AUTHOR'S NOTE: I'm not quite ready to start this yet. I just wanted to put it out there and see if it got a response. This is something very new for me. I'm not sure how it will be received but I thought i'd give it a go. This fic continues 'Maybe' in a very interesting way through Blair's POV within a novel she's writing. There are three elements to this story that I will specify throughout. 1.) Blair's POV through her own words. 2.) The present 3.) Flashbacks to show those of you who are really interested, what happened to their marriage. It might start to get confusing seeing that this book Blair is writing is something from the future. So we have past, present and future. I hope that makes sense. I know it's a ridiculous concept but I couldn't get it out of my head and I had to do it like this. If you haven't read my fic 'Maybe' it might be a good idea to read that first and figure out what this is all about. The reason I wanted to start a new fic was because the tone of 'Maybe' was kind of light and airy, the whole idea of this fic is not light and airy. It has it's moments, Nicky is still very present and it will still have humour but this is going to lead in a different direction. There will be some...for lack of a better word, heavy things popping up throughout the storyline. Nate will be there to make you laugh and at other times he might make you cry, same goes for all the characters. I really hope I do this idea justice because in my head it feels solid! I just hope it comes across okay and not too confusing. I'm very very attached to this story, it's near and dear to me and I want to continue it. I'm sorry that was so long-winded. As always, I do not own anyone in this fic but Nicky and a few important characters that i've created to move the story along and give it new dimensions. As with everything I post, ENjOY!

XOXOX -FQ

PERFECT

By. Blair C.W. Humphrey

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'Dan Humphrey,...is an all emcompassing noun for the word insufferable.'

That is the first line in my journal. In the summer of 2011 I brought a brand new moleskin to the Hamptons with me. I planned on writing lovely memoirs about the adventures my best-friend Serena and I would encounter. The men we might meet, the lavish parties we'd attend, random poetry inspired by the breeze off the water. But, no. I did not write about endless luxury and leisure. I wrote about Dan Humphrey pulling me into a swimming pool and ruining my custom designed Balenciaga. If you wonder if it's a coincidence that we share a name, it is not. No, he's not my brother, he's not my cousin. Daniel Jonah Humphrey, is my husband. And he is the person who asked if he could publish my journal. I told him I would never be comfortable with airing out our laundry for the world to see. He promised that he didn't want to exploit us, he just wanted to share what I had written. He thinks it could help people. If I was going to let people read parts of my journal I decided that I would sift through it and save certain things for myself. Certain things I can't even bring myself to discuss anymore, things my daughter doesn't need to know. This novel that you are reading is a compliation of some of my best and worst moments. This is a love story and a coping story. It's dedicated to my daughter for being on every single page since she was conceived, for giving me daily inspiration, and for completing me in a way I never thought possible.

'AGGHHHHH, I'm soaked. This is just...PERFECT!'

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To start off, Dan and I have a very unusual story. He was my best-friend's boyfriend for most of our high-school days. Even when they weren't together, they were kind of together. I hated Dan with a burning passion for most of those days. He was pretentious, annoying, mostly tasteless and what's worse... he was always around. We felt that we were total opposites, strung together by our mutual friends. Ultimately it was our alikness that had us detract. Dan and I were magnets of the same charge. Stubborn, level headed, smart, very ambitious. We often competed for the same things which only made us loath each-other more. It wasn't until we attended Yale together that we started to 'like' each-other. When I say, 'like', I use the term loosely. We began to respect one another. For as long as I can remember I have been a very strong headed person, always having to prove my worthiness. With Dan I was relaxed, calm; he brought another side to me. When we finally became official, my parents were shocked, not nearly as shocked as Dan's family and not nearly as shocked as my best-friend Serena; Dan's ex. I can now say for certain, Dan is the absolute love of my life and nothing about our start would be something i'd be willing to take back. I lost one of my oldest, closest relationships for him; I don't regret it in the least. What I lost with Serena would never compare to what I gained with Dan. He became my best-friend, my intellectual equal, my shoulder to lean on, my personal chef, my assistant, my lover; my everything.

xoxo

When 'Maybe' is over I plan on continuing this. let me know what you think. Thank you so much for reading. - FQ