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"Hey McGee," Tony said walking into the elevator with Ziva, "We're going to the bar with Abby. You want to come?"

"No," I said smiling, "I'm busy tonight."

"You have a date tonight, don't you? What's her name? What does she look like? Come on, give us the details."

"I'm meeting up with my old college roommate, Tony. He's in town for awhile and I offered him my place to stay. We're going out to dinner tonight."

"Oh, what's his name?"

Before I could answer the doors to the elevator opened allowing me to start walking towards my car. It wasn't that I didn't want to talk to Tony about what I was going to do night, but at the same time I didn't.

Tony was known for making fun of me for every possible thing in my personal life and I really didn't want to give him more. Everyone else I just didn't know how they would react if they knew that I was bi-sexual.

That was why tonight was so important to me. Sebastien Milano was my old college roommate, but he was also my ex-boyfriend, of sorts. We never really made it official when we were in college.

After school ended Sebastien and I went our separate ways. I went to Norfolk and Sebastien went to Italy to work at an art museum they had there. This was the first time he'd be back in the states since we graduated.

Climbing into my car I took a deep breath and looked down at myself. I wanted tonight to be perfect for Sebastien and I. I might love Abby, but she wasn't the first person I fell in love with.

Sebastien is the first person that I thought about my future with. I saw everything I wanted in my life happening with him around me. There were even times when I started thinking about my future with Abby and she'd turn into Sebastien before I was finished.

Pulling my car into a parking place in the airport I quickly fixed my hair before climbing out of the car and going into the airport. Sebastien had sent me a text saying that he'd be waiting in the café for me.

"Tim," Sebastien said when I walked into the café, "I've missed you so much."

Sebastien stood up from his chair and pulled me into a tight hug. Abby loved to say that she had the best hug, but feeling Sebastien's arms wrapped around me made me feel like melting.

"I've missed you too," I said softly.

Pulling away Sebastien smiled happily at me and started to pick up his bags. I quickly picked up the rest of them and blushed when Sebastien gave me a smile like he used to.

"What do you have planned for tonight, Tim?" Sebastien asked as we made our way to my car.

"Dinner," I said putting his bags in the trunk.

"Do you mind if I take a shower first? The person next to me was very disgusting and not just physically."

"No problem, do you have everything you need or do you want to stop by the store and get some things?"

"I have everything, Tim. I really just need that shower."

Nodding my head I drove to my apartment listening to Sebastien explain about the house he had been restoring. The sound of his voice was lulling me into a state of calm that only he could do.

Sebastien was everything that I wanted. I could feel myself falling for him all over again, although if I was being truthful I never got over him. He was the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.

I didn't know what Sebastien wanted though. We never really talked about our relationship when we were in college. I doubted he even knew that I was in love with him those years.

"Here we are," I said parking my car in front of my apartment, "Let's go up."

"Alright," Sebastien said grabbing some of his bags, "Are you sure that I'm not going to be in your way, Tim?"

"Come on, Sebastien, you're never going to get in my way. I love you being here."

"Good, I mean, I know we haven't been talking much since we broke…Since we left school."

"Were you about to say broke up?"

Sebastien looked at me with wide eyes before rushing through my bedroom and into the shower. I wanted to rush after him and force him to talk to me, but I knew that he wouldn't react well to that.

He thought that we were dating though, that we had broken up. Maybe I wasn't the only one that had fallen in love. I didn't know what I was supposed to do with that though.

I couldn't decide what Sebastien would want me to do. Did he love me like I loved him? Sebastien wasn't the type of person that really talked about his feelings so I doubted he'd tell me anything even if I did ask.

After taking a few deep breaths I stripped off my shirt and went into the bathroom. A smile crossed my lips when I realized that Sebastien hadn't locked the door. I just hoped I hadn't read him wrong.

Pulling the curtain back I saw Sebastien watching me with wide eyes. Without thinking I stepped into the shower and rested my hands on his bare hips. My eyes quickly raked over his body as I remember how amazing he looked.

"Tim," Sebastien said his hands going to my shoulders.

Before Sebastien could say anything else I pressed my lips to his. Almost instantly Sebastien's grip on me tightened and pulled me flush against him. My mind flew from my body when I felt his against mine again.

Sebastien felt as great as he used to. His lips working slowly against mine while his nail gently scraped down my back. It was exactly like I remembered and dreamed of doing again.

"I missed you," I said breaking the kiss, "God, Seb, I missed you so much."

"I know," Seb said staring into my eyes, "I'm sorry."

"What are you sorry for?"

"Tim, I had an offer to help renovate an old house in Norfolk. I could have stayed with you."

"You said they turned you down."

"I lied. Please, Tim, don't be mad at me. I was…I was scared."

"Scared of what? Sebastien, we'd been living together for two years. We were a couple for most of that time. What were you afraid of?"

Sebastien shook his head softly before pulling me into a bruising kiss. Bracing my hands on the wall behind him I kissed back with the same intensity. It was like both of us were searching for something we'd already found.

"That," Sebastien said pulling away, "That's what I was afraid of."

"You were afraid of me loving you," I said softly.

With tears in his eyes Sebastien brushed a hand across my face. I could see how hard it was for Sebastien to even admit what he had done. I couldn't blame him though, I was just as afraid when we were younger.

He was the first person that I fell in love with and I hoped he would be the last one. I didn't want anyone else. I knew in every fabric of my being that Sebastien was the one that I was supposed to be with.

"Are you afraid now?" I asked searching his eyes.

"Terrified," Sebastien said giving me a weak smile, "But I'm willing to try if you still love me."

"I never stopped loving you, Seb. Convince myself that I loved someone else, yeah, I did that. I never could forget about you though. You're the only person that I've ever truly loved."

Another brighter smile cover Sebastien's face as he pulled me into a kiss. The desperation was gone from this one and I couldn't have been happier. It was just one step, but I hoped it was in the right direction this time.