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I shot up in bed with a loud gasp and looked around to make sure I wasn't in danger. I heard loud footfalls hastily make their way up the stairs and toward me. In my panicked stupor, I jumped from the bed and tried to escape out the window, forgetting I was at Paul's house. The door banged open and when I couldn't open the window fast enough I cowered in the corner, my vision began to change, making the room look like the dark clearing in my dreams before changing back.

"Jacob!" Paul ran toward me, face morphed in extreme worry. When he got close, his face changed into the dead grey corpse of my nightmare. I screamed and began hitting him, trying to keep him away from me. I felt his hands grab my wrists, stopping me from assaulting him, and I sobbed, wishing he'd leave me alone. I closed my eyes and waited for him to bite and kill me like he did in my dream but when I didn't feel any pain I slowly opened my eyes and, through blurry vision, saw I was back in the room with normal Paul with his hands around my wrists. My crying died down and once Paul realized I wasn't going to try to hit him anymore, let my wrists go, sat down and pulled me to him. I listened to his heartbeat and knew I was awake. I started crying again, in relief, and Paul rocked me back and forth, not making a sound. He rocked me until I, once again, stopped crying and pulled my face up to mine to meet his worried and scared brown eyes. "What happened Jacob?"

"Noth-" Paul cut me off.

"That was not fucking nothing Jacob, you screamed Jake," he paused and took a shaky breath "you looked so damn terrified and you-" he stopped "what happened Jacob, and please, don't tell me it was nothing" I stared at him and nodded before wiping my face with my arm. Grabbing his hand, we got up and we sat back on the bed, him looking at me desperate for answers and me looking down at the carpet. I explained to him about the dream, being at first beach, the tidal wave, the pictures. When I got to the part of the clearing, Paul took my hands in his making me feel a small bit more comfortable. I struggled with the lump in my throat but told him about what he, Emmett and Alice tried to do to me, but I left out the wedding band feeling he didn't need to know that just yet.

"I was screaming earlier because the room, my vision kept changing everything back into the dream and I just, I couldn't," Paul just grabbed me again and pulled me back to his chest. I moved and sat on his lap and put our foreheads together, not caring about how intimate the position looked.

"I wouldn't, I wouldn't ever, won't ever hurt you Jacob, never, not even in death" I opened my eyes and we stared into one another's eyes, his resolve and love more pronounced "I like, no, I love you too damn much to do that Jacob." Paul had wrapped his arms around my waist "I've been working too damn hard to get you to love me and I'm not just going to hurt you in the end, you are my life Jacob, the only one I will ever love, the only one I want to marry and the only one I want by my side watching our children grow." My heart ached when I thought about it, a life with Paul. Being married and having kids like he says. My heart aches not because I'm afraid or disgusted, it's because I want that, so damn bad, more than I think I'm willing to admit. I stare back into Paul's eyes and decide, maybe being with Paul, I can experience true happiness. In the back of my head I hear a voice telling me I'll just end up alone once again even more broken hearted than the last time, but I think I'm willing to bet my mental, emotional and physical stability that I could actually be loved. My face unconsciously lowered to his and by the time I realized, I was already kissing him. His lips gave my body a shock that went through my entire body making me shiver in pleasure and when he started moving his lips against mine, I'd forgotten all about the nightmare. Paul scooted me closer on his lap and kissed me deeper making me moan quietly. Paul pushed his tongue into my mouth and began playing with my own making me begin to harden beneath the pants I had worn the night before. The kiss at the club paled in caparison to this one, that kiss was too rushed and didn't tell me anything about if this thing between Paul and I would work. With this kiss, and by how tight Paul held me, I knew that being with him would be a good decision. Paul got up and put me on my back on the bed, breaking the kiss. I wrapped my arms around his neck as he hovered over me with a serious look on his face.

"What's wrong Paul?"

"I, Jacob do you want this? I-I mean it's alright if you don't, I mean we can," I interrupted him this time with a smile.

"Paul?"

"Yeah?"

"Shut up" I pulled him back down and we started making out again. His lips lightly caressing mine, enticing small moans out of me when I felt him slip one of his hands up my shirt and begin playing with my nipple. He put his other hand up my shirt and began lifting it, leaving me no choice but to take of the cloth barrier. I did the same with his shirt and ran my hands down his chiseled body, running my fingers in between each of his abs, as he kissed me again.

"Jake," I ignored him and kissed him harder, working my hands from his shoulders down agonizingly slow to the top of his jeans. "Jake, we gotta stop," I ignored him again, sliding my hands over top his jeans to his crotch, both eager and nervous to touch him. "Jake, Jacob" he broke away when I captured his lips again and grabbed my hands bringing them up to his mouth and kissing each knuckle. "Love, we have to slow down, that will come in time but for now it's just getting you used to being with another man." I blushed and nodded before looking away, now unbearably hard and breathless. Paul moved from a top of me and moved to lie on his side facing me.

"Paul, what time is it?"

"About 8 in the morning"

"I'm tired" Paul went silent before pulling the covers over us, wrapping his arms around my waist, and dragging me close to him.

"I'll protect you" I froze in my spot when he'd said that. I was so used to doing the protecting; being everything that Paul is being now. Being treated like this, after years of protecting and soothing others, it felt nice to be the one to be soothed and protected. I turned around and snuggled under Paul's chin.

"Thank you" I whispered before drifting off to sleep.

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