable. He could barely make out the large trees that surrounded the yard because of the rain. Planet Vegeta had been void of trees do to its dessert climate. It was something Raditz always disliked about his home planet.

"So… where's your brat?" He asked, wanting to break the silence so that he wouldn't have to think about his past life.

Mentally he swore at himself when his brother tensed beside him and stayed silent before answering.

"Chi-Chi left three months ago… she took Gohan and Goten with her."

"I take it that this Chi-Chi was your mate?"

"No, humans can't be bounded as a mate but she was my wife for many years. I guess she just got tired of being with me." Kakarot didn't meet his eyes while he spoke, and his tone held so much regret that Raditz knew he had picked exactly the wrong question to ask. "Would you be alright finishing up in here while I take my shower now?"

"Yeah… take as much time as you need."

"Thanks Raditz… I really do hope you like it here."

"So far I do." He was thankful that Kakarot smiled.

"Good... I'm glad."

He then left for his shower while Raditz finished the dishes. Even though Kakarot had left the room, he could still feel the heavy weight of sadness in house. He finally had his answer on why Kakarot would resurrect him; the earthen Saiyan was desperate for family after his left. Well, this was his second chance, maybe this time he would be a proper brother, instead of a hostile stranger who made threats and demands. He finished the dishes easily and wiped down the table before he settled down on the couch in the living room, a book in his hand from the book shelf in the hallway. If he was to live in the house he figured that he should make himself comfortable. The book was only slightly entertaining, with the thinly laid plot stretching itself out and the characters constant whining, Raditz soon found himself dozing off. It would be half an hour later when Kakarot tapped him on the shoulder.

"Come on I think it's time to go to bed." He laughed before leading Raditz to the bedroom. "Uh I hope its okay to share the bed. The only other rooms are the kids and-"

"It's fine." Raditz cut him off before crawling on to the bed a curling on his side.

Despite his short nap he was still incredibly tired. Kakarot slumped down beside him. He could feel the tension radiating from his brother. Raditz was no fool, at least when it came to other people's behaviour. His brother had spent months alone and now he needed him in the same room, just to make sure that he wasn't alone anymore.

Raditz sighed and rolled over so that one arm was draped over his brothers shoulder, holding the other close.

"Is this comfortable for you Kakarot?" He asked lightly before nuzzling into his hair.

"Umm..." Kakarot rolled over so that he faced Raditz. "Now I am but uh... could you call me Goku? It's the name my adopted Grandpa gave me..." Raditz sighed.

"Kakarot was the name I gave you, and it's the name I prefer to call you."

"You named me?"

"Yes... Father wasn't around to do it."

"Well... I guess it's okay then, call me what ya like."

"What if I call ya a runt for the rest of your life?"

"Eh? Well that's not so okay then."

They both laughed and grabbed the blankets before falling asleep.

A/N: Well first chapter finished and if you liked it stay tuned for more!